Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I watched a little TV.I woke up with congestion and a headache as a result of that congestion.I also felt dizzy.I am still battling cold symptoms.I watched a little TV and I also had my usual quick breakfast.I also had my usual two cups of coffee.After I was done watching TV,I brewed some Echinacea tea and I drank it.I also brewed another cup and I took two Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules alongside a pain reliever powder and I went back to bed to lay down for a while.I needed to get rid of the headache and the dizziness that went with it.
After laying down for a little over an hour and a half,I showered quickly and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to get dressed and go out for some fresh air and run a few errands.
I first went to the Dollar Tree store to pick up a bottle of aspirin and a can of chicken noodle soup.After that,I headed back home.
When I got home,I heated up the can of soup and I ate it for lunch.I also registered the three dollar bills that I got in change and after that,I headed back out again.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a bottle of Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.After that,I decided to do a little bit of shopping at the local Salvation Army thrift store.When that was done,I headed straight home,
When I got home,I relaxed and brewed another cup of Echinacea tea and took a few Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.After that,I brewed another cup of tea and did more personal PC work.
After having a light evening meal,I watched a little bit more TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keep me much calmer.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation again today by masturbating and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing with other men involved as well.When I sinned again,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I left nothing out as I prayed.I told my Heavenly Father everything and I left nothing out.I did feel better after I was finished praying and I also truly knew and believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I simply went through the rest of the day and nothing else happened as I was out in the community for much of the day.I am asking all of my fellow blog followers to please keep praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you fellow blog followers not to be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Your prayers and positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things to do today.I was still battling symptoms of the common cold.I first went to a friends house to pick something up and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to see if they had a particular type of herbal tea that I was looking for,which they didn't.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to see if they had it,which they did,but I could only use it during the evening time.I also picked up a bag of cough drops.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to buy a pack of herbal tea to drink during the day.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light snack and I did some more personal PC work.I also made a cup of tea to drink for my cold symptoms.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player while relaxing for the rest of the day.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am starting to feel a little bit better in regards to the depressions that I felt last week,but I am still dealing with BPD and it's symptoms.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and at times,it gets worse instead of better as my moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me endure in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in keeping me sustained and much more calmer.It makes me feel a little bit better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are there to help me through.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was awakened by an erection and I was tempted to masturbate when it woke me up out of a deep sleep,but it didn't last very long.I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for the bathroom.As I headed for there,the erection started to die down and my genitals were fully soft once I was finished.I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply stayed busy by being out in the community and just doing what I had to do.This kept my mind off of sexual stuff and that did make me feel pretty good emotionally.I stayed busy and managed to keep my mind focused on what I was doing.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to continue to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had a few things on my agenda today.I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and I was looking forward to that.
The group meeting went well.After the meeting was over,I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to get a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player while relaxing.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The depression that I have had since this past Saturday is starting to finally lift.I am feeling a little bit better.I am still feeling some sadness,but it is getting better.I am hoping that by the end of this week,I will be feeling better.I am also still dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that does make my struggles with BPD and this current depression even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also relying more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle is seemingly getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him to help me endure through the negative effects in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I feel more sustained and much more at ease after praying.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last last night by masturbating to sexual images of men that clouded my mind while I was trying to get to sleep.When I fell,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.When I finished praying,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven by my Heavenly Father and that the slate was wiped clean.I really need to work real hard in keeping my mind off of sexual stuff and more on positive and healthy stuff.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father doesn't approve of this sort of thing.I have been on a healing journey for a long time now and I still seek healing.I want to heal and I want to be whole.I keep praying that I want to heal,but I fail at times and I am back to square one all over again.I want to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep praying for me.I also ask that you leave me an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,my throat started to feel better as it wasn't as scratchy and sore as it was for the last two days.I kept up spraying the throat spray and taking the throat drops and my throat isn't as sire as it was before.I am still feeling only a little bit of soreness,but I will keep treating it with the throat spray and taking the throat drops.
Since my throat was feeling better,I had a talk with my new job placement counselor and it was wonderful.After we ended our session,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I ran a few more errands before heading straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and slipped into a home suit.I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
After eating my evening meal,which was over at my sister's house tonight and it gave me a break from cooking,I came home and I watched a video and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The depression that I was in over the weekend as a result of the one year anniversary of my mother's death has eased a little more,but I am still feeling this because yesterday was the one year anniversary of her funeral.It isn't as bad as it was when it first started,but I am still feeling sad.I am hoping that by the end of the week,I will be feeling better and I will start feeling more like myself again.I will still continue to keep on praying to my Heavenly Father.I will keep asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through this depression.I know that they both will and I know that it won't be overnight,but I know that I will start too feel better soon.I also need prayers from all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts here.I need prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help out in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help make me even more determined to keep on living and also,they more positive encouragement that I get,the better that I feel.The more prayers that get,the more my faith and belief in both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ increases.Please keep up in prayers for me and also,don't forget your positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really haven't got an issue right now as I haven't been tempted much to act out in any way,shape or form.I have been keeping busy by going out and running the errands.I will share more when the unnatural desires that I have start to act up again,but so far,nothing has happened.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my Thursday morning spirituality group,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I still had a scratchy sore throat today.Though it wasn't as bad as was yesterday,it was still sore.I continued using throat drops and spraying my throat with throat spray.I didn't let my sore throat stop me from getting important things done.I still ran my errands and was glad to get them done.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work before sitting down to my evening meal,which was light as I really wasn't in the mood to cook something.I also did one more thing before turning in for the night.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am still feeling depressed as a result of the one year anniversary of my mother's death.Tomorrow,it will be the one year anniversary of her funeral,and I am still feeling the feelings of depression that I felt on Saturday.I am hoping to get through the week and still hope that my depression eases.I am also still dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle and current depression even more difficult to handle.I won't be seeing my therapist for quite a while,but I will continue to take my medication as directed.I will also still continue to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle tried to drain me of my emotional energy.I have been praying to my Heavenly Father daily and asking him for help in getting me through this depression and also,to help me deal with the symptoms of BPD and Schizophrenia that I struggle with daily.I ask for strength to help me endure and they give it to me.I feel more sustained and more at ease.I feel a tad better knowing that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still not ready to share them here for now.So far,since I have been keeping myself busy and trying to have this depression eased,I really haven't been thinking too much about anything lustful and fantasy like.I am just going to go through the days and work to have this current depression eased.I am again asking that all of you pray for me as I am still going through this difficult emotional time.I also ask for some positive verbal encouragement.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Please keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging comment or two as I truly and desperately need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have to meet with my new job placement counselor and if my sore throat isn't any better by tomorrow,I am going to head to the emergency ward at the local hospital.I have nothing else planned for tomorrow,but I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I woke up this morning with a scratchy sore throat.I took a few throat drops that I had throughout the day,but nothing was working.I had only a few things on my agenda for today,so I decided to get these done.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans that had accumulated in the back seat of my car and that I had put into garbage bags.After collecting the money for these,I headed over to a local McDonald's to get a nice cold vanilla ice cream cone to help cool down my scratchy throat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.After that,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I went back out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for my sore throat.I picked up a bag of throat drops and a bottle of throat spray.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took my psychiatric medication and sprayed my throat with the throat spray.I also put pajamas on as I stayed home for the rest of the day.A little later on,I sucked on a throat drop.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Tonight,I am still dealing with the depression that I had from Saturday,though it is not as bad as it was then.Still,I am dealing with it and I am hoping that it lifts soon.I am also still dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that is making both my BPD struggles and the depression even more difficult.I will be relying more heavily on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ throughout the week as I am still going through a very tough period in my life right now.I am still in a very difficult emotional period and I need all the help that I can get from my Heavenly Father,his son Jesus Christ and from all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue to pray for me as I am still going through some very difficult emotional issues right now.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement from all of you.Don't be shy.If you visit or have come to my blog in curiosity,please leave me some positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going.They really help in a lot of ways.Thanks to all of you for your positive words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,since I kept busy throughout the day,I had really no problems in that area today.But still,keep up your prayers for me and your positive verbal encouragement.I need both of these things in more ways than one.I will also keep up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ as well.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though I am still feeling down.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.For a change of pace,the pastor had us open up a copy of the Holy Bible and have us read a verse or two from the Gospel of Luke chapter 16.It is what the pastor based his sermon on and it was great.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I relaxed while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a friend's house for dinner as I really needed the company.
The dinner was wonderful.After we talked for a while,I left and headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into pajamas as I was staying home for the rest of the evening.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still feeling down as a result of the one year anniversary of my mother's death yesterday.The depression that I felt transferred over to today.I am still feeling pretty down about my mom being gone.Though it has been a year since her death,I am still feeling the affects.I know that I will never stop missing her,but her death is still as fresh a year later as it was when it initially happened.I guess that it will always be that way,though I wish that it didn't have to be.I am simply hoping that the depression will pass soon and I can get back to my life.I am still going to continue living and try to enjoy my life while I still have it,which is something that my mother would want me to do.She would want me to simply continue living my life and move on,which I am doing,though I still feel my mother's absence.I have taken my medication at the time that I am supposed to take it and within a few hours,it will be kicking in and I will be feeling tired enough to go to bed and go to sleep.I am also hoping that I will sleep better tonight as I had a tough time sleeping last night as a result of it being one year that my mom died.I am also going to continue my therapy.This week,I am going to have to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to help get me through this week.I am also having to rely on them to get me out of the depression that I am feeling right now.I know that I will get out of this soon.I still hate it that I am in it,though I do know that I can help feeling the way that I feel right now.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I will start talking about them when I am feeling better.Since I kept busy today,I had no problems with being tempted,but I know that there is the new week ahead.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I still need your words of encouragement.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouraging verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in cans and bottles at a local supermarket and picking up a prescription refill of my psychiatric medication,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits and that I feel better within the coming new week.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ