Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions yet again.I was feeling a little at edge much of the day but I am feeling better now.I just dropped my mom off at my niece's house so she can babysit my grand niece's and grand nephew.My niece is working hard to support the four of them and that is admirable and worthy of respect in itself.But I am always hoping that she does not take in too much.Working hard is one thing but taking on too much is another.Ever since her husband left her,she has been working so hard that she hardly has enough time in the day anymore.That really makes me even angrier with her about to be ex-husband.He really had us all fooled.
Tonight,I am going to try to forget about all of that as I am going to be singing for my friends tonight.I have been practicing and I am hoping that it all goes well.Even though I rarely have an off night,I still continue to hope for the best.It still never hurts to hope.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres play the New York Rangers in New York and I hope that they can beat them.That loss to the Montreal Canadians was disappointing and a win would make me forget all about that loss.The only good thing out of it is that the Sabres still have the best record in the league.I know that they can't win them all and I have accepted that as a fact but still,I would LOVE to see them beat the Rangers.
Well,that is all until tomorrow.Thoughts are always welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The Sabres lost to the Montreal Canadians tonight by a score 2-1.They lost in overtime to them.It was disappointing but they still put a good effort in the game.They will be playing against the New York Rangers on Sunday night.I hope that they can beat them.Tonight was a disappointing loss but a win Sunday night would be good.Yes it would be.
Today,I was a little bored because,though I was enjoying my day off,there was really nothing to do today.I just stayed home after cashing my paycheck and picking up a few things for tomorrow night's dinner.Tonight,we had a small ham dinner and we watched some Christmas specials on video.It was a pretty fair day though it was a little boring as well.I did not leave the house today after I ran the errands that needed to be run.I am feeling a bit at edge because some of the old thought patterns are coming back to try to take me over.But I am trying to stay calm even though they are trying to get the better of me.I just simply have to let them flow and not give in to them.I have to show them that I am stronger than they are.I will not let these thoughts of the past overwhelm me nor will act out on them.I have come too far in my healing process of ridding myself of unwanted SSA to do that.I know the roots behind them but I won't give in to them.Again,I have to show them that I am stronger than they are even though it is a difficult thing to do.
I figure that all I need is a good nights sleep and I will be okay tomorrow morning.Tomorrow will be a new daya nd a new beginning.I will be singing tomorrow night for my friends and I am hoping that this all goes well.
Thoughts are always appreciated.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving everybody.I am checking in tonight feeling good.Today was a nice holiday.I did spend it with a few of family members and it was a little nice.After we spent an hour over at my niece's house,my mom and I came home and that is where I am this very moment.It was a pretty good day and again,I am glad for the time off that I have until Tuesday.I am hoping that my break goes well and that everything goes good.
Tomorrow night,the Sabres will be hosting the Montreal Canadians in Buffalo.Last night's win over the Leafs was truly sweet.I am hoping for yet another win tomorrow night over Montreal.The Sabres are off to their best start in many years and that is great.I am still hoping that one day,they do indeed bring home the Stanley Cup.That would be "IT!"It would also be a big thing for the history of sports in Buffalo.I have been hoping for this for years and I hope that it happens one of these days.A Stanley Cup champion team for Buffalo would be neat.Yes it would.
I am also hoping for a wonderful weekend of singing.I will be practicing hard for the night and I am hoping for another successful performance.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still keep hoping for success with the crowd because it never hurts to hope.
Thoughts are always appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling really good.I went to the support group at the church tonight and it was yet another wonderful meeting.I got a lot out of it tonight and it made me feel good.Yes it did.I feel better about myself that I have been in the last few years.Truly amazing how one group meeting can make a guy feel this way.Totally great.
Not only that,I am also feeling good for another reason.The Buffalo Sabres were victorious tonight over the Toronto Maple Leafs.The defeated them 7-4 in the HSBC arena tonight.With this win,the Sabres avenge themselves over the Maple Leafs when they lost two weeks ago to the Leafs also in the HSBC Arena by a score of 4-1.That loss was the most embarassing loss of the season for the Sabres.But tonight,the Sabres were huge winners.It actually made the fans forget that the Leafs beat them at home two weeks ago.Still,it was a great game and a great night night for me.The successful group meeting and the Sabres victorious tonight.What a night this has been.I am now at home feeling good as I am posting this.I am looking forward to the next meeting and I am hoping that it goes as well as the last two did.Again,I am glad that I found out about this through a friend of mine in Texas.I am going to e-mail him tonight and tell him about this.It was truly a wonderful night.Yes it was.Again,I am looking forward to the next meeting.
Today,I also received on DVD,two classic PBS TV series that I have not seen in years.They are Vegetable Soup and Inside Out.I used to watch these when I was a kid back in the mid 1970's on PBS.They were truly wonderful shows and seeing them after all these years was awesome and amazing.I bought them on Ebay from a guy in Oregon and I received them today.Again,truly awesome to see these wonderful educational programs after all these years.WOW!Totally the max.
Tomorrow will be the Thanksgiving holiday.Though I really do not feel like it,I will be going over to my niece's house because my niece won't take take NO for an answer.I was hoping to have it at home for a change but when my niece cried her eyes out over the phone to my mom,we reached a compromise and decided to spend at least an hour or even an hour and a half.But my mom and I will be having our real dinner at home later.But still,I am hoping that all goes well.
That was my night.Comments are always appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling really good.Today was a work day and that went well.Nothing negative to write about nor even share and that was good.Everything worked out the way I expected it to work out and that actually gave me a great feeling.Yes it did.It was just a great day.The weather might have been cold but that was okay.It was a very good day and that was good.
Last night,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious.They crushed the Tampa Bay Lighning by a score of 7-2.I was a little bit worried when the Lightning jumped out to a 2-0 lead but then the Sabres launched a counter attack to short curcuit the Lightning by a score of 7-2.It was a great game and the Sabres stopped what would have been their first losing streak.Tomorrow night,a rematch with the Toronto Maple Leafs in the HSBC Arena.Two weeks ago,the Sabres suffered an embarassing loss to the Leafs at home.Now,the Sabres have a chance of avenging that loss from two weeks ago.I hope that they can put another home win under their belt.That would be totally sweet.Yes it would.Another win would be sensational.
Tomorrow night,I will be attending the support group at the church and I am hoping that goes well.I feel that it will but still,it does not hurt to hope.Last week was great and I am hoping that this week will be great as well.I do want to recover from unwanted SSA because I am fed up with the rut that I am in because of it.I am determined to recover and I am not going to let nothing stop me.No sir.
That was my day.Comments are always appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling very good.Today was a busy day for me.I got a lot accomplished today and that gave me a good feeling.When you accomplish everything that you set to accomplish,it gives you the feeling of success.Today,we at the homefront finally got our shopping done for the month and that was terrific.Tonight,a couple of Charlie Brown specials are coming on and that is something that I look forward to every year.It has been a pretty good day so far and that makes me feel good.Yes,I got a lot accomplished and that is good.
Tonight,the Sabres are going against the Tampa Bay Lighning and so far,in the opening period,the Lightning are up 1-0.I am hoping that the Buffalo Sabres can score to tie the game and dominate.I hated seeing them lose to Ottawa on Saturday night even though I did have a great night of singing.But still,the loss disappointed me.
Tomorrow is yet another work day and I am hoping that the day goes well as expected.I know that I will have a lot of laundry to pick up and that will give me plenty to do.Again,I hope that the day goes well as expected.The best thing about this week is that I will have a few days off coming due to the Thanksgiving holiday weekend.It will be a full 5 day weekend for me.I will be getting an extended break.On Wednesday,I will be attending the support group meeting at the church and I am hoping for that to go good.Last week,it was wonderful.I am hoping for yet another wonderful experience.It was great to attend last week and feel like a part of the group.I am looking forward to that meeting.
That was my day.Comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was a good day today.I got a lot done today and that was great.I had to run an errand for my mom today and that went as well as expected.I also had a nice pizza lunch today and that was good.I also managed to find a rare Beatles movie on DVD today and that was Magical Mystery Tour.I even watched it when I got home today and it played beautifully.I can now preserve my VHS video of the movie.I am now at home and it is peaceful and very quiet.I even had a talk with a friend of mine from New Jersey and he's doing good.Again,it is great to have somebody to confide with.I am going to call my father tomorrow and see how he's doing.I hope that he is doing well.
Last night,my night of singing was yet another huge hit of the night.I received a lot of positive comments from the crowd and that made my night.It always makes me feel good to entertain the crowds week after week and have a very successful night everytime.Again,it always makes me feel good to do that and get a lot of nice and kind words from the crowds.The only disappointment is that the Buffalo Sabres were defeated by the Ottawa Senators last night by a score of 4-2.It was disappointing,yes.But tomorrow night,they are playing the Tampa Bay Lightning at home and I am hoping that they can bounce back after that disappointing loss.But I still had a great night last night and that made me feel good.Again,I hope that the Buffalo Sabres can win tomorrow night.
That was my day and my night last night.Comments are always appreciated.FJ