Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and coffee and after getting dressed,I headed over to my Men's Network meeting.
I had a pretty tough time getting there as a result of the high winds.But I managed to make it and I joined the rest of the men when I arrived.
The meeting was wonderful.We talked and watched a DVD and after the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Save-A-Lot to pick up something.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up another thing.After that,I headed over to the nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and stayed there as a result of the high winds that were blowing in the area.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work.After that,I had a quick lunch and afterwards,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and that it starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up.I was really tempted to masturbate the erection away as the erection was also another throbber.I tossed and turned,but I decided to get up since I also had to use the bathroom at that time.After the erection died down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped that temptation,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard and be watchful when that happens again.I also have to continue keeping in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want,which is make contact with my lost maleness.If I am going to start feeling like a man as I am a man myself,I need to d it in a healthy and authentic way with other men in the forms of friendships,bonding and a healthy and authentic connection.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.I am also going to do my laundry in the afternoon as it really does need to get done.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and my 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a lot planned and I wanted to get it all done.
I first went to get my hair cut at a local hair shop.After that was done,I went over to the local Super Wal-Mart,which was just across the street,and picked up something that my mom wanted me to get for her.After that,I went over to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site and afterwards,I got ready to meet with the pastor of the church to discuss becoming a member again and to learn more about the basics and the teachings of the church.It was for one full hour and beforehand,I did ask another pastor that I communicate with via personal e-mail for advice on what to ask and what to share with the church pastor.
The hour meeting was excellent.We made some arrangements for classes and when they will be and all and after the meeting,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating some take out food that I picked up when I went out again and came home,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I really had no urge to masturbate or even to watch online porn.Though I escaped today,I know that there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I know that the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.Again,I escaped today unscathed,but that temptation or urge to act out by masturbating or watching porn can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network group that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to this group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group went well.After the group,I had a little talk with another counselor at the group place and after that was done,I headed over to a community kitchen for lunch.After lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to start improving in my recovery in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.While I escaped today,the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have stay on guard and be watchful.I can also use any suggestions on how to resist the temptation to act out.I just have to hang in there and keep fighting when it happens.
Tomorrow,I will be meeting with the pastor of the church to discuss some things.I am hoping that this goes well and everything works out.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got a phone call from the local hospital that they faxed a new prescription for my medication after the drug store lost the prescription that I dropped off for them to file.I was really over the edge emotionally when I called the drug store last night to have them fill the prescription and they told me that they didn't have one on file for me even though I dropped one off at their store.This morning,it was all fixed up and my prescription is ready to be picked up,which I will pick up tomorrow when I have some money.After that,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the morning.
As the afternoon was beginning,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.I really didn't have too much to do today.
I went to a local close out bargain store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours as a result of what had happened with the drug store the previous night.I really wanted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of attaining hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.I did fight the temptation,though it wasn't an easy thing to do.I managed to escape this one,but I was still,though mildly,tempted to do that for the rest of the day.But I managed to stay strong.I really didn't know how I did that today,but I did.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I will just have to keep fighting the urge when it comes around.I am still open to any ideas.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.As far as the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and my coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned for the day and I was looking forward to them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
For most of the day,I simply relaxed until the time came for me to go to see my sexual abuse support counselor.I headed over to her office and when I got there,I waited for her to call me in.
The session went well.After the session was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out in any way,shape or form was minimal if nil at best.I really didn't have any urge to act out.While I did escape today,I know that there will be tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful whenever that happens.I have to stay strong and I have to keep fighting the urge.Again,if anyone can give me any ways that I can do that,please share.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I got up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things planned today.I had to attend a couple of groups today and both the groups went well.After the groups,I headed over to a friend of my mom's house to pick up something and after that was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I simply had no temptation to act out today.I had no urge to masturbate nor any other urges.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I escaped today,but there is always tomorrow and the after that and so on.I am hoping that I can stay strong and resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I am atill open to any suggestions on how I can do that.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the session goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.
Both the class and the service were both wonderful.I got a lot out of them both.After some fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I had a quick lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to relax for a while and just enjoy the rest of the day.I even popped a DVD in the DVD player while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my cravings to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out on my desires today.I think that this is a good thing.But again,as I have said previously,though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out can come again.The temptation to act out can be very strong and overwhelming when it strikes.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.When it hits,I just have to fight it and stay strong and not let it weaken me.Again,I am still open to any suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ