Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I headed over to a Men's Network meeting,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and bought a few things.After that,I headed over to the public library to do my personal PC work and also,to print something from my e-mail.After that was all done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more diffcult in regards to hearing sounds that nobody else hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or way too unbearable to handle.I simply take it to both God and his son Jesus Christ in prayer and they help sustain me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for all that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a really overwhelming temptation at that.I had to really use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and waited for the erection to die down and when it did,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in a fight to resist all sorts of temptations to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have,which I have been battling for years and the battle gets even more difficult day after day,week after week,month after month and year after year.I am always at war with them and the war can get way too difficult to handle.When that happens,I simply continue to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the temptations seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or way too unbearable to handle.I simply take the temptation to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after talking about it to them,the temptation is reduced to nil.If ever I do give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for that and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God as he forgives the sin of giving into temptation.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the service.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, September 08, 2012
Friday, September 07, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning,despite some complications,and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed to do some important things that needed to be done because I had to keep an eye on my mom for the rest of the day as my sister and niece had some stuff to do.
For most of the afternoon,I did my personal PC work and I also had myself a light lunch of a bowl of soup.After lunch,I decided to simply take it easy while watching my mom and helping her when she needed it.
My mom really needed all the help that she could get from me for much of the day and I was glad to oblige.I did manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading is as well, while doing what I could for my mom.It is requiring an awful lot and believe me,it is a wonder that I haven't cracked under the pressure.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I also managed to get some more personal PC work in.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my mood will be from day to day,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I have to put up with hearing sounds and noises that nobody else hears,except me.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more than on any human devices,such as medication or therapy.God and his son Jesus Christ collectively have power greater than any human power.I simply take it to them and they help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle with BPD and the schizophrenic tendencies and that it great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This temptation was a really overwhelming one.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and I stayed sitting up until the erection had died down.I simply went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with these unnatural sexual desires and at times,the war can seem unbearable.There are times that I do feel like giving up,but that is what Satan,the Devil wants me to do,and I am not going to let him have his way with me.I am going to continue fighting these unnatural desires that I have and show the devil that he can't win with me.I am also still calling out to God whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or seemingly too unbearable to handle.If and/or when a temptation seems to be getting to strong,overwhelming or seemingly unbearable,I throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.If I ever do give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God once he forgives.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel pretty good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they offer and for getting me through the temptations that go with the territory of the struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning,despite some complications,and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed to do some important things that needed to be done because I had to keep an eye on my mom for the rest of the day as my sister and niece had some stuff to do.
For most of the afternoon,I did my personal PC work and I also had myself a light lunch of a bowl of soup.After lunch,I decided to simply take it easy while watching my mom and helping her when she needed it.
My mom really needed all the help that she could get from me for much of the day and I was glad to oblige.I did manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading is as well, while doing what I could for my mom.It is requiring an awful lot and believe me,it is a wonder that I haven't cracked under the pressure.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I also managed to get some more personal PC work in.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my mood will be from day to day,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I have to put up with hearing sounds and noises that nobody else hears,except me.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more than on any human devices,such as medication or therapy.God and his son Jesus Christ collectively have power greater than any human power.I simply take it to them and they help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle with BPD and the schizophrenic tendencies and that it great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This temptation was a really overwhelming one.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and I stayed sitting up until the erection had died down.I simply went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with these unnatural sexual desires and at times,the war can seem unbearable.There are times that I do feel like giving up,but that is what Satan,the Devil wants me to do,and I am not going to let him have his way with me.I am going to continue fighting these unnatural desires that I have and show the devil that he can't win with me.I am also still calling out to God whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or seemingly too unbearable to handle.If and/or when a temptation seems to be getting to strong,overwhelming or seemingly unbearable,I throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.If I ever do give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God once he forgives.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel pretty good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they offer and for getting me through the temptations that go with the territory of the struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, September 06, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,despite some interruptions,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to my spirituality group,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office to drop off a package that I had to return.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my mom's prescriptions.After paying the co-pay for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I helped out my mom a little more and in between,managed to get in some recommended Holy Bible readings in.My mom came home late yesterday and she has been resting comfortably since then.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.It is never an easy thing to cope with.I never know ho wmy mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggles seems to be getting too unbearable to handle or endure.I simply take it both God and Christ and they help sustain me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation.I simply sat up for a while and after the erection died down,I laid down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with the sinful sexual desires that I wish that I didn't have to fight,but each and every day,I am always in the fight for my life against these unnatural sexual desires.The fight,at times,seems to get way too unbearable for me to handle.Still,I am always re;ying on both God and his son Jesus Christ to help me in those times.Whenever the temptation seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle,I simply throw the temptation on both God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.After that,I move on.If I ever do give into the temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God.Again,it shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that I don't have to go it alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,despite some interruptions,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to my spirituality group,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office to drop off a package that I had to return.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my mom's prescriptions.After paying the co-pay for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I helped out my mom a little more and in between,managed to get in some recommended Holy Bible readings in.My mom came home late yesterday and she has been resting comfortably since then.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.It is never an easy thing to cope with.I never know ho wmy mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggles seems to be getting too unbearable to handle or endure.I simply take it both God and Christ and they help sustain me.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation.I simply sat up for a while and after the erection died down,I laid down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with the sinful sexual desires that I wish that I didn't have to fight,but each and every day,I am always in the fight for my life against these unnatural sexual desires.The fight,at times,seems to get way too unbearable for me to handle.Still,I am always re;ying on both God and his son Jesus Christ to help me in those times.Whenever the temptation seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle,I simply throw the temptation on both God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.After that,I move on.If I ever do give into the temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God.Again,it shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that I don't have to go it alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as i had a few things planned.
I first went to get my hair cut.After that,I headed over to the garage to get my alignment done on my car,which really needed to get done.After that was done,I headed over to the hospital to spend some time with my mother.After doing so,I headed over to a friend's house to see how he was doing.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable.I simply talk about it to them and after that,I feel a tad better.It also shows that I am not alone in my BPD struggles.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This was yet another overwhelming temptation and I really had to use all my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and while sitting up,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in the fight to resist any form of temptation.At times,it feels to unbearable to continue in the fight to do what is right.When that happens,I simply turn to both God and his son Jesus Christ for help whenever that happens.I simply throw the temptation on them and they help sustain me.I also feel much better after doing that.It again shows that I am not alone in my fight and that makes me feel pretty good.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.I am also planning to pay my mom a visit at the hospital as well.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for teh day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as i had a few things planned.
I first went to get my hair cut.After that,I headed over to the garage to get my alignment done on my car,which really needed to get done.After that was done,I headed over to the hospital to spend some time with my mother.After doing so,I headed over to a friend's house to see how he was doing.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable.I simply talk about it to them and after that,I feel a tad better.It also shows that I am not alone in my BPD struggles.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This was yet another overwhelming temptation and I really had to use all my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply sat up and while sitting up,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in the fight to resist any form of temptation.At times,it feels to unbearable to continue in the fight to do what is right.When that happens,I simply turn to both God and his son Jesus Christ for help whenever that happens.I simply throw the temptation on them and they help sustain me.I also feel much better after doing that.It again shows that I am not alone in my fight and that makes me feel pretty good.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.I am also planning to pay my mom a visit at the hospital as well.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for teh day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the post office to mail out a couple of important bills and after that was done,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money for my alignment tomorrow.After that,I headed over to the hospital to see how my mom was doing and spent some time with her.My mom was hoping to be out by today,but the hospital is keeping her there for a couple more days.After that,I headed over to a friend's house to see how they were doing and I also spent some time with them.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable.I simply take it to both God and Christ in prayer and they help sustain me.It is great that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I simply sat up for a while and the erection softened.I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I get tempted almost every day to act out on them.Though I have been ignoring them,they do keep coming back.Still,I am relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the SSA struggle seems to be getting too unbearable to handle.I simply throw the temptation on both God and Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It is great to rely on God and have him help me in doing the right thing.Thanks again to both God and Christ for everything.
Tomorrow,I have to get my wheels aligned.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the post office to mail out a couple of important bills and after that was done,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money for my alignment tomorrow.After that,I headed over to the hospital to see how my mom was doing and spent some time with her.My mom was hoping to be out by today,but the hospital is keeping her there for a couple more days.After that,I headed over to a friend's house to see how they were doing and I also spent some time with them.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable.I simply take it to both God and Christ in prayer and they help sustain me.It is great that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I simply sat up for a while and the erection softened.I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I get tempted almost every day to act out on them.Though I have been ignoring them,they do keep coming back.Still,I am relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the SSA struggle seems to be getting too unbearable to handle.I simply throw the temptation on both God and Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It is great to rely on God and have him help me in doing the right thing.Thanks again to both God and Christ for everything.
Tomorrow,I have to get my wheels aligned.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, September 03, 2012
Happy Labor Day to all of you out there.
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went over to my sister's house to do my laundry.I had quite a bit that I needed to do and my sister said that it was okay for me to use her washing machine and dryer to do my dirty clothes.I got all of my dirty clothes together and headed over to my sister's house.
When I got there,I started to do my laundry.I had to do it in two separate loads as I had a lot to do.It took a little over two hours,but I managed to get it done.After folding everything,I dropped my laundry off at home and I headed for the hospital to pay my mom a visit.
After spending some time with my mom,I headed over to a friend's house to see how he was doing and to keep him up to date on my mom's status.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I helped out with some more cleaning up around the house and after it was finished,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.It is never easy dealing and struggling with a disorder like mine.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or too unbearable to handle.When this happens,I simply take it to both God and Christ and they help sustain me.After that,I feel a little bit better.Thanks to both God and Christ for being there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation earlier this morning when I masturbated.After it was all over,I felt really terrible about the fall and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling.I gave into temptation,but I felt better after asking God in the name of Jesus Christ to forgive me.I am now forgiven and the slate is wiped clean.This shows me that the temptation to act out on the unnatural desires that I have can come like a thief in the night.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as they can come when least expected.I am always in a fight with these unnatural desires and I hate it when I fall.The fall only shows me that I have to keep relying on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations come.I have to accept the fact that I can never go it alone.God and Christ have to be involved in this all the way.I have to keep letting them in whenever temptation rears it's ugly head.I also have to work on going to them constantly whenever the urge does come.I am also asking that those who follow my blog regularly pray for me constantly as well.Please pray for me as I am going through this difficult time.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to everyone for all their prayers and support.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went over to my sister's house to do my laundry.I had quite a bit that I needed to do and my sister said that it was okay for me to use her washing machine and dryer to do my dirty clothes.I got all of my dirty clothes together and headed over to my sister's house.
When I got there,I started to do my laundry.I had to do it in two separate loads as I had a lot to do.It took a little over two hours,but I managed to get it done.After folding everything,I dropped my laundry off at home and I headed for the hospital to pay my mom a visit.
After spending some time with my mom,I headed over to a friend's house to see how he was doing and to keep him up to date on my mom's status.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I helped out with some more cleaning up around the house and after it was finished,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.It is never easy dealing and struggling with a disorder like mine.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or too unbearable to handle.When this happens,I simply take it to both God and Christ and they help sustain me.After that,I feel a little bit better.Thanks to both God and Christ for being there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation earlier this morning when I masturbated.After it was all over,I felt really terrible about the fall and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling.I gave into temptation,but I felt better after asking God in the name of Jesus Christ to forgive me.I am now forgiven and the slate is wiped clean.This shows me that the temptation to act out on the unnatural desires that I have can come like a thief in the night.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as they can come when least expected.I am always in a fight with these unnatural desires and I hate it when I fall.The fall only shows me that I have to keep relying on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations come.I have to accept the fact that I can never go it alone.God and Christ have to be involved in this all the way.I have to keep letting them in whenever temptation rears it's ugly head.I also have to work on going to them constantly whenever the urge does come.I am also asking that those who follow my blog regularly pray for me constantly as well.Please pray for me as I am going through this difficult time.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to everyone for all their prayers and support.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I got dressed up in a suit to go to church and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm to both the worship service and the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the service.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was surprised to see that my locally living sister was already at the house doing some cleaning up.When I got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants,I started to help out a little by bring some more stuff to the cellar and also,doing some much needed vacuuming in the living room before putting some stuff back in it's place.I also managed to get a few more things done.After doing those things,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and I headed out to go visit my mom at the hospital.
On the way there,I stopped at the local Target to pick up a few important personal things.After paying for them,I headed for a local restaurant to pick up a sandwich for a quick lunch.After eating that,I headed over to the hospital.
When I got to the hospital,I spent some time with my mom keeping her company for a while and after I did,I headed over to a friend's house who lived within the same area of the hospital and spent some time with him.
After spending some time with my friend,I headed over to my sister's boyfriend's house to have a little bit of eating with them.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in at the same time.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.For me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or unbearable to handle.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and talk about it and after that,I feel a tad better.I continue to seek God and ask him to help sustain me.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply turned to the opposite side and the erection simply died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still in the fight for my life when it comes to SSA and how to fight it.It is a very difficult fight where I am at war with the unnatural desires that I have and the fight is always a difficult one.It is simply a battle to do the right thing in God's eyes and to continue that fight.I am still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming and seemingly unbearable to handle.Whenever tempted to act out,I simply take it to God in prayer and I throw everything on him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better and the temptation is reduced to nil.If I ever were to give into any temptation,I simply ask God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,which is the Labor Day holiday,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I got dressed up in a suit to go to church and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm to both the worship service and the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the service.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was surprised to see that my locally living sister was already at the house doing some cleaning up.When I got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants,I started to help out a little by bring some more stuff to the cellar and also,doing some much needed vacuuming in the living room before putting some stuff back in it's place.I also managed to get a few more things done.After doing those things,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and I headed out to go visit my mom at the hospital.
On the way there,I stopped at the local Target to pick up a few important personal things.After paying for them,I headed for a local restaurant to pick up a sandwich for a quick lunch.After eating that,I headed over to the hospital.
When I got to the hospital,I spent some time with my mom keeping her company for a while and after I did,I headed over to a friend's house who lived within the same area of the hospital and spent some time with him.
After spending some time with my friend,I headed over to my sister's boyfriend's house to have a little bit of eating with them.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in at the same time.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.For me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or unbearable to handle.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and talk about it and after that,I feel a tad better.I continue to seek God and ask him to help sustain me.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my own strength to fight and resist this temptation.I simply turned to the opposite side and the erection simply died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still in the fight for my life when it comes to SSA and how to fight it.It is a very difficult fight where I am at war with the unnatural desires that I have and the fight is always a difficult one.It is simply a battle to do the right thing in God's eyes and to continue that fight.I am still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming and seemingly unbearable to handle.Whenever tempted to act out,I simply take it to God in prayer and I throw everything on him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better and the temptation is reduced to nil.If I ever were to give into any temptation,I simply ask God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,which is the Labor Day holiday,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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