Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I really did not do too much.I simply took it easy for most of the day before going out for a bit before dinner.While I was out,I dropped off a box of chocolate cake mix at my niece's house.I took a drive for a while and I stopped at a store to get a couple bucks worth of quarters.I needed some quarters so I can pay for my drinks tonight.After that,I went home.
After a light dinner,which was homemade bean soup,I decided to catch up on some much needed computer work.I checked my e-mail and there was several new e-mail's.After reading them all,I watched some online videos on a website for a while.I even added some to my favorite's list while I was there.After that,I signed out.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the evening ahead.I am going to be entertaining the crowd tonight as usual and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I have a feeling that the evening will go well for me.But still,I always hope for everything to go well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the night and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.Today was my day off and I spent the whole day taking it easy.I really did not do too much.After I picked up my paycheck and had lunch,I went and cashed my paycheck before heading for home.
When I got home,I simply put my PJ's back on and relaxed in the living room.I simply checked out one of my DVD's extras and the extras were really interesting.They were simply fun and games stuff and that was really neat.After that,I took a nap for about an hour.I didn't get an awful lot of sleep last night so I figured that I would get some rest in hopes to feel better,which I did.
I did give in to masturbation today.I was playing with my genitals and I wound up masturbating.I did ask the creator to forgive me for giving into that temptation and I felt better.It was after this that I took a nap and I did feel better after having a few winks.
After finishing my earlier computer work,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware while I ate dinner and went out for a drive around the town.I also stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank and after that,I went home.It was a nice time out and I liked seeing some wonders that I haven't seen in a while.
When I got home,I checked my computer and the good news is that my computer is clean w/NO viruses of spyware.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the weekend.I am looking forward to the weekend.Tomorrow night,I will be singing for the crowd at the place where I go.Regarding Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it will benefit me in a positive way.Overall,a pretty good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.There wasn't really much foro me to do but I did manage to get some work done.After that,I had a light lunch and I dropped the laundry off at the rehab center and headed for home.
Once I got home,I took it easy for a while and also took a nap for about an hour and half.I finally received a DVD that I purchased from an Ebay seller and I checked it out when I did.The DVD is the 2-Disc Platinum DVD edition of Bambi.It is a very awesome set.I am eagerly awaiting another one that I hope to receive very soon.
After my nap,I had a light dinner and I also went out for a while after watching the news.I had to run an errand for my mom and I also went and did something that I had to do.I went back to the Roman Catholic shrine and prayed because I needed help in my resolve to stop masturbation.I am hoping that the prayers that I made will be answered.Masturbation is a tough habit to break and due to the SSA that I am struggling from,I simply feel that I can't.But again,I am hoping that the prayers give me strength to resist this unclean habit and I can finally have a clean concience and not have to worry about being not being heard by the creator.But I feel that he heard me and I am hoping to be back on track spiritually in the near future.
I am now at home relaxing.I am also anticipating the day ahead.I am going to have the day off for the second consecutive Friday while the staff goes to a special meeting to discuss some issues within the organization.I am going to simply pick up my paycheck tomorrow and just relax the rest of the day and enjoy my day off.After tomorrow,it's the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.The laundry pick-up went as smoothly as I hoped and I even managed to enjoy a brief conversation with some of the social club members during lunch.After eating,I left to run an errand for my mom.
On the way to the bank,I stopped at a hot dog stand to have a hot dog w/ sauerkraut on top.When I had lunch at the social club,they were having polska kielbasa w/sauerkraut but they ran out of sauerkraut.So,when I saw the hot dog stand,I stopped and had a hot dog covered w/sauerkraut.After eating that,I went to the bank and made a withdrawl for my mom.
When I got home,I heard from a friend of mine whom I loaned my copies of KISSOlogy Volumes 1 & 2 and he told me that I could pick them up anytime.I picked them up a few minutes later and when I got home,I registered the money that I withdrew for my mom at Where's George.
After that,I relaxed a bit for a while and I also laid down for a bit before eating dinner.
After I ate,I went and did a little shopping for my mom.I had to pick up a roll of paper towels for her.After that,I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area and bought a few record albums.I was also fortunate to find another suit there that fit.After paying for all of them,I went home.After getting home,I registered the change from earlier when I went shopping at Where's George as well.
I am now at home relaxing.I had a pretty eventful day full of errands.But I managed to get everything done and I had a pretty good day out of it.I am hoping that the next couple of days go just as smoothly as today did.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I am also feeling better than I have been the past several days.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by very smoothly.It was simple and very quiet.I picked up several heaping loads of laundry and when I got to the work site,I only had to unload one washer.I simply seperated the loads and put them in the dryer and started a couple of new loads.I even managed to drop in on the social club and talk a while with a few of the people that were there.This time,there was not too many people there and it was also pretty quiet there as well.This actually helped in my day going by pretty smoothly.Aftre the day was over,I bagged all the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center.Overall,a very smooth work day.
On the way home,I had to stop at a supermarket and pick up a few things that my mom wanted me to get for her.This went well.I managed to find everything that my mom wanted at supermarket.After paying for the items,I headed for home.
When I got there,I ate a bowl of soup for dinner.I had a meeting with my SSA recovery group and I wanted to eat light because I had to leave right away after eating.The only thing that I managed to do was register a dollar bill at Where's George before going to my meeting tonight.
The SSA recovery meeting went great.We watched another video and we talked about the importance of forgiveness and how it helps in our healing from unwanted SSA.It was another wonderful meeting.I got quite a bit out of the meeting tonight and I am looking forward to next week's meeting.I am hoping that it is as wonderful as tonights.When I got home,I finally finished my computer work.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.After that,I am free to do what I want.I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better and I am not as drepressed as I was the last few days.I had a pretty good day today.I spent most of the day in the house.I didn't really go anywhere.There really wasn't anywhere for me to go.Plus,I really did not feel like going anywhere today anyway.So,I stayed home and took it easy.
The only place that I really went to today was my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting.The meeting went well.There was a full house tonight and there was a lot of talking and sharing.It felt great to hear what the others had to say and also to be heard.I am looking forward to next week's meeting and I hope that it goes as well as tonights did.
On the way home from the meeting,I stopped over at a local Wal-Mart and I picked up and purchased an updated copy of the Disney animated classic The Aristocats.It is really nice to have this newly updated version on DVD.It is supposed to have a few more features than the previous DVD issue.I will be checking it out Wednesday when I get back from doing the laundry pick-up.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes smoothly.I also have my SSA support group meeting tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meting goes well tomorrow night.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Easter(i.e.Resurrection Day)Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I have been feeling mighty depressed for most of the day and I really don't know why.My only theory about this is that I was sick about three weeks ago and I am still feeling the psychological effects of it.Today,when I had dinner,I didn't eat very much.Don't get me wrong,I enjoyed the meal that my mom prepared and it was delicious but I didn't eat too much.Again,I have been feeling mighty depressed.I am hoping that this spell of the blues is only temporary and that it doesn't get chronic and I wind up taking a prescription anti-depressant.I did take a couple of St.John's Wart capsules and I do feel a little bit better but the blues are still there and again,I am hoping that the disappear pretty soon.
After I ate,I laid down for a while and my mind started to wander.I wound up daydreaming and before I knew it,I was daydreaming about having sex with another man.I haven't had these daydreams in a long time and I started getting really horny as a result.My penis was hard and my anus was also starting to itch.These feelings lasted about 10 minutes before they started to disappear.Not only that,I almost gave into the temptation to masturbate because I was really hard.I wanted to simply stroke the feeling away,but didn't.I did ask the creator to forgive me for me letting my mind wander like that and for almost giving into the temptation as well as to help me find out why I was feeling so miserable.I did feel better but I still felt depressed at the same time.
Before I did eat,I went and visited with a colleague of mine for a few minutes to simply wish him a Happy Easter(i.e.Resurrection Day)and to hang out for a few minutes.He had some dinner guests over since my mom was cooking dinner,I only stayed a few minutes.After that,I went home to eat.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the week ahead.I am hoping that this week goes pretty good.I am also hoping to feel better during this week.After the depression that I have been feeling lately,a good week would be the right thing to make me feel better.I do have to get a new bottle of St.John's Wart capsules tomorrow or whenever I can.Before the night is through,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two with the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that a nice talk or two will help make me feel better.That would be great.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution group,which I will be attending tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the night and day ahead.FJ