Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned for the day and I wanted to get them accomplished.
Before I set out to do the most important thing,I had to drop something off and pick up something at the house of one of my mother's friends.After that was done,I headed back home to take it easy until it was time for me to go to my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.My appointment with her was in the late afternoon and so,I had plenty of time to kill before that appointment.
When it came time to go,I headed over there.
The session went wonderfully well.After the session was over,we set up a new appointment and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by two erections at separate times in the wee early morning hours.In the first occurrence,I had to toss and turn really aggressively until the erection died down.In the second occurrence,I was really hard that time and since I had to get up and use the bathroom,I walked to there until my genitals softened.This was a double whammy for me this morning.Though I escaped both of these,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in other ways other than seeking a male sexual partner to act out with can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue to work on strengthening my wits and senses to fight off any temptation.Temptation is a cruel demon indeed.That demon can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting that ugly demon known as temptation whenever it comes around.As always,I am always open to any new ideas on how I can stay strong and stay in the fight against temptation and SSA.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ