Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the afternoon.Later on,I decided to get dressed in casual clothes and headed out.
I went for a drive to get out to another repair garage in town.On Monday,I will be going to that garage to get a second opinion to see if there is a coolant leak.I am hoping that there isn't but one can't be too sure.After that,I went to the local shopping mall and had a slice of pizza in the food court.After that,I bought a few small things at the local Taco Bell and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed a small green salad and ate the stuff from Taco Bell along with the salad.After I was done eating,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.I felt miserable after giving into this particular temptation and after I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed and I left nothing out.I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sin.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I really need to continue working on getting tough with myself.I can't keep on sinning and repenting of my sins constantly.I have to avoid falling into that particular trap.The thing is that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Yes,I am.I want to overcome this terrible thing and become the whole man that I am meant to be in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate some positive verbal and prayerful support right now.I am still going through a very rough emotional time and I need all the help and support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me.I still also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ