Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was hounded by temptation left and right.Sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as fantasies and lusting to them.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.Yes,I was really overwhelmed with temptation today and the temptations were strong and overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I poured my soul out to him.I left nothing out as I prayed as I threw everything on my Heavenly Father as burdens and even ordered Satan and his minions to get out and to take his baggage with him.I kept up praying until the temptations were gone.When I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also,relieved of all the terrible temptations that were overwhelming me today.I also felt great as I went through the rest of the day not having any temptations to act out as the day went on.I am now going to work on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also have to tell my sexuality that I own it and not the other way around.I am still going to need the help and support of all my blog followers.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ