Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had myself my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly as I had an appointment to keep to get my oil changed.After that was done,I quickly got dressed to get to the garage to have the oil change done.
After the oil change was done,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money and to pay a bill.After that,I headed straight to register all the bills at the Where's George site.After that was done,I headed back out to the post office to mail out an important bill payment and when that was done,I headed over to the local Sears to pay another bill.After that,I headed over to a local restaurant to have a quick lunch and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner tonight and tomorrow.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter of the two being the most difficult.This morning upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and yes,it was also imagining myself into the activity with them,but fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I poured everything on my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt much better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through much of the day unscathed until early this evening as the temptations were starting to come onto me again.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed fro strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard and also told Satan and his minions to hit the road as I refused to use my private parts for selfish purposes and also refused to lust and fantasize with other men.I told Satan to hit the road and take his baggage with him as I wanted no part of him in my life,my house or in my mind.The thing is this;If I want to heal and want my Heavenly Father to help me overcome SSA,I have to be serious about this and giving into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men isn't any way to prove that.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt stronger and I knew that my Heavenly Father gave me exactly what I asked for.I went on for the rest of the evening unscathed,including when I had to go to bed.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support by all of you as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ