Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today is the start of a not very good weekend.I am going to be staying home tonight as a result of what happened to me last week on an expressway.But I am feeling better emotionally and I am hoping that things start working out for me in the end.I am still hoping that my compact 4X4 will be on the road very soon and I am still awaiting what my mechanic has to say regarding what other repairs that it might need aside from the alternator.I know that I will have to wait an entire weekend to get the answers but I have no choice.But I am hoping to have some wheels by next week.I just can't stand not having a vehicle.
I only did a little bit today.I went to a local small restaurant that is near where I live and had a light lunch of nachos with cheese to dip them in.It was really great.I even saw somebody that I had not seen in quite a while.We talked for a while while I ate my nachos and we talked about a lot of things.It was great.After I ate,I paid for my food and left.
On the way home,I stopped over at my niece's place to let her know that her grandmother has been trying to reach her and she told me that she will try to call her when she can.I left and went straight home.
After having some homemade soup,I laid down for a while and I decided to do some last minute computer work and I am glad.It has been pretty sad and bogus not having a car,but I am still hanging onto the hope that my compact 4X4 will be road worthy pretty soon.
For tomorrow,I might take another walk and get a bite if I am in the mood.Then again,I also have to run an errand for my mom tomorrow.I will have to walk it but at least,it will get done.
As stated,I will be staying home tonight.I will be taking it easy.I might watch a movie tonight.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.After doing that,I simply bagged everything that was clean and with the help of a job coach,I dropped everything off at the rehab center.I went to a public transportation center to catch a bus home.
While waiting for the bus,I decided to turn in some cans at a nearby store and I went to a store where everything sold there was only a dollar and I bought some elbow macaroni.I reached the public transportation center just in time to catch the bus to go to the bank and cash my paycheck.
After cashing my paycheck,I took a taxi cab home because of all the money that I had.I didn't want to take a chance of getting followed home by someone I hardly know.Plus,after getting taken advantage of two weeks ago,I also didn't want to take any chances.I made it home safe and sound.
After I ate a light dinner,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I still have a lot to do before I can call it a night.
I am going to be staying home this weekend.I have no car at the moment and the garage hasn't gotten around to fixing up my compact 4x4 yet.But they assured me that they will get around to it on Monday and I am hoping that it will not be as bad as I fear.I know that it needs an alternator and a belt.But if it needs everything else,I will have to cross that bridge when I come to it and take it one day at a time.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just going to sit down and get comfortable.I am not going out anywhere tonight or this weekend.So,I am just going to get comfortable.Again,since I have no car,I will just have to stay home this weekend.I know that it's sad.But what can you do when you don't have anything to drive to go out.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went well.I simpky did what I had to do and I got everything that I needed to do done.After that,I went home.
When I got home,I had a tough time trying to relax.I tried taking a nap on the sofa but my mom constantly talking made it difficult.I did go to my room upstairs and again,I had a tough time trying to do that.While trying to do so,I wound up masturbating again and after asking the creator for forgiveness,I finally dozed off and I slept for about 90 minutes.
After getting back up,I decided to start finishing my personal PC work.But I was cut short due to a pizza that we ordered getting delivered and I ate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I can get on with the rest of the evening.
Before laying down,my mechanic's step-daughter came to pick up a cash deposit for an alternator that needs to be put on my compact 4X4's engine to get it running and I am hoping that I can get the vehicle running very soon.I hate not having a vehicle.I now have a resolution to be a lot more careful in driving so I will not get into an accident again.I know that it's easire said than done but I am going to try and work hard at it.I am still feeling the effects of this past late Saturday/early Sunday morning.I know that I will be feeling these effects for a long time to come until I am fully back in the spirit of driving again.I am just hoping that this Winter will not be treacherous.But it might be.Still,I will hope.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly and after lunch,I got a ride home from work.
When I got home,I took a nap for a little over two hours.I was feeling tired and I felt that I needed this nap because I lost a little bit of sleep overnight.I felt better after that.
But I did have a hard time trying to for a short time.I wound up masturbating and after asking for forgiveness,I finally fell asleep.
After I woke up,my niece helped me out by taking me to a friend of my mom's house to pick up a bag and drop off some money.I also had to stop at a couple of stores to pick up a few personal items and to pick up my mom's prescriptions at the local drug store.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work,which I started while I was out at the social club after the laundry pick-up and sorting out.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day.I am just hoping that everything will work out for me in teh long run regarding the car situation.My compact 4X4 is still at my mechanic's garage waiting to be fixed.But I am hoping that everything will turn out good in the end.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do.I had help in doing the pick-ups and drop-offs from the job coaches and that really made it.I also did some of the loads that I picked up.The whole day worked well and that was pretty good.
I still did my usual after work stuff.The only difference is that I had to walk.I was tired when I was through.I am not used to all the walking.But I managed to get what I had to do done.I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and I went straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a few cartoons on a DVD that I bought yesterday.It was great.I was really exhausted.But it was worthwhile.I had a good day and that was something.
After eating a light dinner,I finished off my personal PC work.It took a bit of doing and several server issues but I managed to get it done despite that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply awaiting the start of the new day.I am hoping that tomorrow will work out as well as today.I did check with my mechanic and he is looking for a brand new alternator for my compact 4X4 so I can get it on the road.He also had informed me yesterday that he has to check it thoroughly to see if it will pass inspection in order for my 4X4 to be safe to drive during the bitterly cold winter.I am glad to have such a great mechanic.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I will also be checking with my mechanic tomorrow to see if he has found a new alternator.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling some negative emotions over what happened to me late Saturday/early Sunday morning.But the day turned out to be pretty fair.
Today,I had to have my compact 4X4 towed to my mechanic's garage so it can be fixed and I can put it on the road.I am just hoping that the cost is not going to be too much.But if it is,I will just have to work out something with my mechanic and I am hoping that he will agree with it.
On the way home from his garage,with his step-daughter giving me a ride home,I stopped at a small store to pick up a few things.I picked up two boxes of instant oatmeal and a box of generic Cheerios.I also managed to pick up a 3 DVD set of cartoons for only $6.00.When I got out and got back into the car,we went straight home.
When I got home,we had a light dinner and my sister and her husband came over to hang out.It is my mom's birthday today and they came over with cake.It was pretty good and my sister and her husband tried the cake my mom made,which they enjoyed.It was pretty good having them around.They left after they received a phone call.
After they left,I finished my personal PC work and I watched the latest episode of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.Afterwards,the conclusion of the Two & A Half Men two parter.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I will have to take the bus to work tomorrow as per the fact that I don't have a vehicle for now.But I am hoping to have my compact 4X4 off and running before the week is through.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really awful,angry and depressed.This has not been a very good day.
Last night,on the way home after dropping my friend off,I had an accident.While on the expressway,I suddenly lost control of my car and I crashed into the concrete wall on the expressway.I was feeling really shaken up by this and when I got out of the car,I saw that there was a lot of traffic backed up.As I turned my motor off,I stood by my car to watch all the other cars drive by and even a few of the drivers stopped to see if I was okay.I was physically okay but emotionally I was not very well at all.I felt a nagging pain in my stomach and I was also feeling a little shocked and disorganized.I even phoned 911 to report this and I saw that there was help there in the form of New York state Park Police and there was also an ambulance at the scene.Not only that,one SUV full of people was also there and they stayed until the whole thing was over.For most of the time,I was questioned by the park police & the paramedics.The paramedics took vital signs and even had me sign a statement as to them advising me to go to the hospital,but I refused.I just wanted to go home and put this anguish behind.One of the park policemen took me home.I had to show him how to get there because the area outside the nearby state park was foreign to him.Before I did get home,I phoned my mom to tell her what went wrong and what had happened.I also assured her that I was physically okay but I was really shaken and really over the hill when it came to my emotional state.I also had to do the usual stuff like the breathalizer test,the 9 step walk and the eyes moving with the pen.I passed 2 out of three,which is fairly decent.
When I got home,I phoned my friend and told him what happened and he said that he was sorry for what happened to me and that he hoped that I would be okay.He even phoned me earlier this afternoon.Before I heard from him,I did call the Christian counselor that I talk to every 2 weeks and I told him everything that happened and my state of emotional health.After a 5 minute conversation,he said a prayer over the phone and hoped that everything will work out for the better in the end for me.
Despite having a wonderful night of singing,my entire weekend was a wash-out.This accident really ruined for me.I am now at home feeling the same way that I felt last night.I am just distressed because I can't go out tonight as a result of what had happened.I will have to call the place tonight to inform them that I won't be coming in tonight.I am just hoping that I can get out of this rut fast and that everything will work out for me.
Right now,my car is at my regular mechanics garage.I will be calling him tomorrow morning to explain the whole story to him as to what happened to the car.I know that he will tell me that there is nothing that he can do to fix or even save the car.Fortunately,I still have a vehicle that has been off the road for a little over a year.I am hoping to get some use out of this vehicle until I can get another 4 door car.I am hoping that this can be on the road soon.It is a compact 4X4,but I assume that it's better than nothing.The only drawback is that I will have hardly any room to put laundry bags in it when I get this back on the road if ever.But again,I am hoping that this can work out either way.
I had a light dinner tonight.I really didn't feel too hungry but I ate so not to hurt my mom's feelings.I had to show appreciation for all the hard work that she did.
Overall,this wasn't a very good week.I lost some of my money.I lost a personal bag of mine and now this crash.The only fortunate thing is that I didn't ram into anyone elses cars on the expressway and that I wasn't seriously hurt.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am hoping that everything will work out for me so I will have a vehicle to use.Again,I am hoping that everything will go well.
That was my disastrous weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ