Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I washed up real quickly and shaved.I did some more personal PC work after that.Later on,I showered quickly and got dressed as I had to meet with a friend so we could go to an amusement park together.
We both had a blast at the park.After it was about to close,we both left and I dropped him off at home.I then stopped to get a milkshake and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.
Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the problems of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath and also,pray for me that I stop giving in to the terrible temptations to fantasize and lust after other men due to the unnatural SSA desires that I have.I want to stop both of these problems that I have and I need prayerful support.I also need some helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that the whole day goes well for me.FJ
Saturday, June 09, 2018
Friday, June 08, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day was pretty stressful,especially when a client loses it when his insurance is stalled.He was yelling and cussing.I stayed in my office while this was going on and resumed when it was quiet.It makes me better appreciate that I have weekends off.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work as I was a little tired after a long work day.After my relaxation,I changed into different clothes and ran a few errands.I got some gas,mailed an important letter out and bought a sandwich for dinner.I headed straight home after all of that was finished.
When I got home,I showered quickly and finished my personal PC work.I heated up my sandwich in the microwave and ate it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also did some dishes and vacuumed a little.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty stressful day overall.I am hoping that the new work week will be better.
Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I want to stop,but don't know how.Please share any helpful advice within the comments section.If anyone out there also struggled with this particular problem,please share what you did to overcome and contain this problem.If it worked for you,maybe it can work for me too.I also would appreciate prayers for my struggles with SSA as I have been giving into temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and I also want to stop this as well.Please continue praying for me and please share some helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that it goes well for me as I really need it after what had happened today.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day was pretty stressful,especially when a client loses it when his insurance is stalled.He was yelling and cussing.I stayed in my office while this was going on and resumed when it was quiet.It makes me better appreciate that I have weekends off.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work as I was a little tired after a long work day.After my relaxation,I changed into different clothes and ran a few errands.I got some gas,mailed an important letter out and bought a sandwich for dinner.I headed straight home after all of that was finished.
When I got home,I showered quickly and finished my personal PC work.I heated up my sandwich in the microwave and ate it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also did some dishes and vacuumed a little.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty stressful day overall.I am hoping that the new work week will be better.
Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I want to stop,but don't know how.Please share any helpful advice within the comments section.If anyone out there also struggled with this particular problem,please share what you did to overcome and contain this problem.If it worked for you,maybe it can work for me too.I also would appreciate prayers for my struggles with SSA as I have been giving into temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and I also want to stop this as well.Please continue praying for me and please share some helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that it goes well for me as I really need it after what had happened today.FJ
Thursday, June 07, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some or my personal PC work.I then washed my face and shaved real quickly.I then changed my clothes and headed for a local church for a free dinner.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and then,I showered quickly.I finished my personal PC work and later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue to pray for me as I'm still struggling with the same emotional issues,such as mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath and also,my struggles with SSA,especially in the areas of fantasies and lusting after other men.I need prayerful support that I overcome and contain these emotional issues.I also would appreciate some positive helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some or my personal PC work.I then washed my face and shaved real quickly.I then changed my clothes and headed for a local church for a free dinner.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and then,I showered quickly.I finished my personal PC work and later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue to pray for me as I'm still struggling with the same emotional issues,such as mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath and also,my struggles with SSA,especially in the areas of fantasies and lusting after other men.I need prayerful support that I overcome and contain these emotional issues.I also would appreciate some positive helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ
Wednesday, June 06, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and after that,I got dressed and headed for my meeting with the pastor of my church.
The meeting with my church pastor went well.After it was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to buy a small sandwich and a small bottle of V8 Juice.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and ate my sandwich,but had another one later on.I then did my personal PC work.After that and a little later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially with the terrible problem that I've been having,which is mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath,alongside giving into terrible SSA temptations.Both your prayers and your positive verbal support are not only helpful,but also appreciated.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and after that,I got dressed and headed for my meeting with the pastor of my church.
The meeting with my church pastor went well.After it was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to buy a small sandwich and a small bottle of V8 Juice.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and ate my sandwich,but had another one later on.I then did my personal PC work.After that and a little later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially with the terrible problem that I've been having,which is mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath,alongside giving into terrible SSA temptations.Both your prayers and your positive verbal support are not only helpful,but also appreciated.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ
Tuesday, June 05, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went by pretty well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I had a light meal and did some more personal PC work.
I later showered quickly and finished my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it time for me to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.It is also making my struggles with SSA even worse.I want to stop this terrible habit of mumbling/uttering these things under my breath,but I don't know how.I have been seeking advice on how to stop,but nobody wants to help as nobody who visits my blog will leave anything in the comments section.I'm desperate here.I want to stop,but as I said,I don't know how and I feel all alone because nobody leaves any form of advice on how I can within the comments section.I really could use some helpful advice and suggestions on how I can stop,overcome and contain this terrible problem.I also still need some advice on how I can avoid temptations to act out on the unnatural SSA desires that I have by fantasies and lusting.Please help me.I want to overcome and contain both of these problems.Please share some helpful advice within the comments section,alongside the prayerful support that I also need.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the work day goes well.After work,I will be meeting with the current pastor of my church to talk with him about these terrible problems that I have and hopefully,he can lead me in the right direction.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went by pretty well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I had a light meal and did some more personal PC work.
I later showered quickly and finished my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it time for me to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.It is also making my struggles with SSA even worse.I want to stop this terrible habit of mumbling/uttering these things under my breath,but I don't know how.I have been seeking advice on how to stop,but nobody wants to help as nobody who visits my blog will leave anything in the comments section.I'm desperate here.I want to stop,but as I said,I don't know how and I feel all alone because nobody leaves any form of advice on how I can within the comments section.I really could use some helpful advice and suggestions on how I can stop,overcome and contain this terrible problem.I also still need some advice on how I can avoid temptations to act out on the unnatural SSA desires that I have by fantasies and lusting.Please help me.I want to overcome and contain both of these problems.Please share some helpful advice within the comments section,alongside the prayerful support that I also need.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the work day goes well.After work,I will be meeting with the current pastor of my church to talk with him about these terrible problems that I have and hopefully,he can lead me in the right direction.FJ
Monday, June 04, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.
I then did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Tonight,I'm again asking for prayers.I'm still struggling with this terrible problem that I have,which is uttering/mumbling angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I have been having this terrible problem for a long time.I want to stop this,but again,I don't know how.I hate myself as a result of this problem.I even say "I hate myself" to myself every day as a result of this problem.If that's not bad enough,my SSA struggles have also worsened and I also want to contain and overcome this problem as much as I want to contain and overcome the terrible problem of the mumbling and uttering negative things under my breath.I have been giving into the terrible temptations associated with SSA and I also want to stop this as well.I hate myself for having these terrible and unnatural SSA desires.I also hate myself for having this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.The latter problem is one that I want to stop,contain and overcome because I could hurt others,including myself,with this if I were to one day accidentally blurt them out at the wrong time and around the wrong person.I have been uttering/mumbling these things at my own relatives and their annual get together's every year around the Summer.I have no reason to be this way towards them as many of these are directed towards my still living father and my deceased paternal grandmother.I have to understand that it isn't their faults at all for what happened to me at the hands of my father,and also,the way that my paternal grandmother,treated me and my older siblings as she refused to acknowledge me of my older siblings after the death of my paternal grandfather,who I was really close with.I'm afraid if I don't stop,overcome and contain this problem of uttering/mumbling these things,I could get disowned by my own relatives and that they would want nothing to do with me nor ever acknowledge me or even want to reconcile with me if I don't stop this.I really don't mean those things.It's just that I'm feeling this intense anger and rage burning through myself and I want to contain this anger and rage that I have before the worst possible scenario happens.I also want to stop giving into the terrible temptations associated with the SSA struggle that I have.
Please continue praying for me that I succeed at what I want to do.Please pray that I find the right spiritual counseling to help me as well.I also would appreciate any helpful advice within the comments section.If anyone out there has also had this particular problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under their breaths,please share what you did and what worked for you.I'm hoping that if it worked for any of you,maybe it could work for me.Any advice is helpful as I'm desperate to stop this before it's too late and it could cost me important relationships that I have with my family/relatives,my friends and also,it could cost me my current job,which I like and I'm also appreciated by the people that I work for and those who stay there temporarily.I don't want to lose everything that's important to me and that I've worked so hard for to get.I would appreciate prayerful and positive helpful verbal advice and support within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.
I then did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Tonight,I'm again asking for prayers.I'm still struggling with this terrible problem that I have,which is uttering/mumbling angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I have been having this terrible problem for a long time.I want to stop this,but again,I don't know how.I hate myself as a result of this problem.I even say "I hate myself" to myself every day as a result of this problem.If that's not bad enough,my SSA struggles have also worsened and I also want to contain and overcome this problem as much as I want to contain and overcome the terrible problem of the mumbling and uttering negative things under my breath.I have been giving into the terrible temptations associated with SSA and I also want to stop this as well.I hate myself for having these terrible and unnatural SSA desires.I also hate myself for having this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.The latter problem is one that I want to stop,contain and overcome because I could hurt others,including myself,with this if I were to one day accidentally blurt them out at the wrong time and around the wrong person.I have been uttering/mumbling these things at my own relatives and their annual get together's every year around the Summer.I have no reason to be this way towards them as many of these are directed towards my still living father and my deceased paternal grandmother.I have to understand that it isn't their faults at all for what happened to me at the hands of my father,and also,the way that my paternal grandmother,treated me and my older siblings as she refused to acknowledge me of my older siblings after the death of my paternal grandfather,who I was really close with.I'm afraid if I don't stop,overcome and contain this problem of uttering/mumbling these things,I could get disowned by my own relatives and that they would want nothing to do with me nor ever acknowledge me or even want to reconcile with me if I don't stop this.I really don't mean those things.It's just that I'm feeling this intense anger and rage burning through myself and I want to contain this anger and rage that I have before the worst possible scenario happens.I also want to stop giving into the terrible temptations associated with the SSA struggle that I have.
Please continue praying for me that I succeed at what I want to do.Please pray that I find the right spiritual counseling to help me as well.I also would appreciate any helpful advice within the comments section.If anyone out there has also had this particular problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under their breaths,please share what you did and what worked for you.I'm hoping that if it worked for any of you,maybe it could work for me.Any advice is helpful as I'm desperate to stop this before it's too late and it could cost me important relationships that I have with my family/relatives,my friends and also,it could cost me my current job,which I like and I'm also appreciated by the people that I work for and those who stay there temporarily.I don't want to lose everything that's important to me and that I've worked so hard for to get.I would appreciate prayerful and positive helpful verbal advice and support within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ
Sunday, June 03, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in dress clothes.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.After w while,I went out for a drive around town and to check up on a couple of people that I know,who weren't home.I then headed back home.
When I got back home,I did some more personal PC work,ate a light evening meal and showered quickly.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.
Tonight,I'm again asking that all of you continue praying for me.I'm still struggling with this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I want to stop this,but as I said,I don't know how.I keep asking all of you for any helpful advice on how I can stop this,but I've not yet received a reply.It's like I'm talking to dead air.I am also struggling with SSA issues still.I need helpful advice and prayerful support.I really need these things.Please help me.I want to stop this terrible problem before I hurt anyone,including myself.Please continue to offer up prayers for me.Please leave me helpful advice within the comments section.I would greatly appreciate these things from all of you.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in dress clothes.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.After w while,I went out for a drive around town and to check up on a couple of people that I know,who weren't home.I then headed back home.
When I got back home,I did some more personal PC work,ate a light evening meal and showered quickly.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.
Tonight,I'm again asking that all of you continue praying for me.I'm still struggling with this terrible problem of mumbling/uttering angry,hateful and hurtful things under my breath.I want to stop this,but as I said,I don't know how.I keep asking all of you for any helpful advice on how I can stop this,but I've not yet received a reply.It's like I'm talking to dead air.I am also struggling with SSA issues still.I need helpful advice and prayerful support.I really need these things.Please help me.I want to stop this terrible problem before I hurt anyone,including myself.Please continue to offer up prayers for me.Please leave me helpful advice within the comments section.I would greatly appreciate these things from all of you.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ
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