Saturday, September 19, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I really did not do too much today.I mostly stayed home and relaxed.I had really nothing else to do.The only thing that I did was that I movced my vehicle to another spot on the street to coincide with the street parking laws.Again,I had nothing else to do,so I stayed home.
I did watch a little bit of TV.But there was really nothing on to be watched.I turned off the TV and did my personal PC work.
After doing that,I fixed a sandwich for lunch and I ate it while relaxing in a chair.The only thing that I did do was that I had a prescription refilled at the local drug store by calling it in on the phone.I also got a reminder from the hospital about my appointment for Monday afternoon with the nurse practitioner.I am eagerly awaiting the meeting with her as I have a lot to tell her.I have to tell her about the way that I have been feeling lately,which is depression of the worst kind.At least,that is the way that it feels to me.
While eating dinner,I watched the evening news and after I was finished,I watched a little bit more and did some more personal PC work,which was mostly internet browsing and checking out a couple of online videos on YouTube.
I am still feeling depression.I have been feeling this depression for far too long.I am taking my medication and I am doing everything in my power to try and overcome it but I am still in the state where I was when it first started.I have not been feeling like myself lately and I want to start feeling like myself.I am hoping to be out of this depression soon.I am also hoping that the medication starts kicking in really soon.I am alreday getting sick of feeling this way.
The only positive thing is that the depression has had no affect on my struggles with SSA.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Friday, September 18, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.Despite that,I had an okay day today.
The work shift went well.I simply did what I had to do in the alloted time and when I was finished,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home afterwards.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I turned on my computer to warm it up.I had a whole bunch of bills that I had to register at the Where's George site and I wanted to make sure that my computer was up and running.
I couldn't get online right away.I had to do a quick scan on my computer to see if there was any spyware or viruses in my database.Fortunately,there was none of that in my database.I had this done while I was eating and I just waited patiently as the scan was going.
After eating,I checked to see if the scan was done and it was.After closing off the software,I went online and I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.It only took me a few minutes to do and after I was done,I did some more personal PC work.I also watched a little bit of TV for a while.I also had another talk with the Drop-In Center and that conversation went well.Overall,a pretty okay day.
I am still feeling depression.I have been feeling this way for quite some time.I have been trying everything in my power to get out of this funk for so long but it seems that I am still not out of it.I am still taking my taking my medication and so far,it hasn't really kicked in.I hope that it starts kicking in real soon.I am already at my wit's end.Again,I am hoping to be out of this funk very soon.
The only really good thing out of this is that the depression has had no affect on my struggles with SSA.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.Despite that,I had an okay day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did the required work that I needed to do.I also hung out at the social club while waiting for laundry loads to get done.After I ate lunch,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped at our regular drug store to pick up a prescription that my mom had refilled a few days ago.I also bought something that was needed.After paying for everything,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I gave my mom her presription and I put away the other thing that I bought.I laid down and took a nap for about 45 minutes because I was feeling tired.I also had to get ready for an appointment that I had to go to today.It was an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor at the regular place where I meet with my normal one.I headed for the appointment when I was ready to go.
The session with the counselor went pretty well.I shared with her how I have been feeling as of late and she simply encouraged me to talk with the nurse practitioner about it at my next appointment with her,which will be on Monday.I headed straight home after the session.
I relaxed for a bit after I had gotten home.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty okay day.
I am still feeling depressed.I have been feeling this way since the last week in June.I have never felt anything like this before.I have been taking my medication and I have been doing everything in my power to overcome this funk.But I am still feeling funky.I am hoping to be out of this funk soon as I am already getting sick of this.
The only positive thing is that it has had no affect on my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.Despite that,I had a pretty okay day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I simply picked up a couple of heaping bags at the rehab center and dropped them off at the work site.I sorted the laundry out and simply waited for lunch to be served.After eating lunch,I dropped off some clean linens at the rehab center before heading straight home to take my mom to the medical facility to have her tests done.
My mom didn't get everything that she needed to get done accomplished.She only managed to get her blood work done.I simply waited for a few minutes until she was ready to go home.After everything was done,we went straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day.
When we got home,we both relaxed because we were both still tired from the long day.I laid down on the sofa and took a 1/2 hour's nap.I got up a little bit after 2:00 in the afternoon and I felt relaxed and refreshed.
After my nap,I did some more personal PC work and did some internet browsing.I even managed to watch some videos online and that was great even though it still didn't make me feel any better.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more internet browsing.Overall,a pretty okay day.
I am still feeling depression.I have been feeling funky for much of the day.I have been appealing for some support from anyone out there.So far,with the exception of one person,I have not received any.Is there anyone out there who also struggles with depression?If so,I want to hear from you on how you handle it.I am still taking my medication and doing everything in my power hoping to get over this funk.Any new ideas would be greatly appreciated.Thanks.
The only thing positive is that it has had no impact on my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.Despite that,I had a pretty okay day today.
The work day went well.I also took advantage of a meeting today where they were talking anout what stresses us and while I was waiting for laundry loads to get done,I decided to be a part of it.I did pay close attention to my job and it was wonderful to be a part of it.After the work day was through,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local supermarkets to pick up a couple of things that were needed for dinner.It was not too hard as I located them right away.After I paid for these articles,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I watched a little bit of TV and turned on my computer to warm it up so I would be ready to use it later on when I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I also did a little bit on online browsing.I even managed to talk with the Drop-In Center for several minutes and the conversation went well.Overall,a pretty okay day.
I am still feeling depression.I have been taking my medication and doing everything in my power to help alleviate my symptoms but I am still not where I should be.I am still feeling down and funky and I am hoping that this won't last very long.I am already at the point where I am tired of being depressed.Still,I am going to keep up what I am doing and I am hoping that things do indeed get better.
The only really positive thing is that it has had no affect on my SSA struggles.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have to take my mom to a medical facility to have some tests done the minute that I get home from doing all of that.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, September 14, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.Despite this,I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I ate a quick breakfast and I relaxed for much of the morning before getting ready for my appointment with my therapist.I had plenty of time to get ready as it was still pretty early in the morning.After the relaxation,I got dressed and headed for my appointment.
The session went well.I explained to her how I was feeling and how I have been feeling.She seems to think that the medication is not working well enough and that I should try something else.I told her that I really don't want to start trying any new different medication until the one that I am currently taking has started to really kick in.After the session,we ended and I have an appointment with her in a few weeks.I am hoping to feel better by then.I am hoping that I can find out the root cause of this depression so I can try to find the right medication for myself.I have been trying to find which one is right since I started taking newer medication after stopping to take one that I have been taking for almost 10 years.Again,I am hoping to feel better in a few weeks.
After leaving the hospital,I went to a local supermarket to pick up some things that my mom wanted me to get.I was fortunate to find everything that my mom wnated me to get for her.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I unloaded the shopping bags and my mom and I put everything away.I decided to relax and watch a little bit of TV for a while.I didn't watch anything much but it was better than being bored.
After eating,I watched the evening for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I am planning to call the Drop-In Center tonight before the evening is through.I have been calling them since the depression that I am going through started and the talks that I have been having with them have been helping me a little but I am still feeling depressed.
This depression that I have been going through has really been dragging me down.I was feeling funky for much of the day and I am still feeling funky.It hasn't leveled off like it usually does in the evening.This has really been getting the better of me and I am already at the point where I can't take it anymore.I have been in this funk for far too long and I am hoping to be out of it very soon.If anyone out there can say a prayer on my behalf,please do so.Thanks.
The only thing that this depression has not affected is my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Tonight,I am still feeling down.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,when I got up out of bed,I had a quick breakfast and I also did my personal PC work.I also laid down on the sofa because I was still feeling a little tired.Ever since this depression started,I have been feeling excessively tired and feeling funky.I am already getting sick of this funky feeling that I have been having and I just want it to be gone.
Despite that,I did manage to get everything that I needed to get done accomplished.I only ran one small errand today.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to buy a couple things that I needed and I also bought a hot dog for charity at a local supermarket.After doing all of that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy and I also did some more personal PC work.I also watched a little bit of cartoons on TV for a while when I was finished.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched the 60 Minutes interview with President Barack Obama.It was a great interview to watch and I was satisfied with everything that he gave in that interview.I also had a talk with an old friend of mine on the telephone.
As stated,I am still feeling depresssed.I have been feeling funky for quite some time and I really would like to get out.I am already getting sick of this funkyness that has been plaguing me for far too long.I would like to get out of this funk.I am hoping to be out of this funk soon as I am already getting to the point where I can't take it anymore.If anyone has any advice,please share.Thanks.
SO far,this depression has had no impact on my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow at the local hospital.I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ