Saturday, December 20, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I went to a pot-luck lunch at the place where my weekly groups are held and it was wonderful.After filling up on some homemade chili and some desserts,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart as I had a gift card that I received from a friend of the family and I used it to make some necessary purchases.After that,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few more necessary things.After that,I went to a local supermarket to get myself a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places and I did some more personal PC work.Since I was pretty full on the homemade chili that I ate,I didn't eat much of anything in the evening.Later on,I stepped out for a little bit to attend another local Christmas party in town,but I didn't stay very long.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and got ready to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am feeling rather tired from all of the activity from today.Regarding my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start talking about where I am at with these by tomorrow.I had so much on my agenda today that I can barely type.The only things that I ask of all you who follow my blog and read my posts regularly that you continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Friday, December 19, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I decided to pop a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.When that was done,I watched a little TV and after that,I heated up a can of soup and that was my dinner.After that,I watched a few more holiday themed DVD's.Later on,as it was getting to the late time,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA are still there,with my latter struggles being the most difficult of the two.Tonight,I realized that I haven't been relying more on my Heavenly Father and letting him take the lead in this struggle.I realized this tonight and I also realized that this in itself is a sin.I turned to my Heavenly Father earlier this evening in prayer and I threw everything on him.I turned the struggle over to him and I also repented of not fully relying on him nor having him take the lead in the SSA struggle.I turned it over to him and after I was finished praying,I felt much better and I went on with the rest of the evening.I now need to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer constantly and not just when I need help.I have to daily turn the struggle over to him and rely more on him every day,including letting him take the lead and direct me in the right way.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need your prayerful support and your positive verbal support.Please leave some positive,uplifting and upbuilding comments in the comments section.Please continue to support me in this particular struggle with your prayers and your positive verbal support.I need your support daily and often.I need it to both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.Please continue praying for me.Please also continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to a pot-luck lunch at the place where the groups are held,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I chose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Thursday, December 18, 2014

tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the kitchen sink,alongside shaving and washing my underarms.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and after that,I got dressed and headed out to do some stuff,with having lunch at a local kitchen being the very first thing.I had to drop off some free papers and Christmas cards at various houses and I also had to mail out a few more Christmas cards as well.After all of that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV and after that,I went back out to have a free dinner at a local church.After I was done eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I watched a Holiday Season themed DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.That latter struggle is made even more difficult by my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.Today,though I am still feel shame about this,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and while doing so,I wound up with an orgasm and I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt terrible and after washing my hands,I asked my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to forgive me and I also pleaded for his mercy.I was really sorry for doing that unclean and impure thing and I was also crying a little when I confessed and asked to be forgiven.When I was finished,I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I really need it very much as I really don't have much within where I live to help me out.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned,so I am just going to stay home and take it easy for a while.I might even watch some holiday themed DVD's while doing so.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face under the kitchen sink faucet,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only two things on my agenda for today.I first went to my morning groups,which went well and after that,I did my personal PC work at one of the computers that was there.After that,I had lunch at a local kitchen and after eating that,I went back to the groups place for a little socialization and after that,we went to a Christmas party at the main offices and it was a wonderful party.I won two decks of cards in a tin and after having some wonderful food,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a card store to pick up another Christmas card.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I watched some TV and when I was finished with that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also watched a holiday themed DVD later on and did some more work on the computer.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,since I stayed busy,I had no problems with temptations today.No,I didn't.It was great that I had no problems as a result of me keeping busy doing what I had to do.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can make anyone who struggles with any type of sexual sin act out in many ways other than seeking out other members of your own gender to act out with.I have to show that I own these desires and that they don't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planed.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and as the day progressed,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I went to a friend's place to have dinner with them.After that was finished,I went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.I also watched another holiday themed DVD.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I am feeling rather tired tonight due to all of the activity for today.I will start tomorrow to about them.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Thanks again.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of morning groups and an afternoon Christmas party,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, December 15, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first got a little bit of gas at the gas station and after that,I mailed out a few things at the post office.After that,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up deodorant.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to buy some Christmas cards.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I watched a little TV.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a holiday themed DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does so,I am still struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two for me.Today,though I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form,I am still not out of the woods.Today,Satan and his minions really tried everything in their power to get me to go against my Heaven;y Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality by trying to get me to fantasize and lust after other men.Last night,I prayed to my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for a while and I left nothing out when I did.I confessed everything and I pleaded for my Heavenly Father to forgive me and for him to be merciful towards me.I know that Satan and his minions will try and try to get me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect law with their various ways to tempt me in regards to acting out on SSA.I can't let that happen as I have to show Satan and his minions that with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ on my side,I have strength within my imperfect weaknesses.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want with me no way no how.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need both types of your support desperately and again,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I continuously ask for positive verbal support because I want to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this difficult SSA struggle.Thanks in advance to y'all for your your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I wok up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed in casual clothes and I went to a local supermarket to pick up some cans of soup.After using a gift card from that particular supermarket that I got for signing back up with AAA auto club to pay for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to buy a small sandwich.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the soup away,with the exception of one can that I was going to heat up for dinner.I did some more personal PC work and after that,I heated up the can of soup and spread some mustard on the sandwich that I bought to eat with it.After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work after that.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I decided to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I haven't talked with him in quite a while.I prayed to him and I poured out my heart.I told him everything that I needed to tell him.I was also in tears a little bit.When I was finished,I felt a lot better.I also felt that I was heard.I am going to have to start making this a regular routine.I have been neglecting to do so and I have to try to make this a regular thing.Lately,I have been feeling that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ is distant and I need to start making them close resolving to pray regularly.Fellow blog followers,I am also in need of prayers by all of you.I am also in need of positive verbal support in the comments section.Please pray that I can get through this and also,pray that I start making prayer a part of my daily thing.Please continue to pray for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ