Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I did have only a little bit planned.
I only went to a couple of places that I needed to go.I first went to the local Big Lots to pick up a couple of things there.After Big Lots,I went over to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent.After paying for that,I headed straight home.I had really nothing else to do as the day was pretty cold and snowy. When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted in the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was yet another throbbing one.I had to toss and turn repeatedly and aggressively because I didn't want to masturbate the erection away as I used to do in the past because I know that masturbation is an unclean and dirty habit.I also know that masturbation will never get me what I want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Masturbation,in my case,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is the identity that I am trying to overcome and rid myself of.Though I escaped this episode,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continually stay on guard and be watchful.I also have to work on staying strong to resist the temptation to act out in other ways other than seeking a male partner to act out sexually with.I also have that temptation to do that,but I don't do that.God and his sacred word the Holy Bible condemns such sinful sexual activity as he created man and woman for a reason.God intended for us to be Heterosexual as he created man and woman for that reason.I will have to keep on fighting the desires.If anyone has some more suggestions or any other thing that I can use,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow morning,I am going to be attending the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.I am also hoping to get around to doing my laundry in the afternoon.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I first went to the place where we have our group meetings to pick up the new schedule.After doing that,I headed over to the public library to print something from the internet.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that was needed for dinner.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to go to my meeting with the pastor of the church that I have been attending worship services at.I was looking forward to this meeting with a lot of enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving again very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to act out by masturbating when I was awakened by a morning erection in the wee early morning hours.It was also another throbbing one.I had to really fight this temptation as it was a very strong and overwhelming one this time.I kept tossing and turning repeatedly because this erection was one of the stiffest that I had in a long time.As I have said before,my temptation to masturbate is really strong when I am awakened by a morning erection in the wee early morning hours.I kept tossing and turning until the erection died down and when my genitals were softened,I fell back asleep.I slept until I got up a few hours later.Though I escaped this temptation,the temptation to act out in any other way other than seeking a male partner to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It isn't easy fighting the temptation to masturbate when you have an erection.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want,nor will it give me anything that will help me in my goals to become the man that God intended me to be.In my case,masturbation only helps reinforce the Homosexual identity that I am trying to overcome and disown.Masturbation will never give me affirmation of my gender identity.It also won't give me the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Again,I am open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I first went to the place where we have our group meetings to pick up the new schedule.After doing that,I headed over to the public library to print something from the internet.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that was needed for dinner.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to go to my meeting with the pastor of the church that I have been attending worship services at.I was looking forward to this meeting with a lot of enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving again very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to act out by masturbating when I was awakened by a morning erection in the wee early morning hours.It was also another throbbing one.I had to really fight this temptation as it was a very strong and overwhelming one this time.I kept tossing and turning repeatedly because this erection was one of the stiffest that I had in a long time.As I have said before,my temptation to masturbate is really strong when I am awakened by a morning erection in the wee early morning hours.I kept tossing and turning until the erection died down and when my genitals were softened,I fell back asleep.I slept until I got up a few hours later.Though I escaped this temptation,the temptation to act out in any other way other than seeking a male partner to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It isn't easy fighting the temptation to masturbate when you have an erection.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want,nor will it give me anything that will help me in my goals to become the man that God intended me to be.In my case,masturbation only helps reinforce the Homosexual identity that I am trying to overcome and disown.Masturbation will never give me affirmation of my gender identity.It also won't give me the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Again,I am open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After bathing,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had some stuff planned.
I first went to my spirituality group and as usual,that went great.I got a lot out of it and after that was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen for lunch.After lunch,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I went to a local card store to pick up a birthday card for a daughter of a friend of the family.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I was tempted to masturbate it away when I was awoke by that.It was a really strong temptation,but I resisted by simply tossing and turning until the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be careful as it can come back with a vengeance.I need to continue to stay strong whenever the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form rears it's ugly head when least expected.I am still open to any advice or suggestions by those who read this blog regularly.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have another appointment with the pastor of the church that I have been worshipping at since September of last year and I hope that it goes good.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After bathing,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had some stuff planned.
I first went to my spirituality group and as usual,that went great.I got a lot out of it and after that was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen for lunch.After lunch,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I went to a local card store to pick up a birthday card for a daughter of a friend of the family.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I was tempted to masturbate it away when I was awoke by that.It was a really strong temptation,but I resisted by simply tossing and turning until the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be careful as it can come back with a vengeance.I need to continue to stay strong whenever the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form rears it's ugly head when least expected.I am still open to any advice or suggestions by those who read this blog regularly.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have another appointment with the pastor of the church that I have been worshipping at since September of last year and I hope that it goes good.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day,though I didn't have too much to do.
After getting some gas at a local gas station,I headed over to a local bargain out closeout store to pick up something.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in a small amount of empty cans and bottles.After that was finished,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will start improving in my recovery in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals of the early morning.The first happened at around 4:15am and it was a really hard throbbing one at that.I repeatedly tossed and turned as this temptation to masturbate the erection away was really a strong one.After several minutes,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Then,at 6:15,two hours later,I was awakened by yet another erection.It was just like the earlier episode.I had to really toss and turn until the erection died down.I went back to sleep and slept for a little while longer.These were really strong.I had to really fight to resist these current temptations to masturbate these erections away.Each and every time that I get an erection,my temptation to masturbate is really overwhelming.I have to really fight to resist the temptation.Though I escaped these two episodes,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It is really difficult to resist temptation when you have an erection that wakes you up out of a deep sleep in the wee early morning hours.I just have to stay in the fight and try to stay strong.I am still open to any suggestions or advice from followers.I would like to know what has worked for you and what hasn't worked for you.Please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have my spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day,though I didn't have too much to do.
After getting some gas at a local gas station,I headed over to a local bargain out closeout store to pick up something.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in a small amount of empty cans and bottles.After that was finished,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will start improving in my recovery in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals of the early morning.The first happened at around 4:15am and it was a really hard throbbing one at that.I repeatedly tossed and turned as this temptation to masturbate the erection away was really a strong one.After several minutes,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Then,at 6:15,two hours later,I was awakened by yet another erection.It was just like the earlier episode.I had to really toss and turn until the erection died down.I went back to sleep and slept for a little while longer.These were really strong.I had to really fight to resist these current temptations to masturbate these erections away.Each and every time that I get an erection,my temptation to masturbate is really overwhelming.I have to really fight to resist the temptation.Though I escaped these two episodes,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It is really difficult to resist temptation when you have an erection that wakes you up out of a deep sleep in the wee early morning hours.I just have to stay in the fight and try to stay strong.I am still open to any suggestions or advice from followers.I would like to know what has worked for you and what hasn't worked for you.Please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have my spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned for the day and I wanted to get them accomplished.
Before I set out to do the most important thing,I had to drop something off and pick up something at the house of one of my mother's friends.After that was done,I headed back home to take it easy until it was time for me to go to my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.My appointment with her was in the late afternoon and so,I had plenty of time to kill before that appointment.
When it came time to go,I headed over there.
The session went wonderfully well.After the session was over,we set up a new appointment and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by two erections at separate times in the wee early morning hours.In the first occurrence,I had to toss and turn really aggressively until the erection died down.In the second occurrence,I was really hard that time and since I had to get up and use the bathroom,I walked to there until my genitals softened.This was a double whammy for me this morning.Though I escaped both of these,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in other ways other than seeking a male sexual partner to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue to work on strengthening my wits and senses to fight off any temptation.Temptation is a cruel demon indeed.That demon can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting that ugly demon known as temptation whenever it comes around.As always,I am always open to any new ideas on how I can stay strong and stay in the fight against temptation and SSA.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned for the day and I wanted to get them accomplished.
Before I set out to do the most important thing,I had to drop something off and pick up something at the house of one of my mother's friends.After that was done,I headed back home to take it easy until it was time for me to go to my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.My appointment with her was in the late afternoon and so,I had plenty of time to kill before that appointment.
When it came time to go,I headed over there.
The session went wonderfully well.After the session was over,we set up a new appointment and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by two erections at separate times in the wee early morning hours.In the first occurrence,I had to toss and turn really aggressively until the erection died down.In the second occurrence,I was really hard that time and since I had to get up and use the bathroom,I walked to there until my genitals softened.This was a double whammy for me this morning.Though I escaped both of these,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in other ways other than seeking a male sexual partner to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue to work on strengthening my wits and senses to fight off any temptation.Temptation is a cruel demon indeed.That demon can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting that ugly demon known as temptation whenever it comes around.As always,I am always open to any new ideas on how I can stay strong and stay in the fight against temptation and SSA.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, March 26, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I first had a couple of important groups that I had to attend.I attend these groups every Monday and I needed to attend them today.
They both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to act out by masturbating when I was again awakened by another erection.I had to really fight this temptation as it was a really hard one and also another throbbing one.I tossed and turned until the erection died down and afterwards,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this one,I know that the struggle to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than seeking another man to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can hit anytime.I will just have to keep fighting this temptation each and every time that it rolls around.I don't want to masturbate anymore as I know that masturbation will never get me what I really need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Masturbation will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is what I am trying to overcome and do away with.Again,if anyone has anything helpful to offer,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I first had a couple of important groups that I had to attend.I attend these groups every Monday and I needed to attend them today.
They both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to act out by masturbating when I was again awakened by another erection.I had to really fight this temptation as it was a really hard one and also another throbbing one.I tossed and turned until the erection died down and afterwards,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this one,I know that the struggle to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than seeking another man to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can hit anytime.I will just have to keep fighting this temptation each and every time that it rolls around.I don't want to masturbate anymore as I know that masturbation will never get me what I really need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Masturbation will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is what I am trying to overcome and do away with.Again,if anyone has anything helpful to offer,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up and proceeded to go to the morning's church service.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and very high enthusiasm.
Both the Holy Bible study class and the service afterwards were wonderful.I got quite a lot from both and the fellowship before and after the service was terrific.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and changed into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and I decided to go out and run a small errand for myself.
I went to a local closeout bargain store in my area to buy something.After paying for that,I headed over to a local pizzeria to have a slice of pizza.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.It is always eventful when you make going to church a part of the day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that someday soon my recovery will start improving.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours.I was awakened again by another erection.It was also another throbbing one and it also felt really hard.I really had to toss and turn very aggressively so I could resist the temptation to masturbate the erection away.It wasn't easy,but I managed to escape when the erection died down and I fell back asleep.Though I escaped that episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay strong and keep up the strength to resist the best way that I know how.It isn't easy,but I know that it can be done.I have got to keep fighting when the temptation to act out by masturbating rears it's ugly head.I have to continually keep strong,even though I am weak and meek.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up and proceeded to go to the morning's church service.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and very high enthusiasm.
Both the Holy Bible study class and the service afterwards were wonderful.I got quite a lot from both and the fellowship before and after the service was terrific.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and changed into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and I decided to go out and run a small errand for myself.
I went to a local closeout bargain store in my area to buy something.After paying for that,I headed over to a local pizzeria to have a slice of pizza.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.It is always eventful when you make going to church a part of the day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that someday soon my recovery will start improving.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours.I was awakened again by another erection.It was also another throbbing one and it also felt really hard.I really had to toss and turn very aggressively so I could resist the temptation to masturbate the erection away.It wasn't easy,but I managed to escape when the erection died down and I fell back asleep.Though I escaped that episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay strong and keep up the strength to resist the best way that I know how.It isn't easy,but I know that it can be done.I have got to keep fighting when the temptation to act out by masturbating rears it's ugly head.I have to continually keep strong,even though I am weak and meek.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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