Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my medications.After paying the co-pay on these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home sweats and after a light lunch,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling daily with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I never know if I will be up or if I will be down.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult as well.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of going to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ in prayer and asking them to help get me through any difficulties in this particular struggle.They do both help in sustaining me and it also shows that I am not alone in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge as it was really strong.I sat up for a while and laid back down when my genitals were fully soft and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have throughout the day and I really had to pray hard about the temptation to both God and his son Jesus Christ.I simply threw the temptations on God and asked him too give me strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the temptations and I felt better as a result as the temptations were reduced to nil.I am really trying to please my Heavenly Father as I don't want to sin against him in any way by giving into any temptations that come around.Even if I did give into any temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and after that,I feel good knowing and truly believing that I have been and am forgiven for my sins.I am also still asking for prayers by everyone who regularly follows and reads my blog.Please continue saying prayers for me as I am going through this complex emotional time.I really need all the prayers from all of you.I also ask that you all also leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging comments help keep me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do to help.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group that I must attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ