Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I watched a little TV and did my personal PC work.I also did a little bot of cleaning up around the house.
Today,I was at home much of the time as a result of it being a wet and rainy day.I also wasn't feeling too well as today marks it one year that my mom passed away.I was feeling a little depressed today as a result of this being the one year anniversary of her death.I am still adjusting to the loss and her absence.I also still find it hard to believe that she is no longer here.I miss her and I know that I always will.I am still feeling lonely as a result of her not being here.It was great to have her around as I had someone to talk to,but now,I am feeling alone and depressed as today,it is the one year anniversary of her death.
I tried to cope and move on with the day the nest way that I know how.I simply cleaned up here and there around the house.After that was done,I popped a video tape in the VHS part of my VCR/DVD combo and relaxed.
After my evening meal,I watched some more TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with on a day to day basis.As a result of my prayers,I feel much calmer and more sustained.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation this morning by masturbating and there was lusting and fantasizing with other men involved with this as well.I really felt miserable and terrible after giving into this temptation and sinning.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for sinning.After my prayer,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I really hate that I am struggling with this terrible SSA and most of the time,I wished that I didn't struggle with it.I wished that I felt like a man.I mean,I wish that I can feel the way that a man is supposed to feel.Instead,as a result of my SSA struggles,I feel the opposite way.I am in really desperate need of prayers today.I am still going through a very rough and difficult emotional time and since this is the one year anniversary of my mother's death,it is actually getting worse as a result of that.I am feeling depressed and I am still feeling the absence of her and that is making my SSA struggles really difficult for me.Please pray for me and also,I would really appreciate some very encouraging and heartfelt words in the comments section.I need both very desperately.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement do help out a lot and they both also mean a lot to me.Please pray for me and don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have church as usual.I am also invited out to dinner tomorrow at a friend's house and I am looking forward to that.I will also be relaxing and taking it easy when I get home afterwards.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Friday, September 20, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went as well as planned.After that group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After having lunch,I headed out to do a few errands.After that errands were done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mind was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I got dressed up in dress clothes as I had a job interview that I had to go to.
I think that the interview went well and after it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and headed out to run a few more errands.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and heated up my evening meal and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both hope in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate during the wee early morning hours came at me when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it real bad.As I headed for there,my genitals started to soft and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day as sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stayed out for much of the day running my errands and concentrating on my job interview and that took my mind off of sexual stuff with men.I kept busy and that helped in more ways than one.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking for prayers by all of my followers as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some encouraging word in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.They,your prayers and verbal encouragement,both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and share some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a job interview in the early afternoon,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went as well as planned.After that group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After having lunch,I headed out to do a few errands.After that errands were done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mind was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I got dressed up in dress clothes as I had a job interview that I had to go to.
I think that the interview went well and after it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and headed out to run a few more errands.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and heated up my evening meal and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both hope in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate during the wee early morning hours came at me when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it real bad.As I headed for there,my genitals started to soft and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day as sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stayed out for much of the day running my errands and concentrating on my job interview and that took my mind off of sexual stuff with men.I kept busy and that helped in more ways than one.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking for prayers by all of my followers as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some encouraging word in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.They,your prayers and verbal encouragement,both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and share some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a job interview in the early afternoon,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I was out for much of the day running errands and seeing that much personal stuff was getting done.I went to a couple of stores to pick up a few things that were needed and after that was done,I paid a friend a visit and talked with them for a while.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dripped off a few newspapers at a few people's houses and at one of them,I had a talk with the guy who lived there,another friend,as he was taking out his trash,which I helped him with.After talking with him,I finished the job of dropping off the newspapers and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a movie in the DVD player and I watched it for a while.After that,I simply relaxed for the rest of the evening and took it easy.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got out of bed and headed for there.That made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Only this time,since I was out in the community,it really wasn't that bad.I stayed out and about and I kept busy.This kept my mind off of anything sexual with other men and kept me occupied.It took my mind off of sexual stuff with other men and that was good.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.You may not realize this,but your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my motivation to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and a scheduled job interview,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I was out for much of the day running errands and seeing that much personal stuff was getting done.I went to a couple of stores to pick up a few things that were needed and after that was done,I paid a friend a visit and talked with them for a while.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dripped off a few newspapers at a few people's houses and at one of them,I had a talk with the guy who lived there,another friend,as he was taking out his trash,which I helped him with.After talking with him,I finished the job of dropping off the newspapers and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed and did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a movie in the DVD player and I watched it for a while.After that,I simply relaxed for the rest of the evening and took it easy.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got out of bed and headed for there.That made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Only this time,since I was out in the community,it really wasn't that bad.I stayed out and about and I kept busy.This kept my mind off of anything sexual with other men and kept me occupied.It took my mind off of sexual stuff with other men and that was good.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.You may not realize this,but your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my motivation to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and a scheduled job interview,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work real quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.Before I set out to do what I had to do,I got a phone call for a job interview at a local department store for Friday afternoon.After that,I headed out to do what I had to do.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a box of cereal.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and the box of cereal in the cupboard.After that,I went back online to make a list of places that I applied to for a job to share with my new job placement counselor so I could call her and leave a message on her voice-mail.After that,I just took it easy for a while and watched a movie or two.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Lately,as a result of my job search and getting the same cold reception,which is getting interviews with nobody hiring me to give me a chance,I have been on a down spiral as my self confidence and self esteem are getting lower.Though I am still putting the applications in for work online and on paper,my confidence is still getting low and I am hoping that my latest interview will lead to me being hired.I really want to work and I also like to work.My schizophrenic tendencies are also contributing to this making my BPD struggles even more difficult and also,making my SSA issues going from bad to worse.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular struggle that I have,which is a difficult psychiatric double whammy.I pray for the strength to get me through.They both help in sustaining me and also,keeping me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am getting tempted to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting after other men.I was also tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really get up out of bed and walked around nervously as this current erection was a throbbing one indeed.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it and that made this throbbing erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed out in the community for much of the day shopping and just staying busy with what I had to do.It kept my mind off of all things sexual.I didn't have much at all today as I went through the day.While I went through the well enough,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They do both help in many positive ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also both help strengthen my motivation to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I connected with this terrible SSA.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work real quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.Before I set out to do what I had to do,I got a phone call for a job interview at a local department store for Friday afternoon.After that,I headed out to do what I had to do.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a box of cereal.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and the box of cereal in the cupboard.After that,I went back online to make a list of places that I applied to for a job to share with my new job placement counselor so I could call her and leave a message on her voice-mail.After that,I just took it easy for a while and watched a movie or two.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Lately,as a result of my job search and getting the same cold reception,which is getting interviews with nobody hiring me to give me a chance,I have been on a down spiral as my self confidence and self esteem are getting lower.Though I am still putting the applications in for work online and on paper,my confidence is still getting low and I am hoping that my latest interview will lead to me being hired.I really want to work and I also like to work.My schizophrenic tendencies are also contributing to this making my BPD struggles even more difficult and also,making my SSA issues going from bad to worse.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular struggle that I have,which is a difficult psychiatric double whammy.I pray for the strength to get me through.They both help in sustaining me and also,keeping me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am getting tempted to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting after other men.I was also tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really get up out of bed and walked around nervously as this current erection was a throbbing one indeed.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it and that made this throbbing erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed out in the community for much of the day shopping and just staying busy with what I had to do.It kept my mind off of all things sexual.I didn't have much at all today as I went through the day.While I went through the well enough,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They do both help in many positive ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also both help strengthen my motivation to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I connected with this terrible SSA.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, September 16, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the last morning and I showered quickly.I was hoping to wake up earlier in the day,but wound up oversleeping as a result of me having a difficult time trying to get to sleep last night.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did only a small portion of my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I had a terrible screeching headache.I had to take two headache powders to get rid of the pounding.As a result of that,I took in too much caffeine and I wound up urinating through the early afternoon.
Today,I had an appointment with the nurse practitioner and I headed for her office at the local hospital.
The session with her went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a lounge suit and I finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched an episode of a classic TV show on one of my DVD sets.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and they help keep me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.The urges were really overwhelming.I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him for the strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed real hard.I felt much stronger after praying as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave what I had asked for.I am again asking all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to continue overcoming SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the last morning and I showered quickly.I was hoping to wake up earlier in the day,but wound up oversleeping as a result of me having a difficult time trying to get to sleep last night.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did only a small portion of my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I had a terrible screeching headache.I had to take two headache powders to get rid of the pounding.As a result of that,I took in too much caffeine and I wound up urinating through the early afternoon.
Today,I had an appointment with the nurse practitioner and I headed for her office at the local hospital.
The session with her went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a lounge suit and I finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched an episode of a classic TV show on one of my DVD sets.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and they help keep me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.The urges were really overwhelming.I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him for the strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed real hard.I felt much stronger after praying as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave what I had asked for.I am again asking all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to continue overcoming SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed out to do a few personal stuff that I needed to do.
I spent out much of the day just getting things that I needed to get done accomplished.After it was all done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got into a lounge suit and watched a couple of movies that I popped into the DVD player.I also had dinner while watching one of them.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.I ask for strength and for help to get through it all.I feel more sustained and much calmer and level.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection,though it didn't last long.I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished and after that,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted minimally throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed out for much of the day and kept my mind on what I was doing out in the community.It took my mind off of everything sexual and it was good.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me while I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I desperately need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also ask that you please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Prayers and encouraging verbal support do work in many ways and they give positive benefits.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed out to do a few personal stuff that I needed to do.
I spent out much of the day just getting things that I needed to get done accomplished.After it was all done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got into a lounge suit and watched a couple of movies that I popped into the DVD player.I also had dinner while watching one of them.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.I ask for strength and for help to get through it all.I feel more sustained and much calmer and level.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection,though it didn't last long.I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished and after that,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted minimally throughout the day to indulge in sexual fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed out for much of the day and kept my mind on what I was doing out in the community.It took my mind off of everything sexual and it was good.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me while I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I desperately need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also ask that you please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Prayers and encouraging verbal support do work in many ways and they give positive benefits.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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