Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.I also got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some stuff.
I first went to the local shopping mall to pick up a job application.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also listened to some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was really struggling with temptation when I arose out of bed.I was really tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I pleaded for strength.I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were being thrown at me from all sides.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went on with the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my attention to what I had to do and that kept my mind off of anything sexual with men.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father never intended for his gift of sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world is currently using and abusing it right now.I have to keep that in mind constantly and each and every day.I must never forget that my Heavenly Father meant for sexuality to be used responsibly and not for the selfish self-serving purposes that the world is using it for.They are also using sexuality irresponsibly and that is why there are so many STD cases each and ever year and the rise of AIDS,genital warts and genital herpes are examples of sexuality being used irresponsibly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and don't forget keeping me in your prayers.Prayerful and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this struggle and they both help keep both my determination and motivation strong.It also reaffirms that I am not alone in this particular struggle as nobody,male or female,who struggles can't ever go it alone.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After having my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed over to my appointment with the priest.
The meeting with the priest went great.After our talk,I stopped and had a sandwich at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought in its proper place and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I took something for a headache that I had and I relaxed for a bit until the headache was gone.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but was feeling dizzy from the headache that I had.I chose to stay home and relax.I listened to a little bit of Christian music and simply prayed for relief.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Though it is,I must say that today,I had no troubles with temptation.I simply went forward with my day and I had no problems with any sexual images of men crossing my mind.The talk with the priest and just being out in the community really helped take my mind off of these things.It was really wonderful.While I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried or anxious about tomorrow and the days after that.It is just that I have to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can strike when least expected.I have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can bring on temptations anytime and knowing that we are imperfect,Satan and his minions can use human imperfection to bring out the worst in me and I have to keep on remembering that.I need to stay strong and stand tall.I need to keep going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I am not going to let them define who I am nor dictate to me how I will be and act.I also have to keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is NOT approved of by my Heavenly Father.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,says in it's own words that this type of thing is wrong,inappropriate,degrading,detestable,obscene and sinful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also still struggling and I need prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I also need both of these things to reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle because when I get no comments in the comments section,I feel alone.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayerful support for me.I want to heal and overcome Homosexuality/SSA and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.When that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local kitchen for lunch and when I was finished eating,I went to the public library to register some money that I withdrew at the Where's George website.After that,I headed to a local hair place to get my hair cut.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I checked my phone to see if there were any messages and there was one by my niece asking me to babysit her kids and to take her youngest one to her dance class.Before going over there,I did my personal PC work.After dropping her youngest daughter off at her dance class,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light meal and I headed over to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully well as expected.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I had no troubles with temptation.It was wonderful.Today,no images of men clouded my mind and I think what helped that I kept my mind on other things that I had to do.I just went through the day doing what I felt that I had to do and it was great.I was also out in the community today and that also helped.Plus,helping my niece out by babysitting her kids and taking her youngest kid to her dancing lesson also helped.I also had a wonderful evening at my usual Thursday evening study and that was great.Though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as temptations can happen when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day,although I had no problems today.I still need both of these things from my fellow man because I still need the reaffirmation that I am not alone in this struggle and I need support constantly.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to my session with the priest in the early afternoon and my Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to drop off two job applications.
Before I did that,I had lunch at a local kitchen.After lunch,I dropped the applications off at the places that I picked them up.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do my personal PC work.After that was done,I put on some wonderful Christian themed music while reading a Christian based book.I also did some banking on the telephone.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I headed over to the church to attend a Lenten dinner with my fellow worshipers,which was wonderful.I enjoyed the fellowship and some of the lessons that our pastor taught us.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement and also enjoyed a little bit more Christian themed music.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Why?It is because I endure unnatural sexual desires towards members of my own gender daily.Today was no exception.I was tempted upon arising out of bed to act out by fantasizing,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to the fantasies and lusting,but this time,I threw them on my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to indulge in these sinful sexual practices.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I prayed real hard for this strength.I didn't want to sin nor affirm the false Homosexual/Gay identity that I am determined to overcome and heal from.I prayed and prayed until the selfish self serving desire was gone.After praying,I felt better and much stronger.I went on with the rest of the day with no problems with temptations.I simply stayed busy for the rest of the day by going out and doing what I had to do,which took my mind off of anything sexual in a selfish self serving way,which is what the sexual activity connected with Homosexuality/SSA is.I am learning day in and day out that the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender fits no purpose in life nor has anything in my Heavenly Father's way when he created and gave humanity the gift of sexuality.The sexual activity between two members of the same gender is not only sinful,but it selfishly and self-servingly uses and abuses the bodies of men for inappropriate sexual connections that are very destructive and contradicts what my Heavenly Father set forth.It also does the same for women and their bodies as well.My Heavenly Father condemns any sexual activity outside his original plan for humanity and sexuality.My Heavenly Father's original plan for humanity is just as valid as the day he initially introduced that plan.His plan is described in the Holy Bible book of Genesis Chapter's One and Two.Right now,as a result of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever these temptations come at me,I am now feeling better and much stronger.My Heavenly Father,through his only begotten son Jesus Christ,gives me this strength in my human weakness and that strength is powerful than anything.Still,in spite of this,I am still in need of prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.I am also still in need of positive verbal encouragement to be left in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section each and every day to reaffirm me that I am not alone in my struggle.Please continue to pray and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I received a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach from the job placement agency and an appointment was set up for me to meet with her and the head of the agency this coming Monday.After the phone call,I jumped into the shower to clean up and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the job placement agency to pick up some business cards to attach to paper application after I fill them out alongside my resume.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was finished eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with that,I laid down to read for a while.After reading,I did the breakfast dishes and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also did a little bit more reading while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was again overwhelmed by temptation,but again,I threw the temptations on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as these temptations were really overwhelming and strong.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.It is a great feeling to have that sort of feeling after praying for strength.Throughout the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my mind on the stuff that I had to do and it took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I am now going to start to make it my resolve to pray for strength whenever temptations rear their ugly heads at me.I have to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I am also sending a message to Satan and his minions that I worship the sovereign Lord and creator of the universe and the world and that I follow Jesus Christ alongside following what my Heavenly Father's word,the Holy Bible,says in regards to sexuality and not the world's way,which is influenced by Satan and his minions.Though I have been doing this the last couple of days,I am still asking that my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers because I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need all the positive verbal encouragement that I can get alongside the prayerful support.They both help keep me going and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in the applications that I picked up Monday and the evening's Lenten dinner at my church,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to continue on with the rest of the day.
I first went to pick up a couple of job applications at a couple of places in my hometown.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I filled out the two job applications that I picked up and I stapled everything together that I needed to staple onto them.I also filled a few more applications online after that.I then relaxed and I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition,but this time,I went right to my Heavenly Father in Heaven and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations that were coming at me from all sides.They were pretty overwhelming,though not as overwhelming as yesterday,but still overwhelming nonetheless.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father to help me fight and resist these temptations and to help me reject and remove the immoral images that had come into my mind.I kept on praying until the desires disappeared.When I finished praying,I felt much stronger and could move on with the rest of the day,where I had no further problems with temptations coming at me.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is till tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their evil temptations.I have to keep telling Satan and his minions to hit the road whenever this happens.Plus,the more resistance that I put up,even with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,the more stronger and overwhelming the temptations return and at times,they can return with a vengeance.This is why I am again asking for my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support from my fellow blog followers and readers each and every day.I need them desperately because it affirms me that I am not alone.They also help keep me going.They also keep both my motivation and determination strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the hopefulness of turning in the applications that I picked up today,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was hounded by temptation left and right.Sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as fantasies and lusting to them.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.Yes,I was really overwhelmed with temptation today and the temptations were strong and overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I poured my soul out to him.I left nothing out as I prayed as I threw everything on my Heavenly Father as burdens and even ordered Satan and his minions to get out and to take his baggage with him.I kept up praying until the temptations were gone.When I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also,relieved of all the terrible temptations that were overwhelming me today.I also felt great as I went through the rest of the day not having any temptations to act out as the day went on.I am now going to work on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also have to tell my sexuality that I own it and not the other way around.I am still going to need the help and support of all my blog followers.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ