Happy Labor Day to all of you out there.
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went over to my sister's house to do my laundry.I had quite a bit that I needed to do and my sister said that it was okay for me to use her washing machine and dryer to do my dirty clothes.I got all of my dirty clothes together and headed over to my sister's house.
When I got there,I started to do my laundry.I had to do it in two separate loads as I had a lot to do.It took a little over two hours,but I managed to get it done.After folding everything,I dropped my laundry off at home and I headed for the hospital to pay my mom a visit.
After spending some time with my mom,I headed over to a friend's house to see how he was doing and to keep him up to date on my mom's status.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I helped out with some more cleaning up around the house and after it was finished,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.It is never easy dealing and struggling with a disorder like mine.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming or too unbearable to handle.When this happens,I simply take it to both God and Christ and they help sustain me.After that,I feel a little bit better.Thanks to both God and Christ for being there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation earlier this morning when I masturbated.After it was all over,I felt really terrible about the fall and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling.I gave into temptation,but I felt better after asking God in the name of Jesus Christ to forgive me.I am now forgiven and the slate is wiped clean.This shows me that the temptation to act out on the unnatural desires that I have can come like a thief in the night.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as they can come when least expected.I am always in a fight with these unnatural desires and I hate it when I fall.The fall only shows me that I have to keep relying on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations come.I have to accept the fact that I can never go it alone.God and Christ have to be involved in this all the way.I have to keep letting them in whenever temptation rears it's ugly head.I also have to work on going to them constantly whenever the urge does come.I am also asking that those who follow my blog regularly pray for me constantly as well.Please pray for me as I am going through this difficult time.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to everyone for all their prayers and support.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ