Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I had my usual quick breakfast and after eating that,I went and did my personal PC work.I hung at home for much of the day waiting on my ex brother in law to come and fix the toilet switch.During the early afternoon,I did get a call from a man that I worship with in church and he said that he would pick me up and drop me off tomorrow and I thanked him before we hung up.
Tonight,I decided to eat out at a local pizzeria,but decided when my order was ready to take it home and eat it there.On the way home,I stopped at my ex brother in law's house and after 1/2 an hour and after I ate,we headed over to my house and he fixed the toilet and after that,he left and I did some more personal PC work.I did manage to watch a favorite movie during the middle part of the afternoon.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was tempted to do a lot of things connected with SSA.I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images were clouding my mind and also,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images.I was also tempted to look up online porn,but I managed to close off the internet and ask my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations and I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I asked for that strength and I also told Satan and his minions to get out because I refuse to give them what they wanted me to give them,which was to sin so they would get the satisfaction that they wanted.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also felt much stronger.For the rest of the day,I went through it unscathed,but there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church,including the morning's Holy Bible study class,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After my session with my caseworker,I headed out to drop my car off at the garage to get it looked at.After that,I headed for home walking.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up some things that I needed and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed by doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a movie in the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,upon awakening,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitalia and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind while I was doing this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into these temptations.I prayed real hard as I was really sorry for giving into these terrible temptations.After I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I simply went on for the rest of the day just trying to keep my mind off of these immoral things because I didn't want to give into these terrible temptations again.I just kept busy doing what I had to do and that was what kept my mind off of these immoral things.Though I managed to make it through the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and as a result of that,I am vulnerable to temptations to act out as a result of the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA struggle.Please continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,I am hoping to get a ride to church this Sunday as a result of my car being in the shop,I really don't have nothing much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day,but I really couldn't get everything that I needed to get done accomplished as a result of car troubles.
My car's engine lately hasn't been up to par lately.After getting the oil change done on Monday,I thought that everything was going well,but it is this engine problem that I have that makes the engine do something when I try to accelerate to a higher speed.I tried to get to the public library to get some important stuff done,but had to turn around and head for home as my "Check Engine" light was blinking on and off.
I did get a few things done today.I paid my car insurance and I paid my DirecTV bill.As for the rest of the day,I couldn't really do anything nor go anywhere as a result of the car problems.I just relaxed and spent some time online and communicated with some of my online friends.
Tonight,after I was done eating a light meal,I got a ride to my evening Holy Bible study group,which was wonderful and I also got a ride home.It was great to be around these people that I study with every Thursday evening.When I got home,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Though it is,I managed to escape unscathed as I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting and I wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals at the same time.Though I was a little stressed as a result of what had happened today with the car and the problems,I simply wasn't tempted to do anything in regards to my SSA feelings or anything related to them,which was pretty good.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.This means that I have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected and I don't want Satan and his minions in my life at all because Satan and his minions are spiritual troublemakers and again,I don't need nor want them in my life at all.I have to continue to pray to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also need to make that a habit because I don't want to have Satan and his minions try to tempt me into thinking the old and negative thoughts that I used to think in regards to SSA and my goals to heal and overcome this terrible emotional condition.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all please continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and emotional support each and every day as I don't want to feel alone.I know that I have my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ helping me,but I also need the help and encouragement of my fellow man on Earth as well.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of dropping my car off at the garage so they can look at it on Monday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done cleaning up,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned and it was also a big evening for me.
I went out to do some important stuff that needed to be done.I went to pick up my new pair of glasses from the eye doctor and after that,I stopped at a nearby convenience store to pick up something for lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up my lunch in the microwave and I ate it.After that,I headed back out again to go to a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that I needed.After paying for that,I dropped a few free newspapers at a few people's houses that I knew.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some personal PC work.
After eating,I got dressed up in dress clothes and decided to head over to church for the Ash Wednesday evening service,which was wonderful,which made this evening a big night for me as this was my first Ash Wednesday service that I attended since returning to church.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into my night clothes and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day and a big night for me.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.While that may be,I must report today that I didn't have any problems with being tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting alongside manipulating my genitals to the fantasies and lusting.Today,I went through unscathed.I guess that it's because that today was Ash Wednesday and I was planning to go to church for the service,which took my mind off of these immoral and impure things.I also kept myself busy by doing what I had to do and that helped take my mind off of these things.I went through the day unscathed and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,I must keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I never know when Satan and his minions will strike at me to tempt me to act out by fantasizing and lusting with sexual images of men clouding my mind.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had myself my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly as I had an appointment to keep to get my oil changed.After that was done,I quickly got dressed to get to the garage to have the oil change done.
After the oil change was done,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money and to pay a bill.After that,I headed straight to register all the bills at the Where's George site.After that was done,I headed back out to the post office to mail out an important bill payment and when that was done,I headed over to the local Sears to pay another bill.After that,I headed over to a local restaurant to have a quick lunch and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner tonight and tomorrow.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter of the two being the most difficult.This morning upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and yes,it was also imagining myself into the activity with them,but fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I poured everything on my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt much better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through much of the day unscathed until early this evening as the temptations were starting to come onto me again.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed fro strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard and also told Satan and his minions to hit the road as I refused to use my private parts for selfish purposes and also refused to lust and fantasize with other men.I told Satan to hit the road and take his baggage with him as I wanted no part of him in my life,my house or in my mind.The thing is this;If I want to heal and want my Heavenly Father to help me overcome SSA,I have to be serious about this and giving into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men isn't any way to prove that.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt stronger and I knew that my Heavenly Father gave me exactly what I asked for.I went on for the rest of the evening unscathed,including when I had to go to bed.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support by all of you as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After eating that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.
I stayed home for much of the day.I had no place to go nor anything to do.I stayed home and watched some TV and I also popped a DVD into the DVD player to watch it.After that,I decided to do some shopping at a local supermarket and the nearby Dollar Tree store for something to eat for dinner as I forgot to take something out of the freezer last night before going to bed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did some more personal PC work.
After having my light dinner,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two that I struggle with.Today,upon arising out of bed and sitting down,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals as sexual images of men clouded my mind,but I was fortunate enough to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed.The thing here is this in regards to me personally is that in the morning upon getting out of bed,my mind is not fully awake at that time and anything can happen at that time.I now have to be on guard against this and when it happens again,I will have to pray for strength from my Heavenly Father and ask him to give me that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to really get tough on myself and really pray hard to my Heavenly Father and ask him to keep me strong during the time upon arising out of bed so I don't fall into sin at that time like I did today.Fellow blog followers,please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right here and now and also,each and every day as I do get tempted by Satan and his minions to sin each and every day.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting the oil changed in my car's engine,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I stopped at another local store to pick up a small soup.After that,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to buy a sandwich.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I put some of the stuff away.After that,I prepared the soup and had the sandwich with it for a light lunch.After I was done with that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and read a little.Later on,I did put a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also planned for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Though SSA is the worst struggle for me,today was a day that I didn't have much of a problem.I had no problems with temptations to act out by fantasies,lusting and to manipulate my genitalia while fantasizing and lusting.I have to say that fantasies and lusting are my two main problems in this struggle.I never know when Satan and his minions are going to try to cloud my mind with sexual images of men to get me to lust after and fantasize with.The thing with this struggle is that I am always at war with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA and the war is always very difficult to fight,especially if you want to do what is right in the sight of the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,but my sinful nature always wants me to do the opposite,which is to sin against my Heavenly Father rather than do what is right because it is easier to give into temptations and sin against the sovereign Lord and creator of all things than it is to fight and resist the urges to sin.Not only that,the more resistance that I put up,even with my Heavenly Father's and his son Christ Jesus' help,the more stronger the temptations come back as Satan and his minions make the temptations stronger than the last time.This means that I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful of the machinations of Satan and his minions as they are out there and they are waiting to strike any time on anyone who worships the true God in the name of his son,the Lord and savior,Jesus Christ.When temptations happen,I need to stay on guard and be watchful and throw each temptation on my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Aside from that aforementioned temptation,I also get tempted to look up online porn,but I close off the internet and I get off the computer when that happens.I also get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that particular temptation happens,I simply and willfully choose to stay home rather than feed that particular temptation.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going and also show that I am not alone in my struggle against the unnatural sexual desires of SSA.I would really appreciate both of these things as I really need all the prayers and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ