Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.
I was home for most of the time.The day was pretty HAZY,HOT & HUMID to start with but later turned rainy.It was raining pretty hard when I went out to run an errand for myself.It was nothing much but I am glad to have accomplished this.Plus,my brother in law came over because he said that there was a call from my mom on his cell phone even though the call was made less than a week ago.He also took a look in my record room to check out a leak and he said that it wasn't a very terrible leak and that it probably could use some patching up.He said that he doesn't know when he'll be able to do it but he would when he had some time.He left after about 15 minutes.
After a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some more much needed personal PC work.I am now glad that this is accomplished and I can go on with the rest of the day.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that the night will go well.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
After I did the laundry pick-up,I went to the company picnic.It was a nice gathering and I enjoyed it.But after a while,I was feeling a thumping headache alongside a minor stomach ache and I felt that I should go home and get some rest in hopes that I would feel better.I bid everyone a farewell and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a bank to cash my paycheck and I headed straight home afterwards.I still wasn't feeling very good and I felt that a little rest would do me a world of good.
When I got home,I laid down for a while and slept off my headache and my stomach was also feeling better.I also watched soem bits and pieces of one of my movies to pass the time.Still,it was a pretty fairly decent day and I had a pretty good time.
After my nap,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a bit of stuff and I got it all done.I also had a light dinner because of all the food that I ate at the picnic and I didn't want to eat too much.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night at the place where I normally do that.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I am not as depressed as I have been in the last few days.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went by smoothly and I managed to get a lot done despite the negative circumstances.I also had a wonderful lunch and after everything was done,I simply bagged everything that was cleand and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading home.
On the way home,I dropped an important letter in the mail and I withdrew some money for my mom out of her checking account.I went straight home afterwards.
I relaxed for much of the day when I got home.I didn't go to the sex addicts group meeting tonight because I didn't feel like going and I was feeling a little too depressed over my masturbatory failings that had happened on Sunday and Wednesday.All of the emotional stress and strain regarding my mother's health and worrying about it was what led to my falls.But I do feel better about it now with my mom feeling better and I am hoping that she will start feeling better in the next few days.I will be calling the leader of the group to explain why I didn't come tonight and I am hoping that he will understand.
I will be getting a break from work tomorrow.I will be going to a company picnic tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that it will all go well.I will also be visiting the pool and having a little swim or two.Again,I am hoping that the picnic goes well.After that,it's the weekend and I will be singing up a storm on Saturday night.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better though I am still feeling depressed and I really don't know why.I had a pretty fair day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I managed to pick up a lot of it.I picked up six bags full.This really gives us a lot to do.I also had a very good lunch.After eating,I sorted out the laundry and dropped the empty bags off at the druc/alcohol rehab center so they could use them to put more dirty laundry in.I headed for home afterwards.
When I got home,I went to pick up some money that I had so I could go out to find some more collectable stuff.I did manage to find a few more good cassette tapes.After paying for them at the thrift store,I went home.
I relaxed for the whole time waiting for my mom to come home from the doctor's office.He gave her a few prescriptions and told her to rest and be careful.She told him that she would try and when she got home,I was glad to hear the news.
Before I ate,I left to pick up the medications that the doctor prescribed for her.I wanted her to have them in the house so she could start taking them right away.When I got home,I ate and ran just one more errand for my mom.
I went to a local supermarket to buy a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and a roll of paper towels.I also went to a local gas station to get some gas.I have a long drive ahead of me tomorrow and I wanted to make sure that I had a full tank.The way that gas prices are going,I really don't know what I am going to do.The fuel prices are what's contributing to my depression.I am hoping that the fuel prices start going down soon.I don't know how much more I am going to take.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the coming day.I am thinking of turning in early tonight.I have been losing sleep lately and I really can't afford to lose any more.I am hoping for a good night's rest.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
The work day went by smoothly and I did get a lot done.But when the day was over,I had to leave one job unfinished.One of the dryers was not performing up to snuff as I was waiting for some blankets that I had put into the dryer once they were done in the washer.It's bad enough that one of the dryers is out of order at the moment but when one is not drying like it should and it takes nearly half an hour to switch from wet to damp,you often wonder what's going wrong.But I couldn't stay for too long.I simply bagged what was clean and prepared to drop it off.But before I left,I managed to leave a note for the job coach explaining the reasons why I had to leave what I had to leave the way it was.I will be calling tomorrow to see if everything is cool.I would hate it that there is anything negative about this situation with the job coach.So,I am hoping and praying that everything will work out fine when I do indeed talk to her.
I also have not been feeling good.My mom being sick during the weekend and my sister and her husband having problems with two of her children turning against her.This has not been a very happy month for me.The financial crisis that my mom and I are currently in and the problems that are apparent between my sister and her family.It just hasn't been very happy.In fact,it has been rocky(though that's putting it mildly)and pretty stressful.My mom and I had to pay over half of a big water bill and we still have to set aside money for the property taxes.I am hoping that this crisis is over soon and that my sister can resolve the issues are going on in her life.This all has not been very good in trying to hold my anger because issues like this really get me hot.I am having a difficult time trying to hold my own because old issues are actually renewing themselves and making me mad and saying terrible things in anger to myself pretending that there are people there.Again,it hasn't been a very good month moneywise or emotionalwise.I am hoping that this month ends soon so I can forget this stuff.
Tonight,as a result of my mom's illness and me feeling way too down,I chose to stay home.I didn't go to any meeting tonight.I am just too way down to do anything.Tomorrow,my mom is going to see a doctor and I am hoping that she can get her tests done soon so she can get her medication prescriptions and finally get back to where she was before.I think that I might not be able to take much more of this.I am hoping that it's all over soon.
This afternoon,after I got home,I left again to go to K-Mart to get five quarts of motor oil because my engine was low on oil.You never know what might happen when your engine's oil level gets too low.After doing that,I had my mechanic checked out the level on the dipstick and he said that I was fine.I left for home after that.
After a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It was a lot of e-mails and I managed to get it all done in a short period of time.I feel like I have accomplished something.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well and that there is isn't a big mess to clean.I am also hoping to check out a new thrift shop within the area that I live and see if there is anything collectable.I am also going to be hoping for the best for my mom when she goes to the doctor tomorrow.I am hoping for a good day today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a satisfactory day today.
Today was my day off.I really did not do too much.I simply did my personal PC work and took it easy.I woke up very late today and I figured that I would get some personal stuff done before anything else.
Later this afternoon,my mom and I did the grocery shopping.While she was shopping,I went to visit with a friend for a bit because I had to let him know that he didn't have to do what I had asked to do.He simply said okay and I looked around the stuff that he had for sale in his store before going back to the store to pick my mom up.On the way,I stopped at an area Wendy's for a small chicken nuggets with ranch dressing and went to the store.
When I got there,my mom was just finishing up but when we went to check out,my mom forgot the grocery money that she needed so I had to go back home to get it so she could pay for the groceries.I also had to rush because the sky looked like that it was going to storm any minute.
When I got back to the store,my mom paid for the stuff and we bagged it all abd headed for home.
After a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.I am now done.I am now relaxing and anticipating the day ahead.One of the best things is that my mom is starting to feel better right now.But she does have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday and I am hoping that everything works out.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
I ran mostly errands for my mom today and I also tried to get out and do something for myself.But when I got to where I had to go,the place was closed.I headed for home to complete what I had to complete and headed home for dinner.
After I ate,I decided to catch up and finish some last minute computer work.It was nothing much.It was just some last minute e-mails.I even visited Wikipedia and checked out some pages on there about some movies that I had seen when I was a teenager.It was a pretty good day today and I managed to get some stuff done.
Last night before I left to entertain the crowd,I called my sister who lives locally and I told her about our mom's condition and that she wasn't feeling very well.I told her about her headache's and the dizzy spells that she was ghoing through.I was just concerned that something might happen and I didn't want to feel guilty about anything like that.She did call later while I was out and said that she was going to stay overnight to check up on our mom and try to help in any way she could.She stayed over the whole night and left very early this morning.
My night of entertaining the crowd last night went great and I had a great time.But at the some time,I was concerned about my mom.She was feeling sick all week with headaches and dizzy spells.At first,the spells were mild but they had progressed to moderate yesterday,which is why I called my sister.I felt that it would be in the best interests of my mom for her to be here to help and keep an eye on her.My mom did feel better today and that was good.But still,I was worried about her and I wanted her to be feeling like herself again.Last night,before I went to sleep,I asked the creator to help my mom get well and feel better.That is all I asked last night before going to sleep and I didn't ask for anything else.I felt that my mom feeling better was more important than anything else.After asking that,I turned out the light and went to sleep.
Apparently,all the emotional stress and strain that I went through over my mom sick and all the money problems led me to fall.I wound up masturbating this morning but after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt better and now,I am not feeling bad over it.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have to help my mom with the groceries tomorrow because we do need to get food in the house before we ran out.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ