Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did 3/4 of my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful as I did get a lot out of it.After the meeting,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After eating lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend of mine and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the drug store to pick up my psychiatric medication.After paying the co=pay on this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my prescription and my copy of the Holy Bible and I headed back out again.I headed over to the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I shoveled the walk leading to the mailbox for the mailman and I also shoveled the sidewalk in front of the house.I also shoveled the walk on the way to the porch as we did get a lot of snow overnight and the weather lately has been really "COLD!"I also shoveled the back porch and after it was done,I went into the house to warm up and relax for a while.I also watched a little TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It's bad enough that I am going through that,but on top of having BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It never gets any easier for me.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.It is great that God and his son Christ Jesus are there for me whenever I am having any difficulties trying to stay sane and clam under the pressure of this double whammy of mental illness that I have.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though fortunately,it didn't last long.As I started to sit up in bed,the erection softened and when it was fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in lustful and sinful behavior connected with this terrible SSA.I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize and imagine myself in something sexual with other men.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations came around and I asked for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I always felt better every time I did.I kept it up all day and it was wonderful that God and Christ heard me and helped me whenever I needed it.Though I have been doing that,I am also asking that all my followers and readers of my blog to continue praying for me and also to leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide as they help everyone in ways beyond any human therapy can do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ