Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and i got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things planned.I first dropped something off at my niece's house and after that was done,I headed to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day and I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and its accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods do vary from day to day,or,from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I still attend my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I always feel a tad better whenever I talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this fight and struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for helping me get through this particular struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,but it didn't last very long.I started sitting up as I felt the need to use the bathroom and the erection started to soften.After finishing in the bathroom,the erection fully softened and I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting up later while sitting in a chair by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Admittedly,there was some lusting involved.I stopped myself and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing this as it was wrong,unclean and impure for me to do.I must admit that the SSA struggle is no picnic.For me,temptations come when least expected and I am always fighting these temptations or when I do give into them,I do ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing so and I do feel better afterwards.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked for strength to help me fight and resist all urges that came around.I also admit that at times,I do get tempted to seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I willfully choose to stay home when that temptation comes around.I kept up in prayer to God all day and felt better afterwards.I am also again asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog posts to continue praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging comments both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets visitors,but nobody even leaves an encouraging comments or two.Please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please don't be shy when visiting this blog.Please leave an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.It would really make my day if you do so.Thanks in advance to all of your for your prayers and encouraging words.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
With the exception of church tomorrow,I really have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ