Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed over to the Men's Network meeting.
The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that was done.I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light lunch and when I was finished,I decided to pay a visit to a friend to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still on my constant battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.It is a never ending roller coaster ride that never seems to end.I never how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle as both God and his son Jesus Christ give power beyond what any human therapy can give and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,but the good thing is that it didn't last very long.I sat up and my genitals softened as I was doing so.When they were fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I kept up in prayer throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me.I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations.I kept it up all day and I always felt better when I did that.Though I continue to pray and pray,I am still asking that everyone who continues to follow and read my blog to continue praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section on my blog as both your prayers and your positive comments help keep me going.I see that quite a few people visit my blog,but usually don't leave any positive words of encouragement in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word or two here.Please don't be shy.Your encouraging words do help in keeping me going,alongside any prayers that say on my behalf.I can go it alone in this terrible SSA struggle.Please do both of these things for me.I would appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class and hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, December 01, 2012
Friday, November 30, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first had to see a gastrointestinal doctor for a problem that I have had while trying to swallow food.I headed over to there after my work on my PC was done.
The meeting with the doctor went well and he prepared me for tests to check me out.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still on my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as I go from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is never ending and at times,I never know whether I am coming or going.I also have schizophrenic and that really makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.Aside from the emotional ups and downs,I also have to put with hallucinatory sounds and other things that other people,other than I,can't hear,such as voices,footsteps and other things.Sometimes,they want me to do the opposite of what I want to do.By this,I mean that in my struggles with SSA,the voices try to get me to do things,such as touching myself inappropriately,which does proceed to manipulating my genitals to get them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping,though at times,ejaculation does occur.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of letting God and Christ both take the lead and letting them help me in keeping me calm and serene.It shows that nobody can go it alone in any struggle as God has to be a part of the struggle as humans can do nothing alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was again awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.This time,it was overwhelming that the only way that I could get through this was with prayer and I prayed hard until the erection softened and I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me.I get tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have by either masturbating or by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I simply kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in his son Christ Jesus' name to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations when they came at me.After praying,I always felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil each time.I kept it up all day so I wouldn't sin or do anything that would displease God in any way,shape or form.I kept it up and the good feelings would come.I am also still continuing to ask for prayers by those who follow and read my blog posts and also,for some positive and encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going.I see that quite a few people visit my blog,but leave no comments of encouragement in the comments section.I would appreciate an encouraging word or two.Please continue in prayers for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting that I will be attending.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned,but I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first had to see a gastrointestinal doctor for a problem that I have had while trying to swallow food.I headed over to there after my work on my PC was done.
The meeting with the doctor went well and he prepared me for tests to check me out.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still on my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as I go from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is never ending and at times,I never know whether I am coming or going.I also have schizophrenic and that really makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.Aside from the emotional ups and downs,I also have to put with hallucinatory sounds and other things that other people,other than I,can't hear,such as voices,footsteps and other things.Sometimes,they want me to do the opposite of what I want to do.By this,I mean that in my struggles with SSA,the voices try to get me to do things,such as touching myself inappropriately,which does proceed to manipulating my genitals to get them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping,though at times,ejaculation does occur.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of letting God and Christ both take the lead and letting them help me in keeping me calm and serene.It shows that nobody can go it alone in any struggle as God has to be a part of the struggle as humans can do nothing alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was again awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.This time,it was overwhelming that the only way that I could get through this was with prayer and I prayed hard until the erection softened and I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me.I get tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have by either masturbating or by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I simply kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in his son Christ Jesus' name to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations when they came at me.After praying,I always felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil each time.I kept it up all day so I wouldn't sin or do anything that would displease God in any way,shape or form.I kept it up and the good feelings would come.I am also still continuing to ask for prayers by those who follow and read my blog posts and also,for some positive and encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going.I see that quite a few people visit my blog,but leave no comments of encouragement in the comments section.I would appreciate an encouraging word or two.Please continue in prayers for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting that I will be attending.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned,but I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things on my agenda.
I first went to my Thursday Spirituality group and I went there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I left his place and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV after I did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day as I also got some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky recovery continues moving forward,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory on a daily basis.I never know how my moods will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a very difficult thing to deal with on a daily basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It again shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.I am not suffering alone and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do in helping me get through this BPD/Schizophrenia struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one.I tossed and turned,but the erection continued to throb even more.I felt that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and went to the bathroom and as I was walking there,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I arrived at the bathroom.After using it,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have kept coming at me constantly.Each and every day,I am at war with this terrible SSA and the temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have connected with SSA can get very strong and very overwhelming.The temptations get stronger with each resistance that I make when they come at me.I keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ so I don't fall or fail.I ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist all temptations as they come.I try not to give into any temptation and it is a very difficult thing to fight and resist.But with God and Christ at the wheel,at least I am not alone in this battle against those terrible unnatural desires that I have and I feel overjoyed that they are there with me in my fight.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight.I see that many people visit,but don't leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please leave a positive word of encouragement for me.I also ask that y'all keep up your prayers for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with a gastro type doctor at the local hospital.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things on my agenda.
I first went to my Thursday Spirituality group and I went there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I left his place and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV after I did a little more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day as I also got some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky recovery continues moving forward,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory on a daily basis.I never know how my moods will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a very difficult thing to deal with on a daily basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It again shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.I am not suffering alone and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do in helping me get through this BPD/Schizophrenia struggle.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one.I tossed and turned,but the erection continued to throb even more.I felt that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and went to the bathroom and as I was walking there,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I arrived at the bathroom.After using it,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have kept coming at me constantly.Each and every day,I am at war with this terrible SSA and the temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have connected with SSA can get very strong and very overwhelming.The temptations get stronger with each resistance that I make when they come at me.I keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ so I don't fall or fail.I ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist all temptations as they come.I try not to give into any temptation and it is a very difficult thing to fight and resist.But with God and Christ at the wheel,at least I am not alone in this battle against those terrible unnatural desires that I have and I feel overjoyed that they are there with me in my fight.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section of my blog as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight.I see that many people visit,but don't leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please leave a positive word of encouragement for me.I also ask that y'all keep up your prayers for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do as well.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with a gastro type doctor at the local hospital.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went over to my sister's house to pick up my laundry.After doing that,I headed over top the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my laundry and what I bought at the Super Wal-Mart.I headed over to my case worker's office after that.
The short meeting with my case worker went good.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still on my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I have to say that having BPD is a very difficult thing to have and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it can be very burdensome.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory symptoms of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of throwing the struggle on God and asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the complex emotional roller coaster ride that I am always on.They both help in sustaining me and also shows that I am not alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.The urge to grab my genitals and masturbate was really overwhelming.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I tossed and I turned,but the erection continued to throb.I started to sit up and I got out of bed to walk a little and as I walked,the erection softened and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God to ask for strength to fight and resist these temptations.I am learning that the more that I resist every temptation,the more stronger and overwhelming they become with each resistance.I am learning that temptations will always keep coming back no matter how many times you fight and resist them.But I am always fighting every temptation one day at a time and if I get through one day without giving into them,there is the next day and the battle to fight and resist resumes.I continued to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day as the temptations kept coming back and each and every time that I did and asked for strength to fight and resist,I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am also again asking for prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly.I also ask that you leave and encouraging word or two in the comments section.I see that there are people visiting my blog,but don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section while doing so.Please leave me an encouraging word or two as both your prayers and encouraging words keep me going in my battle against the unnatural desires connected with SSA.I would really appreciate your prayers and your encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group that I must attend and lunch at a local kitchen after that.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went over to my sister's house to pick up my laundry.After doing that,I headed over top the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off my laundry and what I bought at the Super Wal-Mart.I headed over to my case worker's office after that.
The short meeting with my case worker went good.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still on my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I have to say that having BPD is a very difficult thing to have and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it can be very burdensome.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory symptoms of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of throwing the struggle on God and asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the complex emotional roller coaster ride that I am always on.They both help in sustaining me and also shows that I am not alone.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.The urge to grab my genitals and masturbate was really overwhelming.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I tossed and I turned,but the erection continued to throb.I started to sit up and I got out of bed to walk a little and as I walked,the erection softened and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God to ask for strength to fight and resist these temptations.I am learning that the more that I resist every temptation,the more stronger and overwhelming they become with each resistance.I am learning that temptations will always keep coming back no matter how many times you fight and resist them.But I am always fighting every temptation one day at a time and if I get through one day without giving into them,there is the next day and the battle to fight and resist resumes.I continued to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day as the temptations kept coming back and each and every time that I did and asked for strength to fight and resist,I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am also again asking for prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly.I also ask that you leave and encouraging word or two in the comments section.I see that there are people visiting my blog,but don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section while doing so.Please leave me an encouraging word or two as both your prayers and encouraging words keep me going in my battle against the unnatural desires connected with SSA.I would really appreciate your prayers and your encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group that I must attend and lunch at a local kitchen after that.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went over to my sister's house to do my laundry.It took a few hours and after it was finished,I bagged it all and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to mail back a book that was sent to my mom.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with BPD,it's symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.While that may be so,I still continue to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I never have to worry about any of this getting out of control with God and his son Christ Jesus at the wheel leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation this morning.I really had the urge to grab my genitals and masturbate the erection away,but chose to fight this urge and resist giving into it.While fighting the urge,I noticed that I had to go to the bathroom and got up to walk to the bathroom and use it.While on the way there,the erection softened and was fully soft when I reached the bathroom and after using it,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have were really coming at me from both sides.I really had to fight these urges as each time that I resist any urges,the urges come back stronger every time and I have to keep up in prayer to God whenever the urges come as they did come throughout the day.I am always at war with these unnatural desires that I have connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.But again,I am not fighting this war alone as I have God and his son Jesus Christ leading the way and fighting alongside me.Still,I am again asking for prayers and words of encouragement from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly.Please continue in prayers for me as I am continuing to go through this struggle and the complex emotional pattern that I am still working to overcome as a result of my mother's passing in September.Please also leave words of encouragement in the comments section as they help in keeping me going in this fight,and make me more determined to overcome SSA.I see that many people visit,but never leave any comments in the form of words of encouragement or anything positive for me.Please don't be shy when checking out my blog.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me and again,I also ask that you continue in prayers for me as I continue to fight this SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help me in this fight.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my case worker.Aside from that,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went over to my sister's house to do my laundry.It took a few hours and after it was finished,I bagged it all and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to mail back a book that was sent to my mom.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with BPD,it's symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.While that may be so,I still continue to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I never have to worry about any of this getting out of control with God and his son Christ Jesus at the wheel leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation this morning.I really had the urge to grab my genitals and masturbate the erection away,but chose to fight this urge and resist giving into it.While fighting the urge,I noticed that I had to go to the bathroom and got up to walk to the bathroom and use it.While on the way there,the erection softened and was fully soft when I reached the bathroom and after using it,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have were really coming at me from both sides.I really had to fight these urges as each time that I resist any urges,the urges come back stronger every time and I have to keep up in prayer to God whenever the urges come as they did come throughout the day.I am always at war with these unnatural desires that I have connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.But again,I am not fighting this war alone as I have God and his son Jesus Christ leading the way and fighting alongside me.Still,I am again asking for prayers and words of encouragement from everyone who follows and reads my blog regularly.Please continue in prayers for me as I am continuing to go through this struggle and the complex emotional pattern that I am still working to overcome as a result of my mother's passing in September.Please also leave words of encouragement in the comments section as they help in keeping me going in this fight,and make me more determined to overcome SSA.I see that many people visit,but never leave any comments in the form of words of encouragement or anything positive for me.Please don't be shy when checking out my blog.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me and again,I also ask that you continue in prayers for me as I continue to fight this SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help me in this fight.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my case worker.Aside from that,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, November 26, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to my usual Monday building and improving self esteem group,which went as well as expected.After the group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a constant daily struggle and at times,it can get really difficult.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle.The power that both God and Christ give goes beyond what any human therapy can provide.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again awakened by yet another throbbing erection and the temptation for me to masturbate it away was really strong.I really fought hard to resist this temptation and it was a very overwhelming one at that.I sat up and since I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,I got up and as I headed for the bathroom,the erection softened and was fully soft when I arrived there and went back to sleep when I was finished.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.The temptations were really strong and overwhelming.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I threw every temptation that I had on them and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I simply prayed for strength each and every time and I felt better as a result.I am also still asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog to continue praying for me as I am going through all of this and please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as your prayers and words of encouragement help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to go to my sister's house to get my laundry done.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to my usual Monday building and improving self esteem group,which went as well as expected.After the group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It is a constant daily struggle and at times,it can get really difficult.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle.The power that both God and Christ give goes beyond what any human therapy can provide.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again awakened by yet another throbbing erection and the temptation for me to masturbate it away was really strong.I really fought hard to resist this temptation and it was a very overwhelming one at that.I sat up and since I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,I got up and as I headed for the bathroom,the erection softened and was fully soft when I arrived there and went back to sleep when I was finished.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.The temptations were really strong and overwhelming.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I threw every temptation that I had on them and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I simply prayed for strength each and every time and I felt better as a result.I am also still asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog to continue praying for me as I am going through all of this and please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as your prayers and words of encouragement help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to go to my sister's house to get my laundry done.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my medications.After paying the co-pay on these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home sweats and after a light lunch,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I never know if I will be up or if I will be down.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult as well.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of going to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ in prayer and asking them to help get me through any difficulties in this particular struggle.They do both help in sustaining me and it also shows that I am not alone in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge as it was really strong.I sat up for a while and laid back down when my genitals were fully soft and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have throughout the day and I really had to pray hard about the temptation to both God and his son Jesus Christ.I simply threw the temptations on God and asked him too give me strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the temptations and I felt better as a result as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am really trying to please my Heavenly Father as I don't want to sin against him in any way by giving into any temptations that come around.Even if I did give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and after that,I feel good knowing and truly believing that I have been and am forgiven for my sins.I am also still asking for prayers by everyone who regularly follows and reads my blog.Please continue saying prayers for me as I am going through this complex emotional time.I really need all the prayers from all of you.I also ask that you all also leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging comments help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my medications.After paying the co-pay on these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home sweats and after a light lunch,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I never know if I will be up or if I will be down.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult as well.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of going to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ in prayer and asking them to help get me through any difficulties in this particular struggle.They do both help in sustaining me and it also shows that I am not alone in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge as it was really strong.I sat up for a while and laid back down when my genitals were fully soft and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have throughout the day and I really had to pray hard about the temptation to both God and his son Jesus Christ.I simply threw the temptations on God and asked him too give me strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the temptations and I felt better as a result as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am really trying to please my Heavenly Father as I don't want to sin against him in any way by giving into any temptations that come around.Even if I did give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and after that,I feel good knowing and truly believing that I have been and am forgiven for my sins.I am also still asking for prayers by everyone who regularly follows and reads my blog.Please continue saying prayers for me as I am going through this complex emotional time.I really need all the prayers from all of you.I also ask that you all also leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging comments help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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