Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I picked up a few more things at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put everything away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched something on DVD and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted yet again to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other upon arising as sexual images of men clouded my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as well.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that I received what I asked for.I wen through the rest of the day unscathed.I still have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful because of that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast and since I had the day off I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a few things to do today.I cashed my paycheck and after that,I headed straight home to register the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went to the post office to send out an important bill payment and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I had a light meal.
After eating,I headed out to the Friday night Celebrate Recovery group and I had a wonderful time discussing with them my week and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I was tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these urges.I prayed real hard and I didn't cease praying until the urges were nil.When I was finished praying,I felt better and stronger as I knew and truly believed that I received from my Heavenly Father what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can strike with temptations when least expected and I need to be ready when they do.Fellow blog followers ad readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also ask that you continue praying for me as well as I am getting pelted with temptations left and right.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced the amount of my e-mail and after that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then got dressed and I decided to turn in a little bit of bottles that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I went to a local used music store to pick up a CD that was being held for me.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped the CD off and after relaxing a while.I gave a friend a call to see if they were home so I could visit for a while,but they told me that they still weren't feeling well and after that,I headed back out to do some shopping.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.When that was over,I did some more personal PC work and after that,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.My usual Thursday night study was canceled tonight and so,I relaxed and enjoyed watching a DVD.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to indulge in fantasizing and lusting after other men and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately,I went to my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.It was overwhelming,but not as overwhelming as the last two days.Still,I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist the urges and when I was finished,I felt better and know that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but despite that,I still have to keep in mind that there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time with many ways to try and tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect law.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since I have the day off from work,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and later on,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a couple of errands to run.I first withdrew some money from the bank and after that,I paid a bill.After that,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after that,I did my grocery shopping.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I ate my evening meal.After that,I watched a DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was overwhelmed again by temptation.It was in the morning after I got out of bed and I was sitting down in a chair.Fortunately,I went immediately to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist the temptations.I prayed and I prayed until the temptations were nil.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.Though I did,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer habitually and pray for strength to help me fight and resist all sorts of temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced some of my e-mail load and after that,I relaxed for much of the morning.I was still feeling tired as mid morning approached and I decided to simply have my usual quick breakfast and after that,I laid down for a little over an hour to rest and get rid of some of the drowsiness.After I got back up,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I did my personal PC work and I simply relaxed and watch a portion of a movie that I put into the DVD player,but got bored while watching it and turned it off.I did a little bit more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.I stayed home today due to it being a rainy day and I had nothing to do and no place to go.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was overwhelmed by repeated temptations.I was tempted when I was laying down.I was also tempted when I was trying to relax and watch the movie.I went to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed for the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.In prayer,I kept telling Satan and his minions to hit the road as James 4:7b says to "Resist the devil and he will flee from you",but I am learning more and more when you fight and resist temptations,even with the help from the sovereign Lord and creator,Heavenly Father,and his son Jesus Christ,the temptations keep coming back stronger and the more resistance is put up,the more stronger the temptations will be.I prayed and I prayed until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for and I did feel it.I am still working on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father and ask him for that strength whenever these temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Yes,I do.I need to know that I am not alone in this particular struggle and both your prayerful and especially,your continued positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Labor Day to my fellow USA citizens.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands.I also paid a visit to a couple of people who I hadn't seen in a while.I also did some shopping at a local Dollar Tree store and picked up a couple of burgers from a local Burger King,which I had for my dinner with some heated up macaroni and cheese.After I ate,I relaxed while watching a DVD and did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems with temptations.But last night,as I was trying to get some sleep,temptations really started to hit me.I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.This time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished praying,I went right to sleep and slept soundly for the rest of the night.That temptation last night was a close call.Satan and his minions can strike at any minute at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as they can strike at any time when least expected.Last night,thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,I barely escaped.I now need to work on habitually going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide as they provide power that surpasses all of humanity.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for both the outdoor worship service and the brunch afterwards.
Both the service and the brunch were wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and since I was feeling a little sleepy,I decided to lay down and take a nap and I slept for a little over 2 hours.After getting back up,I did my personal PC work while listening to some music.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed again and also,enjoyed some more music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I have to vent and get something out of me again.Last night,it was for mental illness,but tonight,it is regarding my struggles with SSA.If any or all of you have felt that I haven't been open and straight with y'all in regards to them,your assumptions are correct.I haven't been totally straight with y'all.I have been hiding things from y'all.Now,I am going to be honest and straightforward with y'all.Fellow blog followers and readers,including those who struggle with SSA and are also supporting me,I have been leaving out a lot.I have been giving into temptations galore.I have been giving into the temptations to watch porn online,including,but not limited to,pictures of men in the nude alongside some pretty extreme and degrading stuff on video.I even masturbated to these pictures and videos.I have also given into the temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and yes,I have manipulated my genitals whenever nude images of men clouded my mind,which motivated the temptation to fantasize and lust after the images,which I did give in to.I have felt nothing but misery and shame as a result of my constant and continuous giving into the temptations to commit these sinful,terrible and immoral practices.I have not been doing a good job in fleeing from these immoral practices nor have I been doing a good job in showing that I am very serious about wanting to heal from SSA and wanting to overcome SSA,which I really am serious about.Last night,before going to bed,I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I told him everything.I left nothing out.I bared all to him in prayer.I told him all the sins and the temptations that I gave in to.I confessed all to him and asked not only for him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ,but I also begged and pleaded for him to be merciful to me for sinning constantly and habitually giving into temptation and sinning by doing so.I also must admit that tears were also starting to trickle down my face as I was talking to him and admitting all the wrongs and sins that I committed.I felt so unworthy,but continued to beg and plead for his forgiveness and mercy.I didn't cease praying.I even asked me to help me to continually go to him when I need the strength to help me fight and resist.I also asked him to help me where I needed faith.Again,I left nothing out as I prayed and prayed.When I was finished,I felt great as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father had forgiven me and showed his mercy upon me.I slept very good last night.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide,especially for the divine gift of forgiveness and mercy that my Heavenly Father provides to me and all of us even though they are both undeserved things.Thanks Heavenly Father and Thanks to his son,our divine Lord and savior Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ