Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I stayed home for much of the day because it rained.It was also a little chilly.When I got out of bed,I ate a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot.But I managed to get it done.After doing that,I proceeded to get on with my day.
The first thing that I did was that I ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up a few things that my mom needed at a local supermarket.When I got there,they were having a hot dog sale and a small yard sale styled sale to benefit the local chapter of the Juvenile Diabetes Foundation.I bought a hot dog because I hadn't had a bite to eat since I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast.After I did my shopping,they were giving away the stuff that wasn't sold and I grabbed several record albums,a couple of videos,a book of Aesop's fables and a combination scarf and glove set.I headed straight home to drop the stuff off and head back out again.
I went to my record store friend's house to see about having him check out my record collection to see how the work we are setting to do will entail.It is going to be a lot of work spread over some weeks.I really don't know how many weeks it will entail.But I am hoping to get it done before the really warm weather hots so I can protect them.I just hope that it will be done in a few weeks time.I headed back home after talking with him.
When I got home,I bathed.I am going to be going out tonight to entertain the crowd and I needed to get cleaned up.I bathed for about 20 minutes while my mom prepared what I had picked up at the store for dinner.After I was done,I ate.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing on the internet.I just visited a few sites and started to post here.
I am going to be doing my usual entertaining the crowd as I usually do every Saturday night.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what could happen.I do have a feeling that things will work out for me and that the night will go well.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode this morning while in bed.I was having a dream where I was being begged to perform a sexual favor on a guy and I was also talking to myself in sleep as if this were happening in the room rather than being a dream.This whole thing caused me to masturbate.Afterwards,I felt miserable.I have been sober since the start of the week and I wound up giving in to temptation.I did ask the creator for forgiveness and I felt better.I also slept for about a couple more hours and I felt better.I used to dwell on these failures but I don't anymore.The dwelling on the failures made it more difficult for me to stick to my resolve.Though I do fail from time to time,I don't let the failures bring me down.I simply move on with the rest of the day and just hang in there.I am also moving on from this failure starting now.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had.It wasn't hard.After I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money that my mom needed.After that,I headed for a nearby drug store to buy a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for my mom.I headed straight home afterwards.
After getting home,I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I was waiting for a website to come up to connect me to the renewal process of my Norton anti-virus software.I now can simply go to my renewal next week so I can renew my subscription.I am going to be needing this to keep my protection going for another year.You never know when a virus or some spyware will invade or even try to invade the database.
After eating,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some other personal work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel great to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I did not have any images nor did I have any cravings creeping up on my mentality.It is great that I am no longer enslaved to SSA and that I really don't have to act out if I really don't want to.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had.It wasn't hard.After I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money that my mom needed.After that,I headed for a nearby drug store to buy a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for my mom.I headed straight home afterwards.
After getting home,I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I was waiting for a website to come up to connect me to the renewal process of my Norton anti-virus software.I now can simply go to my renewal next week so I can renew my subscription.I am going to be needing this to keep my protection going for another year.You never know when a virus or some spyware will invade or even try to invade the database.
After eating,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some other personal work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel great to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I did not have any images nor did I have any cravings creeping up on my mentality.It is great that I am no longer enslaved to SSA and that I really don't have to act out if I really don't want to.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good but busy day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.Despite a shaky start to the day,the day went well and I was pleased with the results.After my job was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another After School Special episode on my DVD set.I also got ready to go to my appointment with the new sexual abuse support counselor.
On the way to my appointment,I stopped to check up on a friend but he wasn't home.After that,I went to get some gas and I headed for the office to wait to see the counselor.
I didn't wait too long.I was called into the office a few minutes after arriving.We talked for about 20 minutes and we ended the session.It did go fairly well but we are looking forward to talking more on my next appointment,which will be in two weeks.
Before heading for home,I headed for the local hospital's emergency ward.I was feeling a resurgence of the same cold symptoms that I had two weeks ago.The in-house doctor there prescribed a nasal spray and some strong cough remedy.I got the prescriptions filled on the way home because I needed them right away.I headed straight home after they were filled.When I got home,I started using the nasal spray right away.I am feeling a little bit better nasal wise but I am still coughing a little.I will be taking a cough pill before I go to sleep tonight.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I did some online browsing.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor did I have any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am hoping that I can get through the day tomorrow unscathed.I am feeling pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.Despite a shaky start to the day,the day went well and I was pleased with the results.After my job was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another After School Special episode on my DVD set.I also got ready to go to my appointment with the new sexual abuse support counselor.
On the way to my appointment,I stopped to check up on a friend but he wasn't home.After that,I went to get some gas and I headed for the office to wait to see the counselor.
I didn't wait too long.I was called into the office a few minutes after arriving.We talked for about 20 minutes and we ended the session.It did go fairly well but we are looking forward to talking more on my next appointment,which will be in two weeks.
Before heading for home,I headed for the local hospital's emergency ward.I was feeling a resurgence of the same cold symptoms that I had two weeks ago.The in-house doctor there prescribed a nasal spray and some strong cough remedy.I got the prescriptions filled on the way home because I needed them right away.I headed straight home after they were filled.When I got home,I started using the nasal spray right away.I am feeling a little bit better nasal wise but I am still coughing a little.I will be taking a cough pill before I go to sleep tonight.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I did some online browsing.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor did I have any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am hoping that I can get through the day tomorrow unscathed.I am feeling pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I also had a helping hand when I arrived at the work site to drop it off and sort it out.After sorting out the laundry,I headed to my appointment to meet with the minister.
On the way there,I stopped at a Burger King in the area and I had a Veggie burger for lunch.I wanted to have some food in me before anything else.After eating,I headed for my appointment.
It took a bit of doing getting there.I also got lost a couple of times before I had to ask for help from a lady who was working by the side of the road.After she gave me some direction,I took the way she gave me and I found the street that I was looking for and the place where my meeting was going to be.
When I walked into the church,the minister greeted me and I apologized for being a few minutes late due to me getting lost.We talked for almost and hour and it was a very pleasant conversation.He simply advised me to find a church that teaches the bible on a regular basis but also,try to find one that believes in doing the right thing and refuse to compromise due to law.I said that I would try and do that and that I would let him know when I do.He walked me out and I drove away heading for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.Firstly,I stopped at my mechanic's garage to clean out my old car of some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the trunk.I bagged them in a garbage bag and put them in the back seat of my 4X4 before heading off to a local supermarket to return some beer bottles and some cans for the little bit of money that they would give me.I headed straight home after that and I am staying here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I watched another After School Special from the DVD set that I bought and I laid down for a short while before I had dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and to browse some internet pages.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems whatsoever.I had no cravings nor images creeping up on me.The meeting with the minister really helped me to forget about anything sexual.Plus,all the concentration that I had to do regarding the road also helped.I feel pretty good as a result of this and the day turned out to be pretty wonderful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have an appointment with a new sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that this first session will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I also had a helping hand when I arrived at the work site to drop it off and sort it out.After sorting out the laundry,I headed to my appointment to meet with the minister.
On the way there,I stopped at a Burger King in the area and I had a Veggie burger for lunch.I wanted to have some food in me before anything else.After eating,I headed for my appointment.
It took a bit of doing getting there.I also got lost a couple of times before I had to ask for help from a lady who was working by the side of the road.After she gave me some direction,I took the way she gave me and I found the street that I was looking for and the place where my meeting was going to be.
When I walked into the church,the minister greeted me and I apologized for being a few minutes late due to me getting lost.We talked for almost and hour and it was a very pleasant conversation.He simply advised me to find a church that teaches the bible on a regular basis but also,try to find one that believes in doing the right thing and refuse to compromise due to law.I said that I would try and do that and that I would let him know when I do.He walked me out and I drove away heading for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.Firstly,I stopped at my mechanic's garage to clean out my old car of some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the trunk.I bagged them in a garbage bag and put them in the back seat of my 4X4 before heading off to a local supermarket to return some beer bottles and some cans for the little bit of money that they would give me.I headed straight home after that and I am staying here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I watched another After School Special from the DVD set that I bought and I laid down for a short while before I had dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and to browse some internet pages.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems whatsoever.I had no cravings nor images creeping up on me.The meeting with the minister really helped me to forget about anything sexual.Plus,all the concentration that I had to do regarding the road also helped.I feel pretty good as a result of this and the day turned out to be pretty wonderful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have an appointment with a new sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that this first session will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.It wasn't quite a bit to do.After finishing,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to buy a box of garbage bags and some baby wipes.I headed straight home after paying for them.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched an episode of my new DVD set of After School Specials and it was a treat to watch it.I got this on Monday and I watched one that day that I had missed when I was younger.It was also a treat to watch that one as well.After watching that,I registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.I then proceeded to go out and get dinner for me and my mom.
I bought a $4.00 sandwich at Quizno's shop and it was delicious.I also had them slice the sandwich in half so me and my mom could eat it.Again,the sandwich was delicious and my mom and I enjoyed it.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also visited a few other webpages and checked my Yahoo Messenger to see if I had any offline messages and to add a few contacts to my Yahoo messengers list.I didn't stay on messenger for too long as I signed out and closed the messenger.I will be checking it again before I shut down to see if there has been any changes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.Plus,I had no desire to act out.That actually makes me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have an appointment to meet with a minister tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.It wasn't quite a bit to do.After finishing,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to buy a box of garbage bags and some baby wipes.I headed straight home after paying for them.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched an episode of my new DVD set of After School Specials and it was a treat to watch it.I got this on Monday and I watched one that day that I had missed when I was younger.It was also a treat to watch that one as well.After watching that,I registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.I then proceeded to go out and get dinner for me and my mom.
I bought a $4.00 sandwich at Quizno's shop and it was delicious.I also had them slice the sandwich in half so me and my mom could eat it.Again,the sandwich was delicious and my mom and I enjoyed it.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also visited a few other webpages and checked my Yahoo Messenger to see if I had any offline messages and to add a few contacts to my Yahoo messengers list.I didn't stay on messenger for too long as I signed out and closed the messenger.I will be checking it again before I shut down to see if there has been any changes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.Plus,I had no desire to act out.That actually makes me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have an appointment to meet with a minister tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, May 11, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I did have a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I went to my mechanic's garage so he could check my horn out and see why it was giving out on me.He simply did some cleaning of some dirt on the connectors and after that,the horn worked better than ever.I went straight home after that and got back into bed,where I slept for a little over an hour.
After getting back up,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.I also managed to bring my mail in and I got the DVD set that I was waiting on.I then proceeded to continue on with my day.
I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bills that I needed to pay and I also went after picking up my mom's prescription refill.I then went to a mom's friends house to pick up something that she had for her.Lastly,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a bag of bagels.I headed straight home after that and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.In between all the errands,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom and I registered all the bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings.I guess that keeping myself busy was what kept my mind off of sex with men and sex in general.I feel pretty good because of it.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was my day off.I did have a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I went to my mechanic's garage so he could check my horn out and see why it was giving out on me.He simply did some cleaning of some dirt on the connectors and after that,the horn worked better than ever.I went straight home after that and got back into bed,where I slept for a little over an hour.
After getting back up,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.I also managed to bring my mail in and I got the DVD set that I was waiting on.I then proceeded to continue on with my day.
I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bills that I needed to pay and I also went after picking up my mom's prescription refill.I then went to a mom's friends house to pick up something that she had for her.Lastly,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a bag of bagels.I headed straight home after that and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.In between all the errands,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom and I registered all the bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings.I guess that keeping myself busy was what kept my mind off of sex with men and sex in general.I feel pretty good because of it.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers of the world.
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a shaky start.
When I got out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I did have a few issues with the browser that I was using.But again,I managed to get everything done and I proceeded to get on with the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.After I gave my mom her Mother's Day gift,which was the CD that I made for her,I cleaned up,got dressed and went out for a while.My eldest sister was in town visiting with mom and I felt that I should leave them alone for a while.
Firstly,I got some gas at a local gas station and I went to a nearby shopping mall.When I got there,I had a slice of pizza as a late lunch and I headed back home after I was done eating.
When I did get home,my eldest sister was still talking with mom and I chose to browse the internet for a while.I would eventually take my eldest sister to my other sister's house when she felt a little tired.
After getting home,I ate a late dinner and after eating,I chose to do some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing and visited a few pages on Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few guys there who were having a bachelor party downstairs in the place's basement and they decided to come up and watch the entertainment upstairs once their party ended.It was great to have all of these guys there and I did get some really loud positive responses from them as one by one,most of them left for home.Still,it was a great night and I had a good time.I am looking forward to next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had an episode where I wound up masturbating.Images of men with erections crept up into my mentality while I was still in bed sleeping and as stated,I masturbated.I did feel miserable after that but after cleaning up all the seminal residue,I asked the creator to forgive me.I felt better after that.I guess that I need to learn to make alternate decisions before acting out.I have been doing so good but I wound up falling short.There is a new week ahead and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.
I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys over at the bar tonight.I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with my mechanic tomorrow so he can check out my horn mechanism to see why it has been giving out on me a lot lately.I hope that the problem is not very serious.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a shaky start.
When I got out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I did have a few issues with the browser that I was using.But again,I managed to get everything done and I proceeded to get on with the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.After I gave my mom her Mother's Day gift,which was the CD that I made for her,I cleaned up,got dressed and went out for a while.My eldest sister was in town visiting with mom and I felt that I should leave them alone for a while.
Firstly,I got some gas at a local gas station and I went to a nearby shopping mall.When I got there,I had a slice of pizza as a late lunch and I headed back home after I was done eating.
When I did get home,my eldest sister was still talking with mom and I chose to browse the internet for a while.I would eventually take my eldest sister to my other sister's house when she felt a little tired.
After getting home,I ate a late dinner and after eating,I chose to do some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing and visited a few pages on Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few guys there who were having a bachelor party downstairs in the place's basement and they decided to come up and watch the entertainment upstairs once their party ended.It was great to have all of these guys there and I did get some really loud positive responses from them as one by one,most of them left for home.Still,it was a great night and I had a good time.I am looking forward to next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had an episode where I wound up masturbating.Images of men with erections crept up into my mentality while I was still in bed sleeping and as stated,I masturbated.I did feel miserable after that but after cleaning up all the seminal residue,I asked the creator to forgive me.I felt better after that.I guess that I need to learn to make alternate decisions before acting out.I have been doing so good but I wound up falling short.There is a new week ahead and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.
I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys over at the bar tonight.I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with my mechanic tomorrow so he can check out my horn mechanism to see why it has been giving out on me a lot lately.I hope that the problem is not very serious.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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