Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and i got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things planned.I first dropped something off at my niece's house and after that was done,I headed to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and its accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods do vary from day to day,or,from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I still attend my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I always feel a tad better whenever I talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this fight and struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for helping me get through this particular struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,but it didn't last very long.I started sitting up as I felt the need to use the bathroom and the erection started to soften.After finishing in the bathroom,the erection fully softened and I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting up later while sitting in a chair by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Admittedly,there was some lusting involved.I stopped myself and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing this as it was wrong,unclean and impure for me to do.I must admit that the SSA struggle is no picnic.For me,temptations come when least expected and I am always fighting these temptations or when I do give into them,I do ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing so and I do feel better afterwards.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked for strength to help me fight and resist all urges that came around.I also admit that at times,I do get tempted to seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I willfully choose to stay home when that temptation comes around.I kept up in prayer to God all day and felt better afterwards.I am also again asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog posts to continue praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging comments both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets visitors,but nobody even leaves an encouraging comments or two.Please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please don't be shy when visiting this blog.Please leave an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.It would really make my day if you do so.Thanks in advance to all of your for your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
With the exception of church tomorrow,I really have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
The first thing that I did was that I went to the post office to mail out an important bill payment.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I didn't go out again for the rest of the day as the weather was still "COLD!",with wind-chills in the -10 range.I have heard that it is supposed to warm up next week,but that can change before it is known.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still continuing my therapy and continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I have nothing to fear as they are leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell early this morning by masturbating.I really felt miserable after this fall and really felt like there was a weight crushing me down.After the fall,I immediately asked God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better as I really believed that I was forgiven.I still get tempted throughout the day everyday as temptations come at me left and right and today was no exception.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual behavior,but I did keep up in prayer as I was tempted.I kept asking god in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist all of the temptations that came at me and I did feel better after praying for that.I am also still going to continue to ask for prayers by everyone out there who follows and reads my blog and what I post on here.I am also again asking for encouraging words by all of you in the comments sections as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans,with the exception of church on Sunday.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
The first thing that I did was that I went to the post office to mail out an important bill payment.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I didn't go out again for the rest of the day as the weather was still "COLD!",with wind-chills in the -10 range.I have heard that it is supposed to warm up next week,but that can change before it is known.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still continuing my therapy and continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I have nothing to fear as they are leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell early this morning by masturbating.I really felt miserable after this fall and really felt like there was a weight crushing me down.After the fall,I immediately asked God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better as I really believed that I was forgiven.I still get tempted throughout the day everyday as temptations come at me left and right and today was no exception.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual behavior,but I did keep up in prayer as I was tempted.I kept asking god in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist all of the temptations that came at me and I did feel better after praying for that.I am also still going to continue to ask for prayers by everyone out there who follows and reads my blog and what I post on here.I am also again asking for encouraging words by all of you in the comments sections as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans,with the exception of church on Sunday.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did 3/4 of my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful as I did get a lot out of it.After the meeting,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After eating lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend of mine and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the drug store to pick up my psychiatric medication.After paying the co=pay on this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my prescription and my copy of the Holy Bible and I headed back out again.I headed over to the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I shoveled the walk leading to the mailbox for the mailman and I also shoveled the sidewalk in front of the house.I also shoveled the walk on the way to the porch as we did get a lot of snow overnight and the weather lately has been really "COLD!"I also shoveled the back porch and after it was done,I went into the house to warm up and relax for a while.I also watched a little TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It's bad enough that I am going through that,but on top of having BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It never gets any easier for me.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.It is great that God and his son Christ Jesus are there for me whenever I am having any difficulties trying to stay sane and clam under the pressure of this double whammy of mental illness that I have.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though fortunately,it didn't last long.As I started to sit up in bed,the erection softened and when it was fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in lustful and sinful behavior connected with this terrible SSA.I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize and imagine myself in something sexual with other men.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations came around and I asked for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I always felt better every time I did.I kept it up all day and it was wonderful that God and Christ heard me and helped me whenever I needed it.Though I have been doing that,I am also asking that all my followers and readers of my blog to continue praying for me and also to leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide as they help everyone in ways beyond any human therapy can do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did 3/4 of my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful as I did get a lot out of it.After the meeting,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After eating lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend of mine and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the drug store to pick up my psychiatric medication.After paying the co=pay on this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my prescription and my copy of the Holy Bible and I headed back out again.I headed over to the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I shoveled the walk leading to the mailbox for the mailman and I also shoveled the sidewalk in front of the house.I also shoveled the walk on the way to the porch as we did get a lot of snow overnight and the weather lately has been really "COLD!"I also shoveled the back porch and after it was done,I went into the house to warm up and relax for a while.I also watched a little TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It's bad enough that I am going through that,but on top of having BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It never gets any easier for me.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.It is great that God and his son Christ Jesus are there for me whenever I am having any difficulties trying to stay sane and clam under the pressure of this double whammy of mental illness that I have.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though fortunately,it didn't last long.As I started to sit up in bed,the erection softened and when it was fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in lustful and sinful behavior connected with this terrible SSA.I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize and imagine myself in something sexual with other men.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations came around and I asked for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I always felt better every time I did.I kept it up all day and it was wonderful that God and Christ heard me and helped me whenever I needed it.Though I have been doing that,I am also asking that all my followers and readers of my blog to continue praying for me and also to leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide as they help everyone in ways beyond any human therapy can do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things planned for today.I first went to the local Big Lots to pick up a couple of things and after paying for those,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I have nothing to fear nor anything to worry about in regards to this particular struggle with mental illness and how terrible it can be from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate hot me twice at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours when two throbbing erections woke me up out of a deep sleep at both those intervals.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist these two urges.I tossed and I turned on both these occurrences and they died down.I went back to sleep at both these times when they did soften.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted to indulge in lustful fantasies and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or near the posit of orgasm and stopping.The sexual images really tried to envelope me,but I knew that I had to fight and resist these urges.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible urges that came about and I really prayed as hard as I could as I didn't want to give Satan, the devil what he wanted and I did feel better after praying for that.I kept it up all day whenever these terrible temptations came around.Though I escaped all of that by prayer,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to continue in prayer for me and to also leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue in prayers for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my Thursday Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things planned for today.I first went to the local Big Lots to pick up a couple of things and after paying for those,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I have nothing to fear nor anything to worry about in regards to this particular struggle with mental illness and how terrible it can be from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate hot me twice at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours when two throbbing erections woke me up out of a deep sleep at both those intervals.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist these two urges.I tossed and I turned on both these occurrences and they died down.I went back to sleep at both these times when they did soften.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted to indulge in lustful fantasies and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or near the posit of orgasm and stopping.The sexual images really tried to envelope me,but I knew that I had to fight and resist these urges.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible urges that came about and I really prayed as hard as I could as I didn't want to give Satan, the devil what he wanted and I did feel better after praying for that.I kept it up all day whenever these terrible temptations came around.Though I escaped all of that by prayer,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to continue in prayer for me and to also leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue in prayers for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my Thursday Spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things planned for today.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It is really difficult to deal with day to day,or at times,minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that with God and his son Christ Jesus leading the way,I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,another throbbing morning erection woke me up out of a deep sleep and my temptations to masturbate it away were really strong.I sensed that I had t use the bathroom and I got up and headed for there.As I was heading for there,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,the erection was fully soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out throughout the day.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping and/or proceeding to masturbate.Yes,when I do that,sexual images of men and other sexual thoughts concerning men cloud my mind and I really had to pray real hard to get rid of those lustful and immoral thoughts.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ repeatedly to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me clear my mind of the lustful and immoral thoughts.I always felt better after praying and I kept it up throughout the day as the thoughts and the temptations kept coming at me.I again ask for prayers by those who follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue praying for me as I am going through all of this stuff as I am working to get back on an even keel emotionally.I also ask for an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going.I will also continue in prayer to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and again,please continue to pray for me and again,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you followers for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things planned for today.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It is really difficult to deal with day to day,or at times,minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that with God and his son Christ Jesus leading the way,I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,another throbbing morning erection woke me up out of a deep sleep and my temptations to masturbate it away were really strong.I sensed that I had t use the bathroom and I got up and headed for there.As I was heading for there,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,the erection was fully soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out throughout the day.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping and/or proceeding to masturbate.Yes,when I do that,sexual images of men and other sexual thoughts concerning men cloud my mind and I really had to pray real hard to get rid of those lustful and immoral thoughts.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ repeatedly to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me clear my mind of the lustful and immoral thoughts.I always felt better after praying and I kept it up throughout the day as the thoughts and the temptations kept coming at me.I again ask for prayers by those who follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue praying for me as I am going through all of this stuff as I am working to get back on an even keel emotionally.I also ask for an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going.I will also continue in prayer to God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and again,please continue to pray for me and again,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you followers for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, January 21, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but since it was cold and snowy today,I didn't go out too much today.I chose to stay home for much of the day and decided to simply relax and pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with schizophrenic tendencies,which makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I still continue to attend my therapy sessions and I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply put this in God's hands and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through and they both help in sustaining me.It is wonderful that I don't have to suffer alone and that both God and Christ are there.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they provide as they give power beyond what any human therapy can offer.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to be very blunt and honest here in regards to where I am at with this.I gave into temptation this morning when I,while sitting in a chair shortly after getting up,manipulated my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping,only to proceed to masturbation and after I did that,I felt really miserable afterwards.After washing my hands,I asked God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to forgive me for falling short and I also begged for God to give me his undeserved mercy for this fall as I have been falling quite a bit lately.I felt better after the prayer as I truly believed that God has forgiven me.I have to continue to try and keep up in prayer to God whenever any type of temptation starts to try and envelope me.I have to try and keep up and asking God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist all these terrible temptations.I can't just keep falling all the time whenever these temptations come around.I have to try and keep working and staying in touch with both God and his son Christ Jesus whenever these terrible temptations come around.I am again asking those who continually follow my blog and read the posts that I write here to please continue in keeping up prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in this journey to overcome this terrible SSA.I may have fallen today,but I am still going to continue in my journey and I refuse to surrender to these unnatural desires that I have.I willfully refuse to give Satan what he wants as he wants me to give up and surrender to these unnatural desires that I have,but again,I willfully refuse to give him what he wants.Again,please keep up in prayers for me and also encouraging words in the comments section.I will also keep up in prayer to God and his son Christ Jesus as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but since it was cold and snowy today,I didn't go out too much today.I chose to stay home for much of the day and decided to simply relax and pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with schizophrenic tendencies,which makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I still continue to attend my therapy sessions and I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply put this in God's hands and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through and they both help in sustaining me.It is wonderful that I don't have to suffer alone and that both God and Christ are there.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they provide as they give power beyond what any human therapy can offer.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to be very blunt and honest here in regards to where I am at with this.I gave into temptation this morning when I,while sitting in a chair shortly after getting up,manipulated my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping,only to proceed to masturbation and after I did that,I felt really miserable afterwards.After washing my hands,I asked God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to forgive me for falling short and I also begged for God to give me his undeserved mercy for this fall as I have been falling quite a bit lately.I felt better after the prayer as I truly believed that God has forgiven me.I have to continue to try and keep up in prayer to God whenever any type of temptation starts to try and envelope me.I have to try and keep up and asking God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist all these terrible temptations.I can't just keep falling all the time whenever these temptations come around.I have to try and keep working and staying in touch with both God and his son Christ Jesus whenever these terrible temptations come around.I am again asking those who continually follow my blog and read the posts that I write here to please continue in keeping up prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in this journey to overcome this terrible SSA.I may have fallen today,but I am still going to continue in my journey and I refuse to surrender to these unnatural desires that I have.I willfully refuse to give Satan what he wants as he wants me to give up and surrender to these unnatural desires that I have,but again,I willfully refuse to give him what he wants.Again,please keep up in prayers for me and also encouraging words in the comments section.I will also keep up in prayer to God and his son Christ Jesus as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful and I did get a lot out of both of them.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweat suit.I had a light lunch and after I was done with that,I did my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and it's a double whammy that really gets difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions and they are going great.I am also still taking my medication as directed and it is working pretty good for me.Despite the therapy and medication,I am still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing this to both God and Christ Jesus,putting it in their hands and them leading the way once I have done so.It shows that I am not alone and that I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Christ for the power that they provide as they provide power and strength far beyond what any human therapy can provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was plagued by a triple whammy in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by throbbing erections in the wee early morning hours at three separate intervals.The first two didn't last very long,but the third one was the worst of the three.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this difficult temptation as there were sexual images of men creeping up into my mind.I simply started to get up and headed towards the bathroom,but the erection still wasn't softening.This time,I really had to pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as this was a very overwhelming urge.I prayed real hard and I kept asking God in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming temptation and as I prayed,the erection started softening and after I used the bathroom,I went back to bed and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this triple whammy,which was the first triple whammy that I had in a long time,I had to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was being tempted to act out throughout the whole day.I was being tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbation to these fantasies,or to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping,or to simply masturbate the rest of the way once orgasm has come.I was tempted to do all of that throughout he day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day and asked them to give me strength to fight and resist every urge/temptation that came at me from all sides.I always felt better after praying for that strength and it always worked.I kept taking it to God and God provided everything asked.I am again also asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read my blog posts and also,some encouraging words by all of my followers in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for their prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful and I did get a lot out of both of them.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweat suit.I had a light lunch and after I was done with that,I did my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and it's a double whammy that really gets difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions and they are going great.I am also still taking my medication as directed and it is working pretty good for me.Despite the therapy and medication,I am still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing this to both God and Christ Jesus,putting it in their hands and them leading the way once I have done so.It shows that I am not alone and that I have nothing to worry about or fear.Thanks to both God and his son Christ for the power that they provide as they provide power and strength far beyond what any human therapy can provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was plagued by a triple whammy in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by throbbing erections in the wee early morning hours at three separate intervals.The first two didn't last very long,but the third one was the worst of the three.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this difficult temptation as there were sexual images of men creeping up into my mind.I simply started to get up and headed towards the bathroom,but the erection still wasn't softening.This time,I really had to pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as this was a very overwhelming urge.I prayed real hard and I kept asking God in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming temptation and as I prayed,the erection started softening and after I used the bathroom,I went back to bed and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this triple whammy,which was the first triple whammy that I had in a long time,I had to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was being tempted to act out throughout the whole day.I was being tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbation to these fantasies,or to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping,or to simply masturbate the rest of the way once orgasm has come.I was tempted to do all of that throughout he day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day and asked them to give me strength to fight and resist every urge/temptation that came at me from all sides.I always felt better after praying for that strength and it always worked.I kept taking it to God and God provided everything asked.I am again also asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read my blog posts and also,some encouraging words by all of my followers in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of my followers for their prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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