Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the afternoon.Later on,I decided to get dressed in casual clothes and headed out.
I went for a drive to get out to another repair garage in town.On Monday,I will be going to that garage to get a second opinion to see if there is a coolant leak.I am hoping that there isn't but one can't be too sure.After that,I went to the local shopping mall and had a slice of pizza in the food court.After that,I bought a few small things at the local Taco Bell and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed a small green salad and ate the stuff from Taco Bell along with the salad.After I was done eating,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.I felt miserable after giving into this particular temptation and after I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed and I left nothing out.I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sin.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I really need to continue working on getting tough with myself.I can't keep on sinning and repenting of my sins constantly.I have to avoid falling into that particular trap.The thing is that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Yes,I am.I want to overcome this terrible thing and become the whole man that I am meant to be in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate some positive verbal and prayerful support right now.I am still going through a very rough emotional time and I need all the help and support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me.I still also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things to do today.I first had lunch at a restaurant near the place where my therapist is.After lunch,I went to a nearby used record store to pick up a record.After that,I headed over to my session with the therapist.
The session went well.After it was over,I went and paid a bill at Best Buy.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at another local church to find out how much their fish fry was and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,went back to the local church to get a fish fry,which I took home.
After I got home,I ate the fish fry dinner and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I am too tired tonight to talk about my struggles,but hopefully,I can start tomorrow when I am more able.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to my mechanic's garage to get an oil change and a check out to see if I had a coolant leak and to look at the tires.
My mechanic informed me that there was no coolant leaks and my tires have to be replaced sometime in the near future.After paying for the oil change,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light lunch and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money.After that,I headed back home to register all the withdrawn bills and I relaxed for much of the afternoon.Later on,I headed back out to go to a free dinner at a local church.
The dinner was wonderful.After some wonderful time with the people there,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to get something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day and I wasn't tempted.It was great that I had no problems with temptations today.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions are out there and they can try to get me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect laws.I can't let that happen.I have to show Satan and his minions,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are and I refuse to let the unnatural sexual desires that I have dictate nor define who I am nor how I will be or act.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support that I can get from all of you,both prayerful and positive verbal.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also goes to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment with my therapist,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and i headed for my morning group.
The morning group went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed for a local kitchen for lunch and after finishing,I headed back for my afternoon group.
The afternoon group also went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to go to my church's fellowship hall Lenten dinner.I got dressed and I headed over there.
The dinner was wonderful.It was great to be around my fellow church people after missing last week due to complications.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,since I am feeling rather sleepy from my busy day,I will start to talk about my struggles again hopefully by tomorrow.Please continue to pray for me and please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of taking my car to my mechanic's garage to get it checked out,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.
I first went back to the rehab center to sign up for their job placement services.This process took a while,but I am and I have a few leads to consider.After that was over,I headed over to a nearby restaurant for lunch and after that,I headed over to a used record store and bought myself a record that I have been searching for and I am glad to have it.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a friend's place of business and got a few CD cases to replace some broken ones.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work,which I did so while listening to my new record.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery still continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today was a busy day for me and I wasn't tempted to act out today in any way,shape or form.I guess that staying busy and keeping myself occupied with important stuff took my mind off of the negative sexual aspects of SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions will try to get me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect laws,especially those,but not limited to,regarding human sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all of the positive support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Wednesday groups and a Lenten get together at my church's fellowship hall,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I had stuff to do,so I got dressed in casual clothes to proceed with the rest of the day.
After a phone call from an out of town friend,I headed out to do some things that I needed to do.I first went and had my hair cut at a local hair place.After that,I had a frozen yogurt snack at a frozen yogurt shop near the hair place.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up some important essentials that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Popeye's top pick up some take-out food for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I ate my dinner.After I was finished with my meal,I quickly did my personal PC work.I also watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am feeling really tired,so I am going to put anything in regards to talking about where I am in my struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with an employment counselor and having my car get checked out,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the near mid morning as I overslept and I hurried to get ready for church.I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving and I hurriedly got dressed up in a suit as I only had time to drink my usual 2 cups of coffee.After I was finished dressing up,I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Sears to pay a bill and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my church suit into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the afternoon.Later on,I changed into casual clothes and I went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up a few needed things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I must confess that I gave into temptation today.I gave into the temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and also,the temptation to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that clouded my mind,which led to the other temptations to fantasize and lust.After I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for his forgiveness and for his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I felt truly miserable after this and I was also saddened by this fall.While praying for my Heavenly Father's forgiveness,I accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I pleaded repeatedly for my Heavenly Father's forgiveness and mercy.After I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day.I really need to start getting tough with myself.I have to stop myself from falling back into the pattern/trap of falling and repenting.I need to stop myself whenever these terrible temptations come around.I want to think pure and holy thoughts of my fellow man,not lustful and sensuous thoughts of them as thinking of men in that way is selfish and only gratifies not only the sin of the sexual activity between two members of the same gender but also the wrongful things associated with this terrible SSA.I need to really get serious with myself about wanting to overcome this terrible SSA and wanting to heal and become the man that I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need your prayers right now.I would appreciate some also much needed positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I want to be the whole man that my Heavenly Father wants and intends me to be,but I need to work on getting tough with myself in this regard.I can't keep falling into sin and repenting as that will never get me out of this SSA trap,but will only keep me in it.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some much needed positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting a much needed oil change and to have a possible coolant leak checked out with my car,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ