Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with he rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.The main thing on my agenda was to go to the laundromat and get my laundry done,which I did.It took a few hours,but when it was done,I bagged it and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to convert the rest of my change to cash and when I was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to buy another box of mac and cheese.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my laundry bag in the room where I sleep and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I did that.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also asked that he be merciful towards me.I prayed and I prayed.I left nothing out as I prayed.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am still a work in progress.I am still working on getting tough with myself.I want to stop habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father to ask for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.I don't want to feel that I am abusing that divine gift of forgiveness that my Heavenly Father gives when those who worship him fall short.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.They both help keep me going and also help both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to a local supermarket to turn in a few bottles and cans and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a box of mac and cheese.After that,I went to the drug store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and the mac and cheese was going to be a part of it.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals when sexual images of men clouded my mind.I fantasized and lusted after them and I masturbated the rest of the way when I was at the point of orgasm.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me because I was really sorry for giving into these terrible temptations.I prayed and I left nothing out.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and when I was finished,I felt better and also,relieved as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day.I really need to start getting tough on myself.I can't keep giving into these terrible temptations and repenting and going to my Heavenly Father to be forgiven.I really need to show him that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I have to stop this habit of falling into sin and going to my Heavenly Father to be forgiven.I don't want to feel that I am abusing the divine gift of forgiveness by doing this so much.I am hoping that my session with the psychiatrist or psychologist that I am going to see on Tuesday will be the start of a new beginning for me where I can finally let go and start transcending from the unresolved anger,resentment,trauma and trust issues that I have.I really want to start healing from this terrible SSA and I am hoping that I can finally discover real healing and real overcoming from SSA.Every time I fall short in this repetitive and destructive cycle,I feel like a complete basket case in this regard.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.They both help keep me going and also both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to a local laundromat and getting my laundry done and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the kitchen sink as well as as shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing to do.
Later on,I headed out to withdraw some money from the bank and after that,I went to get a little bit of gas at a local gas station.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my workplace to see if I was working this week,but I wasn't on.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and also did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I went to a local church for a free dinner and after eating and talking with the wonderful people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and relaxed for the rest of the evening while doing some more personal PC work.I started to prepare for my evening retirement as it was getting late.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still struggling daily with my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day without any problems.I simply kept busy with what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the sexual stuff.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support helps keep me going and also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first paid my car insurance bill to jump start my policy for another year.After that,I headed over to my doctor's office for a follow-up and to get new prescriptions for my medical drugs.After that,I went to a nearby post office to mail out some stuff to a friend in another state.After that,I had a late lunch at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I went out to get a take out meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I had on a DVD set.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape of form to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have.I guess that staying busy with everything that I had to do kept my mind off of the sexual stuff that is connected with the SSA struggle.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the day watching a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I relaxed for the rest of the day and as the evening was coming,I got dressed and I headed out to a couple of stores to pick up a few things for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up everything that I had bought and ate it.After that,I did the dishes and watched a couple more classic TV shows on DVD's that I have.I also took my medication and as the early evening started to drift into late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into the temptation to masturbate when I was awakened in the wee early morning hours by a throbbing erection.After that,I washed my hands and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really felt guilty for giving into this terrible temptation.I prayed hard and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but still continued to stay on guard an be watchful.I really need to get tough with myself.I can't keep giving into the temptation to sin and asking for forgiveness.I have to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA and I need to stop this pattern.I need to stop giving into temptation and then asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment that I had set up today for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as well as washed my face.After that,I shaved.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I watched a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I got dressed and headed out to run a few errands.
I first went to a local nursing facility to see if a friend that is temporary staying there if he was going back home,but they told me that he wasn't and it would depend on what the local mission organization would say when.After talking with a social worker at the nursing facility,I left the facility and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to pick up a Priority Mail envelope.After that,I stopped a few local restaurants to pick up a few things for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate everything that I bought and when that was finished,I made a couple more phone calls and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a few more classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though lately,I have been struggling in regards to SSA.All the tension that is going on in my family is making the temptations go into overdrive.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing so,which led to the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.Last night,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I unloaded everything to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into the terrible temptations.I also talked about all the tensions that are going on within my family and that I didn't know whether I was coming or going with all this happening.I prayed and prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I also knew and truly believed that he heard everything that I told him about.I said one final prayer last night before going to bed.Today,I kept myself busy by simply doing what I had to do personal errands wise and I had no thoughts creep up into my mind.On the other hand,in regards to my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for a while,but has been made worse as a result of all the tension within my family.One day,I am feeling pretty good,but the next day,down and not so good.I have also had periods where I was in a rut for a while and it would lift,but the depression would return a day or two later.I did make the phone call to the psychiatric center and I am hoping that they will return my call soon.I am hoping to finally find the right therapy to help me let go of the unresolved issues and start to transcend and heal so Can finally heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it will be Veteran's Day,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church.Today,we had a visiting missionary pastor and his family.They gave a talk in the study class about what being a missionary was about and he also gave a wonderful sermon during the worship service,which was a very affirming sermon.After some wonderful fellowship with him and the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I started doing my personal PC work,but remembered that I had to do a couple of things.I shut my computer down and got dressed and I headed downtown.
I was supposed to take a friend home today from a local nursing facility,but he was sound asleep when I got there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I made a phone call to another friend that I was supposed to get together with,but they told that something came up and we couldn't.After hanging up,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I realized that I needed a couple more important things and I headed back out again.
I first went to another local supermarket to buy another box of cereal.After that,I headed to a nearby Dollar Tree store to buy a tube of toothpaste.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cereal and the toothpaste away.I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,there is so much tension going on in my family that I really can't talk right now in regards to my SSA struggles or my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.I am down and also feeling angry and miserable that I really can't talk about anything at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often,especially with all the negative stuff going on in my family at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ