Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a very good day today.I simply ran a couple of errands for myself and my mom.I went to the bank to withdrawl some money and I also stopped at a yard sale and found some more record albums.The guy that was selling them let me have the 14 albums that I chose for $3.00.What a day.I went home afterwards and did some more personal PC work.While doing this,the mail came and a DVD set that I have been waiting on arrived.It was the 3 disc set The Chucky Collection of the 3 Child's Play sequels that Universal released during the 1990's.This now completes my Child's Play DVD collection.I was happy to get this with all the scene selections and all the other nice things.Again,my Child's Play DVD collection is complete.On Sunday night,I am going to watch Bride Of Chucky again after all these years.I have not seen it in a while.I did originally watch it on VHS when I initially purchased it as a previously viewed tape but now,I can preserve the video tape.
Tonight is my night to sing for the crowd.I can hardly wait to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that the night will go well.But still,I always hope.As for Sunday,I have made no decisions but whatever I do,I hope that it will be something that helps me out in a positive way.
Thatw as my day today and my hopes for tonight and for the next day.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better that I have been.I had a very smooth work shift today.It went by pretty fast.I got quite a bit done and I was happy.Before I started,I had a nice green salad for lunch at work during the lunch time break and it was delicious.After I had my lunch,I did my job and as stated,the shift went by smoothly.After I dropped off the laundry,I picked up a couple of things at a supermarket,cashed my paycheck and went home.When I got home,I did some catching up on my personal PC work and I also did a viral scan while I ate dinner.The good news is that there are no viruses or spyware on my computer.I even talked with that one friend who I have been trying to get together with for so long and he was feeling down in the dumps due to some things going on in his personal life.I wished him the best of success in his job searching and I hoped that he does indeed find a job.He thanked me and when my mom called me for dinner,I told him that I had to go and he again thanked me for calling.
The weekend is finally here.I am glad for that.I can hardly wait to sing tomorrow night for my friends.I know that it will be something special indeed.This is what I always wait on every week and it always puts a smile on my face when the weekend comes.I am eager to entertain my friends and I am hoping that it all goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The work shift went by smoothly and even the errand that I ran for my mom went well.But when I got home,I tried to relax but I couldn't.I was lying down on my bed and all of a sudden,images of men in a sexual way were coming back.I had the same old dreams of being in a room with another man with the both of us in bed together and I was performing sexual acts on him and it led me to masturbation.I really felt bad and depressed about this.I asked the creator to forgive me and though I believed I was forgiven,I still felt guilty and miserable.But after taking a couple of St.John's Wart capsules,I felt better and I went to get dinner for me and mom.It was simple take out food from a local KFC and it was pretty good.We had homemade pasta salad as a side dish and it was good.I also had pasta for lunch at work today before I went home for the afternoon after my shift was over.I was tired and I wanted to get home.I have to do it again tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the shift goes well.
I am now at home and I am feling better.I do not feel depressed like I did earlier after the relapse.As stated,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late since the sudden death of a fellow support group at the church member died.I guess that it will take me a while to get over this sudden and tragic death of him.I have never been in a rut like this for as long as this.It has been a month and I have not really started to adjust to life after this.I know that I will but I need to take my mind off of this and I do need to really readjust after this negative and senseless tragedy.I am going to need all the support that I can get.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.Again,I desperately need to readjust.I am hoping that someone can help me.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up went well.There was no mess to clean.I simply dropped it off at the work site and after some time at the social club,I went home.On the way,I did manage to stop at a Burger King in my area and have a Whopper Jr. sandwich.I felt that this would tie me over until dinner.
When I got home,I simply watched a special feature on a new DVD that I bought and relaxed.I also layed down on my bed for a bit.I did so because I received the book that I was waiting on.The minute that I get the money to pay that friend of mine,I am going to send it to him.I managed to read some of the contributions that I shared and that was wonderful.It was great to finally read that and smile know that I accomplished something.It is great to contribute to something and share it with the entire world.
After a light dinner,I went to my support group meeting at the church and the meeting was wonderful.We are still feeling the pain of the death of that member who was taken from us so suddenly and at so young of age when he was working on a reconciliation with his family.It is a very tragic thing.Like the rest of my group,I am also feeling it.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ever since this happened.I am hoping that this is over soon.I don't think that I can stand it much longer.But I am going to tough it out and hope for the best.I know that he would not want me or any of the group to dwell on the fact that he is gone.I know that he would want us to move on with our lives and accept that he is no longer with us.I am going to work on that and I am hoping that this rut is over soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I will do a favor for my mom and I will take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty fair.I had a pretty smooth work day today.But it did go by slowly.But I managed to get a lot done.
I also managed to finally,on my break,get ahold of a friend of mine who I have been trying to get ahold of the past several days.He said that he had gone away for a while because he felt that he needed to get out of town for a while.I was relived that he was okay and well.I was worried about the guy because I did not hear from him and it really made me think that there was something wrong.But I am relieved that he is okay and that he is well.I am still looking forward to getting together with him and he is still hoping for the same thing.I hope that something will happen.I have not really seen this guy face to face in quite a while and I am hopingthat soon,we can see each other again.We have been having great conversations and that is great.Again,we are hoping to get together again.I hope that something comes of this.
When I got home,I managed to get an errand done for my mom and I also got some donuts from a local Tim Horton's.It was a nice change of pace from having ice cream.I enjoyed the nice little snack.I also managed to relax a bit in the afternoon.That too was great.
I am now at home relaxing.I am getting ready for tomorrow.I only have to do a little bit tomorrow and that is good.Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day and I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.Tomorrow night is also my support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting also goes well.I am hoping that the day overall goes well.
I rescheduled my appointment with the medication manager at the local hospital.I did it this morning before leaving for work.Though it is only almost a wek away,I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Happy Labor Day,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.I did not do too much.I never have much to do on holidays like this one.I stayed home for much of the day and I took it easy.It was a nice sunny day with only a small amount of humidity.But it was pretty good.I did not leave the house very much today except to run a coulpe of personal trips.I went out to get a couple slices of pizza as a small appetizer to tie me over until dinner.After dinner,I went out to get a battery for my watch so I can keep track of the time.My watch wore out one night and I waited to get a battery until I had the money.It was a cheap watch but the battery was replaceable and it does keep good time.After that,I came home and finished my personal PC work.It was a lot but I got it done.
I am now at home relaxing.It is evening at the moment and I am getting ready for the next day,which is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.I have been on an emotional rollercoaster as of late and I see,as far as this moment,that it is not going to end very soon.But I am hanging in there and I am still hoping that things will start working out for me.As stated previously,I am awaiting a book by a friend of mine,which he autographed,and I can not wait to check it out.I am still wondering how my contributions came out in the book.Again,I can hardly wait to receive it and to read it.WOW!I am hoping that it is a great work.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply went and did some personal shopping for myself.I had to pick up a few things that I really needed.It was nothing much.It was just a few odds and ends.But I got it out of the way.The day was pretty nice and I had a pretty good time out today.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a pretty awesome night.I even tried out one new song last night.It was an old David Allan Coe song.I heard it on the juke box and I thought that I would do it.It was pretty tough to sing but I managed it very well because I did get a very positive reponse from the crowd.The rest of the songs were songs that I reaquainted myself with.I am hoping to try out a few new stuff this coming Saturday and I am hoping that it all works well.Again,it was a wonderful night and I had a blast.
I had a talk with a friend of mine from New Jersey and he's doing good.We talked for a short time but it was great to talk with him.Afterwards,I took it easy for a while.I also layed down for a bit on my bed listening to a few of the old fashioned 78's that I bought a few weeks ago from the old man at that garage sale.For the rest of the evening,I have not really decided what I am going to do.I might go out for a drink and socialize with a few people or I might just stay home.Whatever I do,I hope that it helps me in a positive way.
Tomorrow is Labor Day.It is nothing special because I always have a day off on Monday.But it is great to have a nice holiday where I can do some stuff.There will be nothing much open tomorrow.So,I just might take it easy and concentrate on the week ahead.
That was my day today.My night last night and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ