Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to the bank to withdraw money.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of important things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed while enjoying some music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was miserable as I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.I felt so miserable after that and after I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father to be merciful to me.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I did feel better after praying as I truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,I need some helpful advice on how I can break free from this obsession that I have with members of my own gender.If anyone one of you had this same obsession,I would like to know how you broke free and overcame it.I want to break free from this terrible obsession that I have because I don't want to be obsessed with men anymore and I want to come into favor with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,I really need your prayers right now.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I want and need to break free from this terrible obsession that I have as I know that obsession leads to nowhere.Obsession can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble.Please pray for me that I break free from this terrible men obsession.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ