Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good.My mom and I finally got the grocery shopping done and when we got home,she was still feeling good.I left only for a short time but when I got back,my mom was not feeling good.She had a cramp in her stomach and had to go to the bathroom to vomit.Afterwards,she laid down for a bit and according to her,she felt better.Still,it really made me feel miserable for a while and I felt guilty about leaving the house even if it was a short time that I was gone.
When I got back,I bathed to clean up and I also talked with a friend for a bit.My head was also hurting so I drank a cup of herbal breathe easy tea to help eliminate my headache.Most of my headache is gone and I am feeling better but that was scary what happened to my mom.If she is feeling better like she says she does,I feel better.But I hope that she is not trying to hide anything.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd and I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But as usual,I have a feeling that everything will work out for me tonight.
As for Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me positively.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling retty good.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I also managed to have a nice lunch before starting my shift.
I really did not have too much to do.I simply did a couple of small loads and bagged all of what was clean.After I dropped them off,I headed for the bank to cash my paycheck.
After cashing that,I headed for my regular bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that I went home to drop some stuff off that I had taken with me to work.
When I got home,I registered all of the money at Where's George and went shopping to pick up some stuff for dinner at a local supermarket.While I was eating,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware on my computer.I also made my bed and went out to run an errand for my mom afterwards.It was a small run.I had to pick up a box of Peanut Butter wafers at another local supermarket and I also went and had a dipped ice cream cone at a local Dairy Queen and even managing to do a little extra for myself.After that,I headed home and I am staying home for the evening.
I am now at home relaxing.I am getting ready for the weekend,which I am glad is here.I can hardly wait for tomorrow night when I am going to be singing for the crowd and I am hoping that the evening goes well.As for Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but exausted.I had a pretty smooth work shift today,which included a pretty nice lunch after I did my shift.After lunch,I did the usual dropping off the clean laundry and went home to drop something off.After that,I went to to the auto scrap yard to pick up my replacement driver side safety belt.I went home again for only a few minutes.I had a drink of water because I felt thirsty before I left home again.
I went to my mechanic's garage to have the belt installed.Afterwards,it worked great.It is now moving with me when I have to look to see if there is anyone coming when I stop at one of those STOP signs that is not all way.After that was done,I went into another area of Western New York and went to a Salvation Army thrift shop there.I found a bunch of old records,a few old 8-Tracks and another suit that fits great.After doing that,I called my mom on my cell phone to remind her that I was okay and that I was on my way home.I told her where I was and that after I got home,I would go to Wendy's to pick up a few burgers for dinner.She told me okay and I started for home.
When I got home,I dropped off the stuff and went out again to pick up the burgers at Wendy's.After we ate them,I went to my computer to finish my personal PC work.I also managed to call the old guy that I knew in the area who e-mailed me earlier about records that he found out about that a guy he knoew had.He told me that he would get back to me regarding this when he hears from that other guy he knows.
I am now relaxing.I am also feeling tired and exausted.I am hoping to sleep good tonight.I need to after losing sleep the previous night.I hope to sleep good tonight.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick-up went smoothly and I also had a nice lunch.After lunch,I went to an auto scrap yard in my area and bought a slightly used driver side safety belt for my car.Though the safety belt has been working since Tuesday night,my mechanic still thinks I should get it replaced before it gives out again.Not only that,he also wants to make sure that I do not get a ticket from not wearing my belt because it is against the law not to.Hopefully,I can get it replaced tomorrow after work.
My session with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.We had our usual 1/2 hour talk and it was great.She is still impressed with my ability to hold my own while at the social club and on the job.I also have been saying to her that my support groups are still going well enough and that I have been attending them,which she said was good.
After that,I went shopping for my mom and bought a few things.I also bought myself an ice cream sandwich from Dairy Queen and waited a few minutes to soften up before eating it because it was frozen hard as a rock.I also managed to pop in a Salvation Army thrift shop just to look around.I didn't buy anything but I did enjoy browsing through the store and seeing if they had anything new.After that,I picked something up for my mom at one of her girlfriends before heading home.
After eating a light dinner,I managed to get a few things done.I made my bed and I also registered some bills at Where's George and despite some issues with my computer regarding the internet,I managed to get some more work done and I hope that I have reduced my work load for tomorrow regarding e-mails.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.After that,I am hoping to finally get my safety belt repaired.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly and I managed to get a lot done.I also had a pretty good lunch and after dropping the bags of clean laundry off,I headed for home.
After I got home,I did some more personal PC work.I finished off my personal e-mail work that I started while on break at work.I even called around to find a safety belt to replace the current one that I have that really doesn't want to work properly when it should.While it did work tonight while I was leaving and on my home from the meeting,I still feel that it should be replaced because I really can't take it when something doesn't really want to work when it should.I did find one and I will be getting it tomorrow after I am done with the laundry pick up.
The SSA support group meeting went great.It was wonderful to lift off some more emotional baggage and to hear what the other men in the group had to say.It was also wonderful to be heard and not be judged according to my past experiences with religion,including those negative experiences with my father.I did share a little bit of positive tonight about when I used to go to church when I was younger and help out in the nursery while my mom was in the upstairs chapel.That happens to be my only positive experience with religion.Right now,I am in the middle of the road and I am still deliberating as to what I am going to do churchwise.But whatever I do,I hope that I will finally start to have healthy relationships that will make me want to go to church every Sunday.As of now,I haven't made any decisions.
I wore my Walk-Fit arch supports today and I hardly felt any pain while walking in them.It was wonderful.I am going to be wearing these every day and I will get a couple more for my dress shoes.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I hope that the pick-up goes smoothly.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I hope that the session with her goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.Today was my day off and I spent the day looking around the town at places that I had not been in a long time but nothing really caught my eye.I also went to the local Salvation Army thrift shop and bought a few things even though I wasn't planning on it.After I left there,I went home to get ready for dinner and prepare to go to my anger management/conflict resolution support group meeting tonight.
After I ate,I did some more last minute e-mail checking and checked out a few Wikipedia pages before shutting down and going to my meeting.
The meeting actually went great tonight.The group has doubled in size since I started coming.But again,it was wonderful and I got a lot out of the meeting tonight.After it was over,I left for home.
Earlier this afternoon,I received some things that I was waiting on for a while.I received a couple of 45 r.p.m records that I had been waiting on and I also finally got my Walk-Fit arch supports that I ordered a week ago.I even tried them out and they are working.I know that it will take me several weeks to get used to them.But already,I am feeling nearly pain free and they are comfortable and after a while,I won't have to worry about foot pain.Again,they will take a little getting used to and when I do finally get used to them,I hopefully won't have to worry about pain anymore and I can start walking for exercise again.
The only real problem that I am having is that I am having issues with my car's driver side safety belt again.It has been jamming on me constantly since yesterday and I am really at my wits end at the moment.I did visit with my mechanic and talked to him about it and he said that he will see what he can do.But he also advised me to call around the auto scrap yards and ask if they have a drivers side safety belt for the car that I drive.I am hoping that at least one of them will have one.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I also have my SSA support group tomorrow night and I am hoping that this meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I finally manged to get a few important things done today.I went to an area Wal-Mart to get a few personal things that I needed for myself.With that done,I can now say that my month is finally complte.I only have to mail out one more payment to a creditor and I can relax.Before going to Wal-Mart,I managed to buy a couple slices of pizza for lunch to tie me over until dinner.I went home after leaving Wal-Mart.
When I got home,I had dinner and it was leftover ham with mashed potatoes.I am not complaining about it.It was good and I did have to eat.After that,I went upstairs to relax and listened to some music for a while.
Before typing this,I did hear from a friend of mine who I haven't heard from in a while.The reason why he hadn't called was because they shifted his work hours to night time and his fiancee had a baby boy,which is his first child.I congratulated him and we talked for a while until he had to leave for work.Still,it was wonderful to talk with him and also wonderful to know that he is okay.I am now relieved.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had an awesome night.I even tried out a new song and it was well received by the people.I felt good,Plus,as a surprise,another friend of mine,who once in a whiel comes to the place to hang out with me,also showed up and that even made the night more fun.I left there last night feeling pretty good.
As for the rest of the night,I might go out and have a beer or two with the guys.After that,I am going to go home and watch a movie.
Tomorrow is my day off from work.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution support group meeting tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ