Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better than I did yesterday.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a very busy day for me.After eating and doing my personal PC work,I ran to do a few errands today.
Firstly,I went to a public library to print a couple of articles to read during my spare time off the internet.I headed for home after that and I also stopped at a drug store to pick up some medication that my mom needed on the way there.
Second,I also went to a mom's friend;s house to pick up something that she had for mom and I brought it home.I laid down for a short time before taking a bath.
After bathing,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Today,weatherwise,was sunny and mild but a little chilly still.Since it was a nice day,I went out and did the errands and I enjoyed being out in the community.It was wonderful to be around people and to be out.As stated,I had a pretty good day and I enjoyed myself.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images creeped up into my mind nor did I have any cravings.Not only that,the best thing to happen was that I didn't hear anything about Same-Sex Marriage in the news.Though nothing new on that,I still need to be on guard and I need some advice on how I can weather the storm and manage my emotions during this time when they bring it back in the news again.If anyone out there can give me any advice on doing so,please do.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks in advance.
Tonight is my night to sing for the crowd.I am looking forward to that.I sing each and every Saturday and I always look forward to doing that.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well because you never know what might happen.I do have the feeling that everything will work out for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,which is the holiday,I am going to be staying home tomorrow for dinner.I am really not planning to go anywhere.But if I do decide to go somewhere and do something,I hope that it give's me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the holiday ahead.FJ
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day but I am feeling a little bit down.I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.
Today was a day off for me.It was Good Friday today and though I had a day off,I still had quite a bit to do today.It was mostly personal stuff but I managed to get everything done.
First,I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more extra things that we needed before the holiday.It was a pretty hectic day at the supermarket.There were a lot of people rushing to get some last minute things before the holiday arrives.It is only two days away and I am glad that this happens only once a year.I wouldn't want to go through this every day.It is just too stressful and hectic just trying to survive when a holiday weekend is upon us.
After dropping the groceries off at home,I registered some bills that I received after cashing my paycheck at the Where's George site and it was quite a lot.They are on the site as of now and I am going to be spending some of them bills tomorrow night when I go out to sing for my friends.I am looking forward to that tomorrow night.
After doing that,I decided to go to a library in another part of Western New York but changed my mind.I was feeling a little nervous while trying to drive out there and I decided to just go and pick up a couple of records that my record store friend was holding for me and head for home.Before going home,I decided to make one last trip to the supermarket and pick up something else for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work after eating.I also watched the season finale of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.I have only more thing to do before calling it a day.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I have been hearing so much about Same-Sex Marriage as of late.Today,I heard a little bit more regarding this and believe me,it is just weighing me down.I feel depressed and saddened by this very prospect because as I have stated previously,the institution of marriage is between a man and a woman and not the way that these so-called "Gay" activists want it to be.It's bad enough that these so-called "Gay" people believe all the lies that they are told relentlessly that they are "born that way" and that there is nothing they can do to change themselves.I am also fed up with the mental health profession also pushing forth these lies and encouraging those who are living in this sort of lifestyle to just go out and be what they are as well as be proud of it.This is not only WRONG but it is also not the way that it is intended to be.It really makes me angry that many people are believing these lies and are not pursuing the right roads.They believe the lies and then they believe more lies.I know that lies will always be spread no matter how hard the effort to suppress them.But it is just terrible that so many people would rather believe a liar than those who speak truth.
This whole thing is going to be a real test to my SSA struggles.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am already reaching the height of the ride.I don't know when I am going down again.But when I do,anything can happen.I am just hoping that the governor of New York state and President Obama vetoes the Same-Sex Marriage bills so marriage can be kept between a man and a woman and not be changed to satisfy the political attitudes and beliefs of radicals trying to get their own way with the leaders who were either elected or who take over after the previous elected leaders resigned.
But as stated,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.Despite my depression,I am glad that there are people who believe the truth and are fighting to keep traditional marriage legal.I just uploaded the link to the website for National Organization For Marriage and the commercial AD that they made on my blog.For those visiting,feel free to check them out.Again,I am glad that there are groups of people who believe the truth and are spreading the truth in the midst of this storm that is happening in front of us.Despite the lies,there is truth in the midst of the lies and it makes me feel better knowing that.My love goes out to those spreading the truth.
As I stated,I am going to go out and sing for my friends tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.As for the holiday,I am going to stay home and take it easy and try to make it a very good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ
Today was a day off for me.It was Good Friday today and though I had a day off,I still had quite a bit to do today.It was mostly personal stuff but I managed to get everything done.
First,I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more extra things that we needed before the holiday.It was a pretty hectic day at the supermarket.There were a lot of people rushing to get some last minute things before the holiday arrives.It is only two days away and I am glad that this happens only once a year.I wouldn't want to go through this every day.It is just too stressful and hectic just trying to survive when a holiday weekend is upon us.
After dropping the groceries off at home,I registered some bills that I received after cashing my paycheck at the Where's George site and it was quite a lot.They are on the site as of now and I am going to be spending some of them bills tomorrow night when I go out to sing for my friends.I am looking forward to that tomorrow night.
After doing that,I decided to go to a library in another part of Western New York but changed my mind.I was feeling a little nervous while trying to drive out there and I decided to just go and pick up a couple of records that my record store friend was holding for me and head for home.Before going home,I decided to make one last trip to the supermarket and pick up something else for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work after eating.I also watched the season finale of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.I have only more thing to do before calling it a day.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I have been hearing so much about Same-Sex Marriage as of late.Today,I heard a little bit more regarding this and believe me,it is just weighing me down.I feel depressed and saddened by this very prospect because as I have stated previously,the institution of marriage is between a man and a woman and not the way that these so-called "Gay" activists want it to be.It's bad enough that these so-called "Gay" people believe all the lies that they are told relentlessly that they are "born that way" and that there is nothing they can do to change themselves.I am also fed up with the mental health profession also pushing forth these lies and encouraging those who are living in this sort of lifestyle to just go out and be what they are as well as be proud of it.This is not only WRONG but it is also not the way that it is intended to be.It really makes me angry that many people are believing these lies and are not pursuing the right roads.They believe the lies and then they believe more lies.I know that lies will always be spread no matter how hard the effort to suppress them.But it is just terrible that so many people would rather believe a liar than those who speak truth.
This whole thing is going to be a real test to my SSA struggles.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am already reaching the height of the ride.I don't know when I am going down again.But when I do,anything can happen.I am just hoping that the governor of New York state and President Obama vetoes the Same-Sex Marriage bills so marriage can be kept between a man and a woman and not be changed to satisfy the political attitudes and beliefs of radicals trying to get their own way with the leaders who were either elected or who take over after the previous elected leaders resigned.
But as stated,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.Despite my depression,I am glad that there are people who believe the truth and are fighting to keep traditional marriage legal.I just uploaded the link to the website for National Organization For Marriage and the commercial AD that they made on my blog.For those visiting,feel free to check them out.Again,I am glad that there are groups of people who believe the truth and are spreading the truth in the midst of this storm that is happening in front of us.Despite the lies,there is truth in the midst of the lies and it makes me feel better knowing that.My love goes out to those spreading the truth.
As I stated,I am going to go out and sing for my friends tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.As for the holiday,I am going to stay home and take it easy and try to make it a very good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did the required work that I had to do in the time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped and got some gas at a nearby gas station.I also visited a friend of mine who owns a record store in my hometown and I gave him some business by buying a couple of record albums.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I needed to sit down for a while before helping my mom with an errand.My mom needed to do some more grocery shopping before the holiday starts.That way,she has some stuff in the house for the holiday.
While my mom was grocery shopping,I decided to go to the local Wal-Mart to buy another movie.But I changed my mind and decided to go back to the store and check up on my mom to see if she was done with her grocery shopping.
After we got home and I unloaded the car,I went back out to get a 1/2 gallon of ice cream at another supermarket in the area because my mom forgot to pick up one at the store that she was shopping at.I headed back home to wait for dinner to get done.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot of e-mails to read and I am glad to have gotten it done.I am now relaxing and I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,there are being put to the test at the moment.I have been hearing in the news recently about the Same-Sex Marriage bill being presented to Congress and to the governer of my state,David Paterson.This is really going to be a very nerve wracking thing.I am hoping that the bill gets thrown out by Congress.If they pass the bill,which I hope does not happen,I hope that President Barack Obama vetoes the bill and that it doesn't become law.Not only that,I am also hoping that David Paterson doesn't make it legal here in New York state.That would be the "ULTIMATE" death knell in both the state of New York and the country.Same-Sex Marriage is not only WRONG,UNETHICAL & INNAPPROPRIATE,but the marital arrangemnet as a whole was not meant for this purpose.Marriage is a sacred vow and bond between a man and a woman,which is the way our creator intended.He never intended for marriage to be used in such a manner where two people of the same sex could become like a man and a women.Instead of it being "holy matrimony", it will be "unholy matrimony" and it would also be a travesty if this bill would ever get passed.If our founding fathers would ever have heard this going about,they'd turn over in their graves.They would have never intended for this to come to pass.Not only that,it was Adam and Eve who were made,NOT Adam and Steve.I am just hoping that this bill will either be thrown out or simply vetoed.Again,marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Again,it is the way that the creator intended marriage to be because he created the marital arrangemnet to be this way.I am going to need some support,prayers and encouragement because my SSA issues will be put to the test.Anger will also be aroused because it makes me angry that they are considering this and even trying to get this passed into law.Once again,I am hoping that this doesn't happen and I hope that marriage is kept the way it was originally intended.Again,I am going to need prayers,support and encouragement.I am hoping that I can get some of that.Thanks in advance for all of that.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.I have the day off and I have no plans at the moment.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I will be singing over the weekend as usual.I am hoping that my night of entertaining goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the holiday weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did the required work that I had to do in the time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped and got some gas at a nearby gas station.I also visited a friend of mine who owns a record store in my hometown and I gave him some business by buying a couple of record albums.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I needed to sit down for a while before helping my mom with an errand.My mom needed to do some more grocery shopping before the holiday starts.That way,she has some stuff in the house for the holiday.
While my mom was grocery shopping,I decided to go to the local Wal-Mart to buy another movie.But I changed my mind and decided to go back to the store and check up on my mom to see if she was done with her grocery shopping.
After we got home and I unloaded the car,I went back out to get a 1/2 gallon of ice cream at another supermarket in the area because my mom forgot to pick up one at the store that she was shopping at.I headed back home to wait for dinner to get done.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot of e-mails to read and I am glad to have gotten it done.I am now relaxing and I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,there are being put to the test at the moment.I have been hearing in the news recently about the Same-Sex Marriage bill being presented to Congress and to the governer of my state,David Paterson.This is really going to be a very nerve wracking thing.I am hoping that the bill gets thrown out by Congress.If they pass the bill,which I hope does not happen,I hope that President Barack Obama vetoes the bill and that it doesn't become law.Not only that,I am also hoping that David Paterson doesn't make it legal here in New York state.That would be the "ULTIMATE" death knell in both the state of New York and the country.Same-Sex Marriage is not only WRONG,UNETHICAL & INNAPPROPRIATE,but the marital arrangemnet as a whole was not meant for this purpose.Marriage is a sacred vow and bond between a man and a woman,which is the way our creator intended.He never intended for marriage to be used in such a manner where two people of the same sex could become like a man and a women.Instead of it being "holy matrimony", it will be "unholy matrimony" and it would also be a travesty if this bill would ever get passed.If our founding fathers would ever have heard this going about,they'd turn over in their graves.They would have never intended for this to come to pass.Not only that,it was Adam and Eve who were made,NOT Adam and Steve.I am just hoping that this bill will either be thrown out or simply vetoed.Again,marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Again,it is the way that the creator intended marriage to be because he created the marital arrangemnet to be this way.I am going to need some support,prayers and encouragement because my SSA issues will be put to the test.Anger will also be aroused because it makes me angry that they are considering this and even trying to get this passed into law.Once again,I am hoping that this doesn't happen and I hope that marriage is kept the way it was originally intended.Again,I am going to need prayers,support and encouragement.I am hoping that I can get some of that.Thanks in advance for all of that.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.I have the day off and I have no plans at the moment.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I will be singing over the weekend as usual.I am hoping that my night of entertaining goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the holiday weekend ahead.FJ
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that really made the day for me.After eating lunch at work,I sorted the laundry out at the worksite and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed a bit before helping my mom out on an errand.My mom needed to get some gifts for her great grandchildren for the Easter holiday and I had to take her to the store so she could get the things that she needed.I also had to pick up a few other things that my mom needed at other stores in the area while she was shopping.After we were done,we headed straight home again.
While we were home,I ordered a pizza over the phone at a local Pizza Hut and while we were waiting for the pizza to get done so I could pick it up,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I went to pick up the pizza.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before the evening is through,I have to register some more bills at the Where's George.These are bills that we both got in change from shopping and the pizza.
The weather today was pretty fair.The rain that we were supposed to get didn't come.We still had some cold air in the atmosphere and we had some sunshine.Yesterday,because of the snow falling,I felt like putting in one of the Christmas specials that I have on DVD,but I didn't.The feeling was still there but I didn't give in.At least,we didn't get any more snow.I am hoping that this will be the last snowfall for a while until Winter returns.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode today.I had a pretty negative experience with a social club member.I printed a personal e-mail that a minister I have been conversing with about my SSA struggles and put it on a table face down.The social club member actually picked up and tried to look at it but I took it away from her and said that it was mine and she gave me a look of disgust.The anger I felt in a split second actually caused an immoral image to creep back into my mind.I left the place after tucking the e-mail in my bag.Despite the brief episode that I had,I didn't relapse and despite the anger,it also didn't lead to me acting out.I simply helped my mom out and I kept busy.I felt better after that.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I have a three day weekend coming to me.I have the day off on Good Friday and I am just going to take it easy.I might even pay a visit to a friend who I have been meaning to visit for quite a while but have been putting off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that really made the day for me.After eating lunch at work,I sorted the laundry out at the worksite and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed a bit before helping my mom out on an errand.My mom needed to get some gifts for her great grandchildren for the Easter holiday and I had to take her to the store so she could get the things that she needed.I also had to pick up a few other things that my mom needed at other stores in the area while she was shopping.After we were done,we headed straight home again.
While we were home,I ordered a pizza over the phone at a local Pizza Hut and while we were waiting for the pizza to get done so I could pick it up,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I went to pick up the pizza.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before the evening is through,I have to register some more bills at the Where's George.These are bills that we both got in change from shopping and the pizza.
The weather today was pretty fair.The rain that we were supposed to get didn't come.We still had some cold air in the atmosphere and we had some sunshine.Yesterday,because of the snow falling,I felt like putting in one of the Christmas specials that I have on DVD,but I didn't.The feeling was still there but I didn't give in.At least,we didn't get any more snow.I am hoping that this will be the last snowfall for a while until Winter returns.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode today.I had a pretty negative experience with a social club member.I printed a personal e-mail that a minister I have been conversing with about my SSA struggles and put it on a table face down.The social club member actually picked up and tried to look at it but I took it away from her and said that it was mine and she gave me a look of disgust.The anger I felt in a split second actually caused an immoral image to creep back into my mind.I left the place after tucking the e-mail in my bag.Despite the brief episode that I had,I didn't relapse and despite the anger,it also didn't lead to me acting out.I simply helped my mom out and I kept busy.I felt better after that.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I have a three day weekend coming to me.I have the day off on Good Friday and I am just going to take it easy.I might even pay a visit to a friend who I have been meaning to visit for quite a while but have been putting off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There was quite a lot of laundry to pick up.The bags were really full.I had to make 2 trips to pick up the laundry today.After I started my job,I decided to hang out at the social club next door while waiting for the loads to get done.
After hanging out there for a while,I decided to concentrate more on my job and while waiting for the second loads to get done,I read from a new book that I just started about a week ago.The book is called "A Christian Perspective on Homosexuality" by Daniel Puls, which is published by Concordia House publishing.I have just started reading the book about a week ago and so far,it is a wonderfully written book.I even use my copy of the Life Recovery Bible when I look up scriptures.It is always wonderful to read on a subject from the perspective and style of another person who has been through the same issues.You can learn how they went through them and how they overcame them.Each and everything that I have read has really been a help.I have gained some new insights and I am looking forward to reading even more about the subject.The more I read.The more I learn.The next book that I am hoping to start reading is The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning.I purchased the book via Amazon.com on Monday and I am eagerly awaiting the book.I know that it will be a few days and again,I am hoping to start reading it the minute that I receive it.
After my job was done,I bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center and headed for home before running another errand.
The errand that I ran was to pick up a few more things for my mom at a local supermarket.I managed to find everything that she needed and I also picked up a couple of things for myself. After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,we sorted everything out and I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner.It was going to be a light dinner of leftover homemade chicken soup.We had a bitterly cold and snowy day today and my mom felt that a hot bowl of homemade soup was appropriate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I didn't get much of a chance to start it whiel on break from work because the social club was having computer problems with one computer.Apparently,a virus or some malaware had gotten into the system and they were working on getting rid of the infection.Nobody know how it got into the system and most of the day was spent working on getting rid of the infection.This is why I couldn't do very much and most of the time I just had to pay attention on my job and let the social club staff take care of the computer problem.But I am just glad to get my e-mails done and doing all the usual personal stuff that I needed to get done online.
I am still finding it hard to believe that we are in the season of Spring.Today,the weather was very December like.It was snowy,cold and a little windy.Fortunately,the roads for driving were not too slick.I managed to get to work and drive home unscathed.Tomorrow,we will be getting snow to start with before it turns into rain.The weather will be a little bit warmer but I won't be convinced that it's Spring until the really warmer weather arrives.
Right now,the weather is cold and windy but the snow has stopped falling for now.But I know that we will be getting more in the early morning hours.It wil be rainy for the rest of the day.Again,I will only be convinced that it's Spring when the really warmer weather arrives.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images creeped up into my mind today and there were no cravings to act out.I am glad that I made it through this day unscathed but I still have the rest of the week.I am hoping tyo make it through tomorrow without any issues and even the day after and so on.I still need to take this one day at a time.
I am also adding a new link.It is a link explaining the mission of PFOX.I am hoping that any visitors will check it out.It will explain what the organization is all about and I am also hoping that it helps shatters some of the myths caused by ignorance.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.I also have to help my mom out tomorrow after I am done doing a couple of things for myself after I do my job.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly.There was quite a lot of laundry to pick up.The bags were really full.I had to make 2 trips to pick up the laundry today.After I started my job,I decided to hang out at the social club next door while waiting for the loads to get done.
After hanging out there for a while,I decided to concentrate more on my job and while waiting for the second loads to get done,I read from a new book that I just started about a week ago.The book is called "A Christian Perspective on Homosexuality" by Daniel Puls, which is published by Concordia House publishing.I have just started reading the book about a week ago and so far,it is a wonderfully written book.I even use my copy of the Life Recovery Bible when I look up scriptures.It is always wonderful to read on a subject from the perspective and style of another person who has been through the same issues.You can learn how they went through them and how they overcame them.Each and everything that I have read has really been a help.I have gained some new insights and I am looking forward to reading even more about the subject.The more I read.The more I learn.The next book that I am hoping to start reading is The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning.I purchased the book via Amazon.com on Monday and I am eagerly awaiting the book.I know that it will be a few days and again,I am hoping to start reading it the minute that I receive it.
After my job was done,I bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center and headed for home before running another errand.
The errand that I ran was to pick up a few more things for my mom at a local supermarket.I managed to find everything that she needed and I also picked up a couple of things for myself. After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,we sorted everything out and I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner.It was going to be a light dinner of leftover homemade chicken soup.We had a bitterly cold and snowy day today and my mom felt that a hot bowl of homemade soup was appropriate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I didn't get much of a chance to start it whiel on break from work because the social club was having computer problems with one computer.Apparently,a virus or some malaware had gotten into the system and they were working on getting rid of the infection.Nobody know how it got into the system and most of the day was spent working on getting rid of the infection.This is why I couldn't do very much and most of the time I just had to pay attention on my job and let the social club staff take care of the computer problem.But I am just glad to get my e-mails done and doing all the usual personal stuff that I needed to get done online.
I am still finding it hard to believe that we are in the season of Spring.Today,the weather was very December like.It was snowy,cold and a little windy.Fortunately,the roads for driving were not too slick.I managed to get to work and drive home unscathed.Tomorrow,we will be getting snow to start with before it turns into rain.The weather will be a little bit warmer but I won't be convinced that it's Spring until the really warmer weather arrives.
Right now,the weather is cold and windy but the snow has stopped falling for now.But I know that we will be getting more in the early morning hours.It wil be rainy for the rest of the day.Again,I will only be convinced that it's Spring when the really warmer weather arrives.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images creeped up into my mind today and there were no cravings to act out.I am glad that I made it through this day unscathed but I still have the rest of the week.I am hoping tyo make it through tomorrow without any issues and even the day after and so on.I still need to take this one day at a time.
I am also adding a new link.It is a link explaining the mission of PFOX.I am hoping that any visitors will check it out.It will explain what the organization is all about and I am also hoping that it helps shatters some of the myths caused by ignorance.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.I also have to help my mom out tomorrow after I am done doing a couple of things for myself after I do my job.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, April 06, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I ran a few errands today and that was it.First,I did my personal PC work and I set out about getting the errands done.Before even getting out,I was waiting for the mail to come,which was late as usual.I then set out to do the errands.
I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I had lunch at a local shopping mall.Last but not least,I went to a local Wal-Mart to buy several personal items that I needed for the month.I managed to find everything that I needed and after the shopping was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at Where's George and headed back out again to buy a few snack wraps at a local Tim Horton's for dinner.My mom and I wanted to have something different from eating out rather than the usual burgers.It was really neat and we even had some onion rings as a side dish.After eating,I registered the change that I received at Tim Horton's at Where's George.
Right now,at the moment,the weather is snowing and a light wind is blowing outside.There is really no place to go as well as nothing to do when it is snowing where I am living.We started out having a light rain but it changed to snow when the evening was starting to get underway.I am now at home relaxing anticipating the new day as the snow is falling outside.It's hard to believe that we are in the Spring season but it doesn't even look or even feel like it.But overall,it was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no issues with unwholesome images or any cravings.Still,while I got through this day unscathed,there is always the next day and the day after that and so on.There is also the chance that they might bring up that dreaded Same-Sex Marriage issue in the news again,which is one of those triggers that really sets me off because of the way I feel about this particular subject area.I still need to be on guard and to be careful.Nobody said that the plight of a man struggling with SSA was going to be easy.While I have accepted that as a fact,there are times that I want to say "BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS!"I still need to take this one day at a time.I can never think of "never falling short,again", because I know that I can fall short anytime.I do wish that I never have to hear about Same-Sex Marriage in the news.But I know that it can come up in the news again.I just have to deal with this when it comes back.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was my day off.I ran a few errands today and that was it.First,I did my personal PC work and I set out about getting the errands done.Before even getting out,I was waiting for the mail to come,which was late as usual.I then set out to do the errands.
I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I had lunch at a local shopping mall.Last but not least,I went to a local Wal-Mart to buy several personal items that I needed for the month.I managed to find everything that I needed and after the shopping was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at Where's George and headed back out again to buy a few snack wraps at a local Tim Horton's for dinner.My mom and I wanted to have something different from eating out rather than the usual burgers.It was really neat and we even had some onion rings as a side dish.After eating,I registered the change that I received at Tim Horton's at Where's George.
Right now,at the moment,the weather is snowing and a light wind is blowing outside.There is really no place to go as well as nothing to do when it is snowing where I am living.We started out having a light rain but it changed to snow when the evening was starting to get underway.I am now at home relaxing anticipating the new day as the snow is falling outside.It's hard to believe that we are in the Spring season but it doesn't even look or even feel like it.But overall,it was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no issues with unwholesome images or any cravings.Still,while I got through this day unscathed,there is always the next day and the day after that and so on.There is also the chance that they might bring up that dreaded Same-Sex Marriage issue in the news again,which is one of those triggers that really sets me off because of the way I feel about this particular subject area.I still need to be on guard and to be careful.Nobody said that the plight of a man struggling with SSA was going to be easy.While I have accepted that as a fact,there are times that I want to say "BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS!"I still need to take this one day at a time.I can never think of "never falling short,again", because I know that I can fall short anytime.I do wish that I never have to hear about Same-Sex Marriage in the news.But I know that it can come up in the news again.I just have to deal with this when it comes back.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a very shaky start.
This morning,I fell short once again.I masturbated yet again.Images were clouded in my mind and I was also talking to myself while trying to stay awake.I was still feeling really tired and I wound up giving in.Yes,I was down.Yes,I regretted giving in.But I felt miserable when I did this and after washing myself and asking for forgiveness,I fell back asleep and slept for 2 1/2 hours.I had no problems during that time.
When I did get up finally,I ate and did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a sermon online.The minister was talking about the meaning of Good Friday and why the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ is of very much importance.It was a wonderful sermon and I did feel good after listening to it.After doing my work,I ran a few errands.
I picked up some candy at a local drug store alongside some important personal things that my mom needed for the home.After dropping them off,I went and had a late lunch at a local shopping mall.
After eating lunch,I headed straight home and waited for dinner to get done while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I read from a local newspaper and listened to some music while doing so.The day was not to eventful eventful.But I was just glad to be out in the community doing the necessary running around so I could keep busy.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.It was yet another awesome night.Despite a minor problem that I had with an inconsiderate and rude person who was trying to get into any song that I was doing despite my resistance,I had a pretty good night and when the night for me was over,I headed for home.
My resolution for this upcoming week is to try and get through the whole week,including weekends,without being unscathed by sexual images of men and being plagued by them.This week was pretty emotional and I had a couple of really bad experiences but I am hoping that this upcoming week will go better and I can get through it without any problems.I have been going pretty good without being plagued by unwholesome thoughts.Nobody said that the struggles of a man with SSA were easy and I have accepted this as a challenge.Plus,the constant hearing of same sex marriage in the news isn't helping either.This has contributed to the way I have been feeling.I hate hearing so much about same sex marriage because the marriage arrangement wasn't meant for the purposes that these so called "Gay" men are trying to use it for.It is also unbelievable hearing about this.I just wish that I don't have to hear about it so much.Again,my resolution is to get through the week without being plagued by any of these things.
Regarding the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two with the gang at the place where I entertain.
Tomorrow is a day off.I am hoping that whatever I choose to do will benefit me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
This morning,I fell short once again.I masturbated yet again.Images were clouded in my mind and I was also talking to myself while trying to stay awake.I was still feeling really tired and I wound up giving in.Yes,I was down.Yes,I regretted giving in.But I felt miserable when I did this and after washing myself and asking for forgiveness,I fell back asleep and slept for 2 1/2 hours.I had no problems during that time.
When I did get up finally,I ate and did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a sermon online.The minister was talking about the meaning of Good Friday and why the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ is of very much importance.It was a wonderful sermon and I did feel good after listening to it.After doing my work,I ran a few errands.
I picked up some candy at a local drug store alongside some important personal things that my mom needed for the home.After dropping them off,I went and had a late lunch at a local shopping mall.
After eating lunch,I headed straight home and waited for dinner to get done while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I read from a local newspaper and listened to some music while doing so.The day was not to eventful eventful.But I was just glad to be out in the community doing the necessary running around so I could keep busy.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.It was yet another awesome night.Despite a minor problem that I had with an inconsiderate and rude person who was trying to get into any song that I was doing despite my resistance,I had a pretty good night and when the night for me was over,I headed for home.
My resolution for this upcoming week is to try and get through the whole week,including weekends,without being unscathed by sexual images of men and being plagued by them.This week was pretty emotional and I had a couple of really bad experiences but I am hoping that this upcoming week will go better and I can get through it without any problems.I have been going pretty good without being plagued by unwholesome thoughts.Nobody said that the struggles of a man with SSA were easy and I have accepted this as a challenge.Plus,the constant hearing of same sex marriage in the news isn't helping either.This has contributed to the way I have been feeling.I hate hearing so much about same sex marriage because the marriage arrangement wasn't meant for the purposes that these so called "Gay" men are trying to use it for.It is also unbelievable hearing about this.I just wish that I don't have to hear about it so much.Again,my resolution is to get through the week without being plagued by any of these things.
Regarding the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two with the gang at the place where I entertain.
Tomorrow is a day off.I am hoping that whatever I choose to do will benefit me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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