Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and I headed for the post office to get a money order to pay my car insurance this coming Monday.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and when that was finished,despite being under a "Freezing Rain Advisory" for my home town,I headed back out to do some much needed grocery shopping done.
I first went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up quite a few much needed food items.After paying for those,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few more.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while watching a holiday themed cartoon.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
After having a bowl of soup and a sandwich for my meal tonight,I watched another holiday themed cartoon as I still have a few that I haven't watched yet.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am rather tired and I can barely type this.I will share where I am at in regards to my struggles hopefully tomorrow.I am tired and my medication is kicking in.All I ask is that y'all continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need it every day.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to the bank to withdraw money.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of important things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed while enjoying some music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was miserable as I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.I felt so miserable after that and after I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father to be merciful to me.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I did feel better after praying as I truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,I need some helpful advice on how I can break free from this obsession that I have with members of my own gender.If anyone one of you had this same obsession,I would like to know how you broke free and overcame it.I want to break free from this terrible obsession that I have because I don't want to be obsessed with men anymore and I want to come into favor with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,I really need your prayers right now.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I want and need to break free from this terrible obsession that I have as I know that obsession leads to nowhere.Obsession can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble.Please pray for me that I break free from this terrible men obsession.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Happy New Year,Everybody!
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for the local Salvation Army thrift store to take advantage of their 1/2 off New Year's Day sale.I bought a few nice things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a suit and I headed for church for New Year's Day service.
The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work quickly hoping that I might get a call from my work because I got a call from them early this morning,but they didn't call.After that,I got dressed again in casual clothes and I headed back to the Salvation Army thrift store and I bought a few more things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a snack.After that,I stopped at work to check up,but so far,nothing has picked up.I then headed over to a local 7-11 and bought a few slices of pizza as a late lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I watched a New Year's themed DVD while eating my late lunch.After that,I did some more personal PC work and I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating a light evening meal,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I have had such an eventful day that I can barely type.I am feeling really tired.I can't really talk about where I am at in my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.All I ask is that y'all continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am always in need of support of both of these kinds because where I live,I feel all alone because I really don't have an awful lot of support here in my hometown.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support always means a lot to me.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I simply washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first had lunch with a friend of the family,which was wonderful.After she dropped me off at home,I did some more personal PC work.I also watched a little bit of TV and when that was done,I headed out to a local Subway to get a sandwich for dinner.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for the New Year's Eve worship service.
The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a sandwich for tomorrow's dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I will start talking about where I am at in regards to my struggles tomorrow as I am feeling rather tired tonight.All I ask is that you all continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult time emotionally and I am still feeling nervous and also,some joy as a result of the big step that I am making in my therapy.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you supporters for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church in the morning and hopefully,a little bit of shopping at the local Salvation Army thrift store,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.Today,I had an appointment with my new therapist at the rehab center within another area of the county.When I arrived there in the area,I dropped a couple of dirty record albums over at a used record store and said that I would be back within the hour.After that,I headed for the rehab center for my session with the therapist.
The session went great.I have an appointment to meet with one of the managers next Thursday and I will be meeting with my new therapist in a month.After that,I headed for the used record store to pick up the record albums that I had cleaned and after leaving there,I headed for an AMVETS thrift store within the next county and I bought a couple of vinyl singles.After paying for them,I headed back home.
When I arrived in the county where I live,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a bottle of mustard.After paying for that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree to pick up a bottle of steak sauce.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the mustard and steak sauce away and I watched a little TV.I also did some more personal PC work.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a holiday themed DVD in the DVD player and I watched it.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,I am feeling pretty good.I am feeling much better than I have ever felt.I am still hoping that this will start to bring some positive changes in my life.I really need to break free from these negative unresolved issues in my life.I am hoping that I can finally let go of these issues and start transcending so I can finally heal and go out to become the man that I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please pray that this big step that I am making in my therapy works out the way that I am hoping it will.I really need to start transcending and progress to the healing that I desperately need.I also want to let go of these negative issues so that they don't have any effect on me anymore.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I started to do my personal PC work and while doing that,a technician for DirecTV came to solve a problem that I was having with my satellite.It took him almost an hour,but he replaced the satellite and also put new wiring for it.It is now working again.After he left,I finished my personal PC work and since I was dressed,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I did some more personal PC work.I also watched a little TV and after that,I prepared a can of soup to eat.After eating,I watched another holiday themed DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for turning in for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tomorrow,I will be starting sessions with my new therapist.I am hoping that everything works out well for me as I am making this giant step.As I have said previously,I am hoping to finally let go of the unresolved anger,resentment,trauma and other issues that have been holding me back from discovering the real healing that I need and also,so I can finally transcend so I can discover and feel the much needed healing that I need so desperately.I want to heal and I want to overcome this terrible SSA,but those negative issues that have been unresolved have been holding me back.I am hoping that this big step that I will be making will finally put me on the right path to healing and freedom from these unresolved issues that I have.I want to be free and I want to heal and again,I am hoping that this big step will work out for me and put me on that path.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am about to make this giant step.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often and also,desperately.I am now making a big step and I need all the support that I can get,both prayerful and positive verbal.Please pray for me that this works out for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing my new therapist for the first time,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly dressed up in a suit and I headed for church as there was a special service today where the children put on a pageant that was themed to the reason for the season.
The service,including the children's pageant,was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and later on,I decided to watch another holiday themed DVD.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.When that was done,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another holiday themed DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to turn in for the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,a day after pouring myself out to my Heavenly Father about my problems with obsessions,alongside fantasies and lusting,I had no problems with getting tempted to do any of those sinful things.I felt pretty good all of the day as I had no problems.I am still working on taking this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father daily and not just once in a blue moon.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.They can try to hit me with temptations and try to use their power to convince me that there is no way out of SSA,when in reality,it's a lie as my Heavenly Father,alongside his son Jesus Christ as his sole mediator,can set people free from anything sinful and slave making.Satan and his minions are liars and Satan is the inventor of lies.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult time.I also ask that all of you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ