Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.After my personal PC work was done,I decided to fill out a couple of job applications that I recently acquired and after I was done filling them out,I decided to go out and pick up a couple of things in a couple of stores.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed and after that,I went to the drug store to pick up a prescription that I just had refilled.After paying the co-pay on that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle is seemingly getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever I am feeling even a little overwhelmed by this particular struggle,I simply talk about it with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and getting me through all the rough stuff.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and the erection started to soften as I did this.I sat up for a while and though the urge to masturbate the erection away was overwhelming,I worked hard to resist this overwhelming urge and though it took a while for my genitals to soften,I didn't lay back down until they were.I went back to sleep once the erection had died down.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals alongside these things.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father throughout the day and I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to fight and resist these urges as they were pretty overwhelming.I kept it up and kept asking for that strength and after I was finished,I felt much better and also,much stronger.The temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can get strong as they days pass by and I just have to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these urges come around.I am also again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to also continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need all the prayers and positive encouragement that I can get as I am really going through a lot of things.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for in the the comments section whenever you visit as my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue in my healing journey to help from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but really didn't have much to do today as a result of it raining all through the day.I just stayed home and took it easy for the day.
I managed to get some work done that I have been putting off for quite some time.I chose to do it today and was pleased to get it finished.After that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Aside from that,I am also plagued with schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I tell him everything.I feel a tad better once I have done that as they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel only a little bot more relieved.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I got out of bed to use the bathroom,as I had to use it,and when I was finished,my genitals had fully softened and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation while still in bed when I grabbed my genitals and manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding up my mind.I actually managed to stop myself and I immediately asked God to forgive me for sinning against him by doing that and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I was tempted throughout the rest of the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies to sexual images of other men and yes,the temptation to manipulate my genitals to these sexual images also happened as well.I had to keep up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have done that,I am again asking for all of you who follow my blog and also read the posts to continue praying for me as I am going through this very complex emotional time and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind,especially encouraging ones,are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need some encouraging words right now to help keep me going in this struggle and to also continue motivating me to continue on my healing journey from everything connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have really nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after having lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and relaxed for the rest of the day.I also finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father and pray about it in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and started to get up and that made the erection soften and after walking a little bit,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation in the mid afternoon when sexual images of men crept up into my mind while I was lying down and I started to manipulate my genitals to these images and yes,there was lusting involved.I stopped myself before it went to far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I did feel better as I truly believed that my sins were forgiven and forgotten by my Heavenly Father.I was tempted throughout the day to act out by fantasies,lusting and also,to play with my genitals to these things.I prayed to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges to indulge in lustful fantasies to other men.I also asked that my Heavenly Father keep my mind clean from all of these perverse and negative images of men.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue soldiering on in my journey to overcome SSA and also to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the drug store to pick up some prescriptions refills and after paying the co-pay on those,I delivered a few free newspapers to a few friends of mine.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my prescriptions away and I relaxed while watching a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the BPD emotional roller coaster ride,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to walk to the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,but managed to stop myself before it went too far and immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sin was forgotten.I was still tempted throughout the day,but it wasn't so bad once I stayed busy.I simply went about the day doing what had to be done and it was wonderful to be out and about.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen later on,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first called the bank to make a deposit from my line of credit to my checking account to remove a small bit of overdrawn funds from my checking account.After that,I headed out to do some important stuff that needed to be done.
I first went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I went to pick up a few applications for employment in the area and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I registered all the money that I withdrew at the Where's George site.After that,I made a phone call to the job placement agency to let them know that I did pick up a few job applications and that I wanted to make an appointment to discuss these things.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Aside from BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult and/or overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,talk about it and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I had to use the bathroom really bad,so I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I kept busy again throughout the day as I was out of the house for much of the time.Being out in the community took my mind off of anything sexual and that was good.I didn't think of anything sexual and just keeping busy did it.It was great that I got through this day without anything negative,but there is tomorrow and so on.I am again asking that all of you please continue keeping up in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or tow for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your words of encouragement both help keep me going.Thanks in advanced to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.It was also a really big day today as it was Confirmation Sunday,as well as the first Sunday of Pentecost.I also did a Holy Bible reading today in front of the congregation.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also got positive accolades from everyone in the congregation for my Holy Bible reading.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to leave the house again as I was invited out to someone else's place to spend the afternoon with.
I spent a few hours with that person and it was a very meaningful time where I really felt appreciated to be in his company.After that few hours with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a pack of bar soaps.After paying for then,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.Since I had dinner at that other man's place,I simply took it easy and enjoyed what I was watching.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I let them take the lead.They also both help in sustaining me when they take the lead and get me through it all.I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again hit with the temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of it,which made the erection start to soften.I started to walk towards the bathroom as I had to use it and after finishing,my genitals were soft and I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I wasn't tempted by anything connected with SSA as I kept busy and tried to keep my mind occupied with other things,such as healthy and positive thinking and also,on things of a more spiritual note and thinking more on these things.It actually worked and I never thought about anything sexual as my mind was cleared and also,cleaned of all things that were sexual in nature.I simply kept my mind focused on these things for today and it helped.Though I did escape today,there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me a positive word of two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I continually ask these things because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they also make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue to want to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ