Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hectic day today.The first thing that I did today was to get my haircut.When I got to the shopping mall to where the place where I go to get my hair cut is,I saw that the parking lot was really full.I spent nearly ten minutes trying to find a parking space.I did manage to get one but it was frustrating trying to accomplish this.I was fortunate to catch a car leaving it's spot and I snatched it.After parking my car,I walked into the mall to get my hair cut.When I was leaving the mall,I had a tough time trying to find my car.I did find it but it took a bit of doing.But it was difficult in that huge parking lot.Again,I did manage to find it.
While I was waiting for my time to come,I had a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.When I was finished with that,I went to the hair place and my hair was cut.I also had to do a few more things before I went home.I checked on a friend of mine to see if he was doing good,which he was but his live in girlfriend was not feeling well.I also had to do some shopping for my mom and I also had to pick up some things for myself at a local Wal-Mart.When I finally accomplished everything that I set out to accomplish,I headed for home.
When I got home,I saw that my mom was not home.She was over at my sister's house having some pizza and chicken wings with some cake and ice cream for dessert.I did go over there for some and I went home after eating because I had to get ready for tonight.
When I got home again,I sorted out my stuff and I tried to complete my computer work but my computer was giving me issues.After several restarts,I finally got online.But all the stress and strain of all that happened today combined with the issues with the computer caused me to masturbate again.I feel better now but it was a big letdown for myself.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend works out for me,including tonight.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd again as usual.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing.I still hope for things to go well.Tomorrow will be Sunday.I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.I also hope that Sunday is a good day.Afterwards,I can look forward to the week ahead.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a very good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I also had a great lunch before I began my shift.I also had some great conversations with some of the social club members while I was eating my lunch.It was wonderful to let loose some steam and have some great talks where information can be shared.Again,a great shift and a great lunch.After I dropped off the laundry at the rehab center,I went home.
After I got home,I had to drop my mom off at the supermarket so she could get some shopping done.While she was shopping,I went to another supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and cans that had accumulated in my trunk over the past few weeks.While I was busy putting the aluminum cans in the proper deposit machines,I saw a couple of people that I had not seen in a while.It was the bartender from the previous bar that I used to entertain at before it closed and her daughter.I talked with them both for only a couple of minutes while they were leaving the market and after that,I went to pick up my mom at the other supermarket and hoped that she would be done when I got there.She wasn't but she almost was and I simply helped her to get it done.After that,we went home.
When we got home,I checked my computer to see if my usual weekly virus scan was done and it was.I am also glad to say that my computer was clean with no viruses or spyware on it.That was great.After that,we had a light dinner.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always enjoy entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.It always goes great and it's always a blast.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.Again,I am hoping that it goes well.
Earlier this evening,I made my mom a CD for her birthday.It is a compilation of Teresa Brewer songs that I had in my singles and old fashioned 78's collections.My mom likes Teresa Brewer and I am hoping that she enjoys this CD that I made for her.I hope that it makes her happy.Her birthday is tomorrow.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty smooth work day today and I had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.I also managed to buy a new portable CD player today and even a new car adaptor where I can plug it into my car cigarette lighter socket.It played better than my previous one,especially the CD-R's that I made of a few of my vinyl albums.
But it all took a turn for the worse when I got an extremely rude awakening in my mail today.I got a letter from another area in the county that I live in.The letter was from the Police department in that area.My niece is on my insurance and her vehicle is on my vehicle registration.The letter was a reminder to pay for a parking ticket that she received last year over the Thanksgiving weekend.Apparently,she stayed too long in a NO PARKING zone and was issued a parking citation.I knew nothing about it until I got that letter in the mail today.This really put me at edge and my emotional state today drastically changed.The worse part of it was that all of that unneeded and even unwanted stress and strain that I received from this really got me in such a tizzy that I masturbated,which really made me feel bad afterwards.But I am feeling a little bit better.I am just hoping that this does not happen for quite a while because I did this for her as a favor because she needed her vehicle to go back and forth to work and take her children to school.But when things like this happen,it sends my SSA up too many notches and my emotional state worsens.Again,I hope that this doesn't happen again or for quite a while.I hate it when stuff like this happens.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out well tomorrow.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping because we need to get groceries in the house before the holiday rush happens.I am hoping that this also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up that I had to do went over well.There was no mess to clean up and that made me feel happier.I just hate to pick up after people who can pick up after themselves.It made me feel pretty good.When I got to the work site,I dropped off and sorted out the laundry and after paying everyone at the social club a visit,I left for home.
After I got home,I simply relaxed for a bit.I also finished my personal computer work,which I started this morning before I went to do the laundry pick-up.It was a pretty good day.I also went to a Target in my area and checked out their stock of portable CD players that I can hook up to my car's radio w/cassette player.I have been trying to find a portable CD player that will play CD-R's better.The current one that I have doesn't play them too well.I guess that when this one was made,they really did not make it to really play CD-R's.But again,I am going to buy a new one when I can and I am hoping that it works out better for me.
My support group meeting at the church went over great.Our first meeting in two weeks and it was super.It was great to be around the men again and just be a man.It was wonderful to have them to listen and also to listen to them.A lot of us have issues in our lives that we are trying to resolve and sometimes,a group of this sort is the best thing to have.There are not a lot of support groups out there which can accomodate this sort of thing.Again,a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting.
When I was out,I got a call from somebody that I have been trying to get ahold of for a long time.He finally called and it was a relief that I heard from him.He said that he would call me tomorrow night and we can talk then.I look forward to talking to him.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over well.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorow and I hope that this goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.The work day went by smoothly.I did the pick-up at the rehab center and there was NO mess to clean.That was great.When I arrived at the work site,I seperated the laundry and started working immediately.It was pretty smooth.There was no work left behind by the previous days workers and that was good.After my job was done,I bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center and went to a supermarket in the area and picked up a few things for dinner.Afterwards,I went home.
Earlier today,before I went to work,I voted.It was my duty and I did it.It is also an end to all the negative campaign TV and newspaper ads that are rampant whenever this day rolls around and it does get irritating and monotonous after a while when you hear too much.I am just glad that the day is about over.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just anticipating the day ahead.
Earlier this evening,I went to a Radio Shack in my area and asked for some advice on portable CD players.I do have one but lately,it has not been performing up to par.It has been shutting off at times and when I try to play a burned CD from my CD recorder,it does not play at all too well.But when I try them out on my CD-ROM drive on my computer,they play beautifully with no problems.I guess that I have to look at buying a new portable in the near future when I have some money.OH WELL!
Tomorrow is a pick-up day.I am hoping that there is no mess to clean up.I am hoping that I can just pick up and drop off at the work site.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and night ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply went to the post office to mail out a money order.I also had to pay an installment on my line of credit at the bank today beforehand.Afterwards,I simply went back home.
The only thing was that I woke up late when I wanted to wake up early.Oh well.
The rest of the day's activities were not an awful lot.I simply did some personal stuff.Not too special.I also went to check up on another friend of mine who lived a few blocks down from me.He and his wife and family are doing good.That made me feel good.
The only other things that I did today was that I went to get dinner at a Subway restaurant in my area and they were having a customer appreciation day.It was where you could get two 6 inch subs when you bought two 21 ounce drinks.I simply bought two Hi-C's and the cost was only $3.00 even.That was great.The sandwiches were fresh as well and they tasted really good.It was a good dinner.It was also something different for a change over fast food,which is sometimes what we have on certain Monday's when my mom is not in the mood to cook.Again,it was a wonderful meal and then some.
My anger management/conflict resolution group went great.We talked about a lot of things.It was wonderful having people listnening and hearing me.It was also great to listne and hear them.It was a great meeting.Next Monday,there will not be a meeting due to it being Veteran's Day next week.There will be one in two weeks.It will be a pretty good wait but I'm going to hang in there.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow is also Election Day.It will be a day where we elect new officials.I am hoping that it works out for the good of everybody.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty decent day today.I really did not do too much.I ran an errand for my mom and I also went to get a few slices of pizza to munch on.The day was also not too bad weatherwise.The sun was shining but it was pretty cool weatherwise.At least,it was not bitterly cold.I also stopped in a few stores on the way home from running the errands.I did not buy too much but still,I had a pretty good time simply window shopping.Overall,a pretty decent day.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a pretty good time.It was great to sing up a storm from the crowd and as always,they appreciated it.It is great to sing for a bunch of appreciative people.I am looking forward to doing it again next Saturday night.I have not decided what I am going to do yet for next week but whatever it is,I hope that the crowd is as appreciative as they were last night.
I am now at home relaxing.I had a light dinner tonight and it filled me up.I am also anticipating what I might do for the rest of the night.I mighyt just take it easy for a while and I am hoping that whatever I do,I hope that it helps me in a positive way.I am thinking of going out and having a friendoly drink with a few of the guys tonight.If I do,I hope that there are lots of guys to talk to and the conversations are also great.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution group tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes over well.Aside from the day,I hope that whatever I choose to do,I hope that it also affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today,alongside my hopes for the night and the day ahead.FJ