Saturday, November 29, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke u in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I relaxed for much of the afternoon as I had nothing to do nor anyplace to go.
In the mid afternoon,I got dressed i casual clothes and I headed out to my workplace to see if I would be working anytime soon,but things are still slow.After leaving there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and after that,I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on DVD and after they were over,I did my personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle of the two.It's also more difficult for me because my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles make the SSA struggle more difficult for me.I am hoping that the big therapeutic step that I am making and taking will help me out and benefit me.I still feel that the unresolved issues that I have with anger,resentment,trauma and trust are hindering my healing from this terrible SSA and I feel that learning to let go and transcending will bring the much needed healing that I so desperately need and I can finally overcome SSA.I know that it won't happen overnight.I know that it will take some time,but I am willing to put some effort into that and I am hoping for positive results.I am also hoping to hear from the rehab center pretty soon as to when my first session will be.I am looking forward to it and I am hoping that this big step that I am taking will work out and deliver the positive results that I am hoping for.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me that the big step that I taking in my therapy will work out for the best for me and I can finally start to heal and overcome.Please pray that it will work out.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Friday, November 28, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went over to that friend's place to pick up some food that they were saving for me.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local hardware store to look around for a few things.After that,I was going to donate some stuff at the local Salvation Army thrift store,but a man that was leaving asked if he could take what I was donating off of my hands rather than me donating them and I said sure.I helped put them into his SUV and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I watched a little bit of TV and I also heated up the food that my friend gave me to eat.
After eating,I watched a few Thanksgiving specials on DVD and when they were over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start reporting on where I am at in them hopefully tomorrow.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Happy Thanksgiving to all my USA blog followers out there.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful holiday today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Since it was the holiday and dinner was at my nephew's,I decided to head over to my nephew's house and have some socializing with him and my other nephew. They were still working on dinner and I had some wonderful conversations with them and later on,much of the rest of the family came over and we had our dinner and it was great.After that,I decided to head over to another person's place,but we were in the midst of an intense snowfall and I called them to let them know that I wasn't able to make it,but,weather permitting,I could come over tomorrow instead.They said okay and after getting some gas as a local gas station.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed some music as well.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful holiday.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am going to hold off talking about my struggles.I had a wonderful holiday and I had no problems.I will get around to discussing where I am at in my struggles tomorrow night.All I ask is that you please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I really have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today.I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for another local agency to attend a couple of group meetings.
Both the meetings went well.After they were over,I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch.After that,I headed back to the agency because they were having a party,but when I got back there,I learned that it was canceled.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at couple of local supermarkets to pick up a gallon of milk and a loaf of bread respectively.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.It took me a while,but I got it done.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of DVD's and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,though it does so,I am still in my daily struggles.My struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA never get any easier.They get more difficult by the day.I never know what to expect next from these struggles of mine.Today,while at the local kitchen waiting in line for my meal,I was inexcusably insulted by the man who was in front of me.This shows me that there is ignorance everywhere.It's bad enough that ignorant people out there in the world call me and many other mentally challenged people freaks,outcasts,and many other mean nature styled names and labels,but to inexcusably insult someone and also tell them to stay away from medication has to be the lowest of the low in this area.After this happened,I was tempted to act out in a variety of ways apart from seeking other men to act out physically with them.When things like this happen,I at times don't know whether I am coming or going.I hear things in my head right now that I wish I wasn't hearing and it's making me feel at edge as well as having other varied negative thoughts.Fellow blog followers and readers,I desperately need your prayers right now.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I will be having Thanksgiving dinner at my nephew's house with my family and I will also be going to a friends place for a little get together later on after that.For the rest of the day,I might just relax and watch a movie or two when I get home.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming Holiday ahead.FJ

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in a hurry and I headed for another local agency to see about getting involved with them in regards to attending groups again and to also talk with the supervisor.
The meeting that I had with the supervisor went well.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I hit the shower to clean my body.After that,I got dressed again and I headed out to the rehab center in another area of the county to discuss about getting my therapy there that I feel that I so desperately need.
The meeting with the orientation boss went great.We talked for a while and after the meeting was over,she said that she would call me for my first meeting with the resident counselor there.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a used record store in the area to look around.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a classic TV episode into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I laid down to read for a while.When I was finished with that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I would like to talk about the big step that I made today.Today,I as I said above,I had an appointment with a rehab center within another area of the county that I live.I had a wonderful talk with the orientation supervisor and they told me that they would call me with my first appointment.I am now eagerly awaiting this.I am hoping that this will be a new beginning for me in regards to my healing.As I said,I have unresolved anger,resentment,trauma and trust issues that I would like to get resolved.I am hoping that this therapy that I am seeking will help me to let go,transcend and finally start to discover the much needed healing that I desperately need so I can finally start overcoming this terrible SSA and finally start becoming the man that I am meant to be in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.I really need to start discovering that and finally discover things that a man is meant to discover.I also want to embrace my gender identity and really start to live like the man that I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am making this big step and hoping to finally discover real healing to overcome SSA.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both your prayers and your positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am hoping that this big step that I am making will work out for me in the long run.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of starting groups at that other local agency,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, November 24, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that,I just relaxed and took it easy for most of the day as it was a very Windy day today.The winds were very high and they are still going strong.My hometown has a High Wind Warning in effect until 4:00am tomorrow morning.I simply stayed home for much of the day.I listened to some music and watched some TV.When evening was starting,I realized that I had to head out to get a few things that I needed.I went to the local Dollar Tree store to buy these things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have and having both BPD/Schizophrenia makes that particular struggle even more difficult for me.Tonight,I am going to ask for some prayers.Tomorrow,I have an appointment in the early afternoon to meet with a counselor in another area of the county at a psychiatric rehab center.I am doing this because I need to finally start to let go and transcend from the unresolved issues that are blocking me from discovering the healing that I truly need to start overcoming this terrible SSA and finally going on to becoming the man that I am meant to be.I still need to work on developing a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father by talking to him regularly rather than just praying at night before going to sleep.Since I will be going to that counselor tomorrow in the early afternoon,I need prayers by every one of you.I also still need positive verbal support.Please pray for me as I am going there.I need the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to help me say what is right and also answer any questions with the right and appropriate answers.Please pray for me tonight and also,please leave me some positive verbal support as I am making this step.Thanks in advance to all of your for your continued support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as I am also going to be praying over this as well.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with a supervisor at another local agency and the aforementioned meeting with the counselor in the next county,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I relaxed for much of the day as I had no place to go and nothing much to do.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I relaxed and I read for a while.After talking with a friend of mine long distance after he called,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am feeling immensely tired and can barely type anything without misspelling any words that I am typing.I will discuss my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA when I am able.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ