Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had some stuff that I needed to do.I first had to meet with my sister's lawyer to discuss some legal issues regarding the house we live in and other things.The meeting with the lawyer lasted a little over 20 minutes and after the meeting was done,I headed out to run some errands that needed to be run.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things that were needed and after I paid for those,I also had to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to check on a friend that I hadn't spoken to in quite a while to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed while making some time to do some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.It is always a struggle and it's never and easy one.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Whenever it seems to be getting too unbearable,I turn to both God and his son Jesus Christ and they help sustain me.It is never an easy struggle,but I do feel a tad better whenever it is God's hands.It is simply a matter of taking it both God and Christ and talking about it and feeling better once I do that.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.Again,I had to really use all of my strength to resist this temptation.I really wanted to grab my genitals and simply make myself ejaculate.But instead,I simply chose to sit up and sat up for a while until the erection died down and after it did die down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that these temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,which can take any type of form,can rear their ugly heads when least expected.I am always in a fight against these unnatural desires.It seems that these desires won't let up until I decide to surrender to them and give up the fight and simply live my life in sin rather than do what I know is the right thing to do.But I can't let that happen.I have to make it so that I own the unnatural desires and not them owning me.I will not give Satan what he wants.He wants me to indulge in all the sinful sexual activity that the so called "Homosexual/Gay" lifestyle offers and that is not what I want to do,but these unnatural desires that I have,which are connected to and borne out of Satan,want me to do so.I am still getting tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation or to simply bring myself to orgasm and stop.I am still turning to God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable to handle or when it is border-lining on seemingly impossible.I simply throw the temptation on God and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to strengthen me and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.If I do give into any temptation,I simply ask God to forgive me in his son Jesus Christ's name to forgive and after that,my sin is forgotten by God.I am also still asking for prayers by everyone who visits this blog of mine.I see that people visit my blog and read,but they don't leave anything.I am always asking for some encouraging and/or supporting words to help keep me going.Please share a word or two and also,keep me in your prayers.Thanks.Thanks also to both both God and his son Jesus Christ for all their help and strength.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual and the Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply went out to run a few errands that needed to be run.I was out for only a few hours today.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.It is a never ending unpredictable cycle.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes it even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel a little bit better.It is simply a matter of talking about the struggle with God and asking him in the name of his son Christ Jesus to aid and abet in the recovery.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a really overwhelming urge that I had to give into this temptation.I had to really use all the strength that I had to resist this temptation.I had to get up and sit up for a while and I did that,the erection softened and I used the bathroom,which I had to do,before going back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,which can take any form,can rear their ugly heads when least expected.I never know when they are about to strike.I am always in a fight to resist the temptations to act out on these desires that I have.I am also still in the fight to resist the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbating or to make myself have an orgasm and yes,there is usually some lusting after other men involved with this,though other times,it can be an emotional thing.Whenever I give into that particular temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me.I am still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable to handle or endure and I ask them for help in giving me strength to resist.After that,the temptation is reduced to nil.But I'm also in need of prayers by others to help me in my resistance regarding the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect for masturbation or to bring myself to orgasm and stop.This temptation has been a real drag for me as I don't want to do that unclean thing anymore.If anyone can offer some helpful as well as spiritual advice in how I can resist the temptation to "play with myself", please share as I am open to anything to help me stop this unclean activity.I will keep praying to both God and his son Christ Jesus in the long run and again,prayers and advice are always appreciated.Thanks in advance for anything offered and also,Thanks again to both God and his Jesus Christ for being there to show that I am not alone in my struggle.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,including registering a whole bunch of bills at the Where's George website,and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
My niece was over for much of the day and when she went out for an hour to go to a local supermarket,I watched over my mom while she wasn't there and when my niece returned,I headed out to do what I had planned for the day.
I first went to city hall to pay on the water bill and after that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out a couple more of important bills.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local store to pick up some stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work while watching my mom.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.It is a never ending ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more than anything.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help sustain me.It is simply a matter of bringing the struggle to God and him and his son help keep me calm,cool and help with getting it together.It is still difficult,but God and Christ both help to make it only a tad easier.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of their help.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.It was also a very overwhelming urge at that.I simply sat up and while doing so,the erection softened and since I had to use the bathroom,I walked there and the erection fully softened as I was heading for there and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still in a constant fight to resist the urge to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and the fight is always a very difficult one at that.I am always at war and it does seem that at times,the unnatural desires that I have refuse to surrender.But I am not going to give Satan nor his minions anything that they want because they want me to weaken and surrender to Homosexuality,but I refuse to do so.When that happens,I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help get me through any temptation.I simply throw the temptation on God and ask him in his son Christ's name to help me and the temptation is reduced to nil.If I do give into any form of temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and it is forever forgotten by God.It also shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help and getting me through every sort of temptation under the sun.
Tomorrow,I have a Spirituality group that I must attend and after that,lunch at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things planned for today.I first did a little bit more cleaning up around the house and after that was done,I had my mom prepare the bills to be mailed out today and also,to withdraw some money from the bank.After that was all done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the house.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know,from day to day,or,from one minute to the next,how my mood will be.It is a very difficult thing to deal and/or endure with.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.Aside from that emotional roller coaster ride,I also have to put up with hearing things that others can't hear,such as footsteps or the calling of my name.When it becomes seemingly too difficult,I simply take it to both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever that happens.I simply talk about it with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It is simply a way of taking it to them and asking them for help.It is great that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a really overwhelming urge.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation.I simply sat up and as I did,the erection died down and when my genitals were softened,I simply laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I never know when those temptation will come.They simply strike when least expected.I am always at war with these unnatural desires that I have as I refuse to let them define who I am as a human being.I have only accepted my identity as male and I accept nothing else.The temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can be a very overwhelming one at that.While that can be,I am still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ when that happens.Whenever the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have come around,as it does come when I least it to come,I simply throw it on God and talk about the temptation in the name of his son Jesus Christ and the temptation is reduced to nil.I am trying to tell the desires that I have that I own them and they don't own me.If I ever do give into any temptation to act out,I simply ask God to forgive in the name of his son Christ Jesus and after that,the slate is wiped clean and God forgets it.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help and for showing me that I am not alone in my struggles.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to my building and improving self esteem group.I was looking forward to this group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there.
The meeting was wonderful.After meeting with someone privately at the group's offices,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to buy a hot dog for lunch and after I ate it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having this.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more than on human therapy.They have powers that exceed anything by humans.Whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable or seemingly too impossible to endure,I simply take it to both God and Christ and they help sustain me.It is just a matter of throwing it on God and have his son Jesus Christ work alongside him to help in the sustaining.Admittedly,battling BPD,alongside the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,is not easy,but with God and Christ,it does make it a tad easier.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.This really was an overwhelming temptation and the erection was really a throbbing one at that.This was a very difficult temptation to resist and this time,I had to take it to God in prayer to help give me the strength to resist this overwhelming urge.I also had to get up and use the bathroom and after I was finished,the erection died down and I simply went back to sleep after I was finished.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might take,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with the unnatural desires that I have and the war is usually a seemingly and very unbearable one at that.It seems to get tougher no matter how much I resist any temptation that tries to envelope me.I also,at times,get tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation and most of the time,lusting does play a role in that.When this happens,I simply turn to both God and his son Jesus Christ.I simply throw the temptation on God and ask in his son Christ Jesus' name to help me in my resistance and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It is simply a matter of throwing it on God and ask him to help me to gain victory over my inherent weaknesses due to the fall from perfection and again,the temptation is reduced to nil.If it ever happens that I do give into the temptation,I simply ask God to forgive in the name of his son Jesus Christ's names and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God as God does forgive whenever anyone,like myself,gives into any temptations.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and for being there whenever the SSA struggles seems to be getting too unbearable or impossible.Thanks again to them both.
Tomorrow,I have plans to go to the post office to mail out some bills and also,to withdraw some much needed money for the bank.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go onward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some fellowship with everyone,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I had a light lunch and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did a little bit more cleaning up around the house.I even managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.For me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.
While my recovery continues to go onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I still attend my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about it with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help sustain me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for all of their help.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was another overwhelming temptation at that.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I sat up and chose to do so for a while and when the erection died down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I never know when the temptation will hit or what form it will take.I am always at war with these unnatural sexual desires and at times,the battle seems to be a very impossible one to fight.When that happens,I simply turn to God and his son Jesus Christ and they help in getting me through it all.I simply talk about the temptation with God and his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.It shows that I don't have to go it alone and that I can turn to them whenever I need to do so to reduce any type of temptation.If I do ever give into temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and after that,the slate is wiped clean and is forgotten by God.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for all of their help and everything else that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ