Tonight,I check in with a lot to talk about.I had a very hectic day and getting home after that was an accomplishment.Today,there was a lot of traffic out on the road and it was really stressful and hectic.It was like rush hour.There was also a lot going on due to the fact that it was Veteran's Day.The county was having a Veteran's Day parade and that is why traffic was a bit tied up in my area.Not only that,I also had to contend with inconsiderate drivers who not move when the light turned green even after I beeped my horn three times.Not only that,I learned that a friend of mine did not get his DVD player back because his regular repairman could not fix it and had to take it to an electronics repair shop within the city.Yes,getting home today with all the hazyness around was an accomplishment.I was happy to finally be home to get cleaned up and take my bath before having a good dinner.I have eaten and I am now satisfied.It is now peaceful and I am hoping for a good night.
I am going to entertain my friends tonight and I am hoping that goes well enough.It always does but I still hope that it goes over with a positive response.But I have been practicing hard and it always goes good.
That was my hectic day.Comments are always welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions once again.I had yet another frustrating day on the job and it was not pretty.I once again had to pick up laundry todaya nd the place where I had to pick it up was another unholy mess.Dirty laundry was everywhere on the floor and in bunches and it took me nearly half an hour to pick it up.I was hoping to be on time but wound up being a few minutes late.On top of that,I had to put up with hypocrasy in the form of a colleague when I asked her to sign me up for a lunch but she told me it was too late but the rules of my workplace say that 10:30 am is the cutoff time and it was only 3 minutes left.But I could not get anywhere with her.She kept saying that it was "too late" but there was still only 3 minutes left.I pleaded my case and fortunately,we reached an agreement.She said that if any food was left,she will make sure I got something to eat.I did and I felt better.But the way that the day started out and this needless frustrtaing confrontation alongside the frustration of cleaning up after lazy drug and alcohol problematic people in a rehab center was really too much.If that was not bad enough,I also had to put up with other ignorant people and their baloney.All of these emotional conflicts led me to masturbate.It was just too much.But it was not over yet,I also had to endure yet another spur of the moment invitation from my niece to celebrate my mother's birthday today and I really was not in the mood for that.I was hoping to spend a nice quiet evening at home relaxing and taking it easy but I wound up cutting short such plans to go to a party that I was not even in the mood for and I had to put up with the loudness of my niece's screaming kids,which led me to have a really bad headache.I do not mind going to socail gathering.I have nothing personal against them nor am I anti-social.But I was definitely not in the mood for all of that after what happened to me today at work nor was I looking forward to being around a bunch of noisy kids.I know that they are my grand nieces and my grand nephew(middle child)and I have nothing personal against them.But I was looking forward to having time to myself to forget about all the negativisms that had happened.I did not get it.I am feeling a little at edge tonight and I am hoping for a good night's sleep and a great weekend.That way,I can put all of this behind me and forget it.A good night's sleep and a great weekend will hopefully make me forget about all the negativisms and just toss them to the wind.
I will be entertaining my friends tomorrow night and I am hoping to try out a few new songs that I have been wanting to try out.I hope that it goes well.
That was my day an dnight.Comments are always welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with a little bit more upbeatness that I have had in recent days.It was a work day and that went by as expected.Nothing negative to write about but it went by pretty good.I did my job,did a bit more shopping,went home and napped before dinner.No bad dreams related to my SSA issues happened and it was a great quiet nap.I had dinner and I typed a long e-mail to an online Beatles group that I am a member of,which was a review of the George Harrison album All Things Must Pass.It took me two hours to complete and my mind is now looking forward to a good night's rest.It was a typical day and again,nothing negative happened.
Next Wednesday,I will be taking my 4X4 in for new tire replacements for the winter.It will cost some money but that is okay,it's well worth it.I need to make my 4X4 winter ready and without those tires,it will not be.I am still looking forward to attending that support group at the church next Wednesday the minute that those tires are on the vehicle.I am hoping that it works out for the better and that I can get a lot out of it.I am still feeling optimistic about the whole thing and I am hoping that it goes good.I did not blow up at anybody today or tonight even though I got a little peeved at a couple of inconsiderate drivers as I was driving home from work.But tomorrow is another day and I am hoping that it will be a better drive to work and home.The weekend is fast approaching and I am looking forward to that.I can not wait to entertain my friends again.
That was my day.Thanks for any comments.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions again.Today was an emotional roller coaster of giant proportions.After I dropped off some laundry at work,I printed some Sinatra song lyrics that I would like to sing on Saturday night.I left,went home and did my computer work.The roller coaster occured when I was on my way to see my sexual abuse support counselor today.The traffic was immense.I had to contend with inconsiderate drivers who practically have no respect for the law.I drove behind a person who could not obey the speed limits.They were simply driving way too slow.I could not get around because of all the cars that were parked on the street.I had finally made it to the office but I was a few minutes late.I always try to remain punctual with my appointments and I hate it when situations like the one I described above hinders my efforts.I was just a little too angry and I almost really blew up at my counselor,which is something that I had never done before.I know that I need to work on my anger problem and I would like to improve.But situations like that one hinder my efforts.I do want to feel and be happier and I do want to live life to it's fullest alongside moving ahead when it comes to my job.But I am having a difficult time trying to control this problem and it's preventing me from doing what I want to accomplish this.
Regarding that other support group,I have chosen to go next Wednesday because my mechanic said that it would be better for me to go long distances when I have new tires on my vehicle.I am still feeling optimistic about that and I feel that it will be great.I will go next week if I can make it and hope for the best.
On a lighter note,I went to see a movie tonight,which was Texas Chainsaw Masscare:The Beginning and I thought that it was pretty good.It was the first movie that I had seen in a little over a year and that was great.I am hopingthat tomorrow will be better.Not only that,I am also relieved that another Election Day has come and gone.No more negative TV ads from candidates and no more of those totally rude calls from them either.For a year,I have nothing to worry about regarding that.I am also hoping for a Sabres win on Friday night.That would be totally excellent.
Thanks for reading.Comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better but I did have a rather frustrating day.After I voted,I went right to work and when I got to the place where I had to pick up the laundry,the place was an unholy mess and it took me 20 minutes to pick up the dirty laundry off the floor and sort it out and bag it.When I arrived at my work site,I simply popped in a load in each of the washers and started them.The work day,after a frustrating start,went as well as expected.It was a pretty quiet day with nothing negative to talk about nor eartshaking but my biggest test was yet to come before the day was over.I went to the grocery store to pick up a few things for the evening supper after filling my gas tank and went home.
When I got home,my mother told me that the bank called reminding me of the amount of money due.I had already known that and was going to pay it tomorrow but I decided to go today and pay it and get it out of the way so I can take it easy the rest of the month.I also got a rude phone call,which was a recorded message by a politician asking me to vote but I had already voted.It really got to me because I tried to get rid of it by hanging up but when I picked up the phone again,it was still there.After a few repeated hang ups,I finally got rid of it and it was peaceful.The only thing that I am awaiting at this moment is the final results of the Election Day votes.Thanks goodness Election Day only comes once a year.After that,I took a nap on the sofa and that was great.No bad dreams or flashbacks happened and it was nice to finally get a few winks and not have any terrible dreams as I have been having lately.After dinner,I relaxed a bit and watched the news.A really tiresome day but it's almost over and I hope that a good nights sleep will make me feel better.
That was my day.Comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I am really feeling at edge.Apparently,yet another spur of the moment thing happened today.My niece invited me and my mother over for dinner and I was not really in the mood.But I went anyway even though I did not want to because I did not want to arouse the ire of the women in this family.It happens to be a tradition in this family.If I do not accept an invitation for something such as that,I'll never hear the end of it.It will always be the same old loud bickering word exchange whenever a refusal happens.Plus,it was not too appealing or even great.My niece's children were all over the place.My brother in law wanted to have debates about religion and my nephew kept telling me to "Shut Up!I'm Trying To Watch A Movie."even though his father started the debate over this.My family does not believe in having a nice family conversation when we're having dinner together.All they want to do is watch movies and it's usually the same old type of movie over and over.It gets boring after a while and it's not very thrilling hearing negativisms all the while being there.I often wonder what has happened to warm,friendly family conversations whenever a family is having dinner together because sometimes that is what brings a family a little closer and fostering a feeling of warmth.But in my family,all they want to do is watch the same old boring types of movies over and over again and it does get tiresome after a while.I wish that I really did not have to do all of that.I was actually hoping for a nice little quiet dinner at home tonight but this spur of the moment invite was not what I really anticipated.The dinner was okay but the atmosphere was not very positive at all.I am now home and it is pretty peaceful at the moment.I can now think better.
Today,I went to my appointment to see my anger management counselor and that went good.We had a nice talk and now,he'll be handling everything pertaining to me.That is great.No more having counseling sessions with a seperate person regarding my medication management and behavioral therapy.He'll now handle everything.Again,that went good and I am glad that at least one thing worked out the way I had hoped it wouldThe day was not a total loss.One thing worked out and that was good.
I am hoping that tomorrow will be better.It is a work day and I am hoping for a good work day.I hope that nothing negative happens.
Well,that was my day.I am hopingthat the rest of the week works out.As always,comments and upbuilding advice are always welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.But I am feeling a tad upbeat.I had a really busy day of errand running and checking up on a friend.So,it was a very good day and I managed to get what I had to do done.
My mixed emotions are the result of last night's hockey game.The Buffalo Sabres lost to the Toronto Maple Leafs by a score of 4-1.It was their first loss in regulation this season.Yes,it was disappointing and a heartbreaker but tonight,they redeemed themselves.They beat the New York Rangers in overtime by a score of 4-3.But again,as with the Boston Bruins game a few nights ago,I was a little worried when the Rangers dominated most of the game.Buffalo did score first but the Rangers scored three goals when the Sabres made too many costly mistakes in the form of costly penalties and had the lead of 3-1 for most of the game until Daniel Briere scored to make it 3-2.Jason Pominville would tie the game in the third period to force an overtime.Daniel Breire would score the winner in overtime.Again,this game was another nail biter to say the least.But I am hoping that the Sabres will work on not making too many costly mistakes in a game,which can motivate the opponent to dominate and score goals on you.This is also one for the record books.They now have 8 consecutive road wins at the start of a season,breaking records held and shared by Detroit(2005)Philadelphia(1985) and Toronto(1940) for that category.But still,despite Saturday night's loss,they have the best record in the league at the moment.Their next game is Friday the 10th at home against the Florida Panthers.They're going to need the rest after that topsy-turvy playing schedule.
Last night,I sang for my friends and that went great.I actually tried three new songs.One by Kenny Chesney and two by Frank Sinatra.They all loved it.It was a great night and I had a great time.I left the place last night with a smile on my face.
Today,I managed to check up on a friend of mine and his live in girlfriend and they are doing good.They informed me that they were going to spend a week at her parents house and I asked them if they would keep me informed.They said they will.I also manged to do some shopping for my mom and I also got some shopping done myself for personal reasons.The day went by good.I managed to get a lot done and everything worked out for the better.I am now at home relaxing and I am glad.
Tomorrow is my appointment with my anger management counselor and I am hoping that goes well.Wednesday is my appointment with my counselor over at a Sexual Abuse Support Center here in my hometown and I am also hoping that goes well.I am also eventually hoping to attend that support group at the church.I again hope that this also works out.
I also managed to listen to the rest of that Big Blue Marble album last night and it was great.The music brought me back to my childhood when I used to watch the show every Saturday morning on an independant syndicated TV channel in my area.Again,the day went well and nothing negative to write home about(so to speak)and though I am feeling mixed emotions,I am still feeling a tad upbeat after posting all of this.
Thanks for reading and posting comments.FJ