Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered and shaved real quickly.I then got dressed as I had a lot to do today.
I first had lunch at a local Arby's.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses.I then headed over to a local hair place to get my hair cut as it really needed to be cut.After that was done,I was about to head for my church for a charity pasta dinner,but noticed that my head was hurting me terribly.I headed straight home to take something for my headache.After that,I drove to the church for the charity pasta dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After I was finished eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.I then took a drive around for a while and then,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to prepare for my evening retirement.A very good and eventful day overall.
Again,all I ask is that all of you continue praying for me.I still need prayerful support from all of you.It has been a struggle for me.I have been losing sleep the last few nights.I have also been feeling some sadness as a result of blues' spells that have been hitting me.As a result of my loss of sleep,I have been extremely tired and have been drinking anything with caffeine to stay awake,so I won't fall asleep,especially where my job is concerned.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.If there is Holy Bible scripture that you can share,please do so.I need the help and support of all of you to help me keep going.It will also show me that I'm not alone in this struggle and that none of you have given up on me.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is church as usual and I also hope that the day goes well.FJ
Saturday, March 10, 2018
Friday, March 09, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for work.
The work day went well,in spite of a few unavoidable stress situations.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work.
Later on,I had a light evening meal and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.
Again,I'm asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling terribly at the moment and need some prayerful support.Yes,I do need a lot of prayerful support right now.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I also need to know that nobody has given up on me.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ
Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for work.
The work day went well,in spite of a few unavoidable stress situations.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work.
Later on,I had a light evening meal and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.
Again,I'm asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling terribly at the moment and need some prayerful support.Yes,I do need a lot of prayerful support right now.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I also need to know that nobody has given up on me.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ
Thursday, March 08, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I washed my face and shaved.I then later went out to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then got some gas at a local gas station and headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a quick shower,then changed into pajamas after that,and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
As usual,I am asking that you continue praying for me.I still need your prayerful support.Where I live,I feel all alone as I have no groups locally to support me or help me in regards to SSA.This is why I keep asking for y'all to continue praying for me.I still need prayers.I am still looking for at least any local spiritual support groups that use the Holy Bible in their approach.Yes,please pray that I find a group of that sort.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I washed my face and shaved.I then later went out to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then got some gas at a local gas station and headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a quick shower,then changed into pajamas after that,and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
As usual,I am asking that you continue praying for me.I still need your prayerful support.Where I live,I feel all alone as I have no groups locally to support me or help me in regards to SSA.This is why I keep asking for y'all to continue praying for me.I still need prayers.I am still looking for at least any local spiritual support groups that use the Holy Bible in their approach.Yes,please pray that I find a group of that sort.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ
Wednesday, March 07, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I got dressed real quick and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I went back out to buy a sandwich for dinner at a local 7-11.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich dinner and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both types of support.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I got dressed real quick and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I went back out to buy a sandwich for dinner at a local 7-11.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich dinner and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both types of support.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ
Tuesday, March 06, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and started doing my personal PC work.
I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Tonight,I need some prayerful support from y'all as I am still struggling terribly right now.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I need all of you to pray for me right now.I want to overcome this terrible SSA that I have and I need all the help and support that I can get.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal support.I need spiritual upbuilding and I also need encouraging words.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and started doing my personal PC work.
I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Tonight,I need some prayerful support from y'all as I am still struggling terribly right now.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I need all of you to pray for me right now.I want to overcome this terrible SSA that I have and I need all the help and support that I can get.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal support.I need spiritual upbuilding and I also need encouraging words.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ
Monday, March 05, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I got dressed and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while and even did a little bit of dishes that were in the sink.
I had a light evening meal and I did some more dishes.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Earlier today,and I still feel miserable about this,I gave into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I also masturbated to these images.Again,I feel terribly miserable because I did this terrible thing.I felt sad for most of the day as a result of my falling into sin by giving into this terrible temptation.As I have said,my struggles with SSA have been very overwhelming as of late.I can't seem to stop thinking about sexual images of men.I'm supposed to be a man.A man is not supposed to have these terrible and unnatural desires for other men.I don't want to have these unnatural desires that I have anymore.I want to feel like a man is supposed to feel.Right now,I don't feel like a man is supposed to feel.These desires that I have are unnatural and inappropriate.I also want to stop thinking about men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.I want to think of men as brothers,friends,buddies and want to bond with them in a healthy authentic way.It's the only way that men are supposed to think of other men.This has been really bringing me down.The thing is that I'm supposed to be a Christian,but I haven't been very Christian as of late.I have been acting like more of a person in the world rather than within the Lord's fold.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Why has this been happening to me?
How can I stop?
I only ask the above because I do want to stop.I want to stop thinking of men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.As I said before,but will reiterate;I feel like the worst sinner of all,which is how the Apostle Paul felt when he wrote a letter to a particular group of Christians in his day.I do feel like the Apostle Paul.
I have been struggling terribly as of late.I still need all of you to pray for me.I also need to know that none of you have given up on me,although I have given into terrible temptations as a result of this SSA struggle that I have.Please continue praying for me.I need prayers right now very much.I seriously need to be prayed for.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,such as spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave your positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ
Today,I woke up in the morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I got dressed and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while and even did a little bit of dishes that were in the sink.
I had a light evening meal and I did some more dishes.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.
Earlier today,and I still feel miserable about this,I gave into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I also masturbated to these images.Again,I feel terribly miserable because I did this terrible thing.I felt sad for most of the day as a result of my falling into sin by giving into this terrible temptation.As I have said,my struggles with SSA have been very overwhelming as of late.I can't seem to stop thinking about sexual images of men.I'm supposed to be a man.A man is not supposed to have these terrible and unnatural desires for other men.I don't want to have these unnatural desires that I have anymore.I want to feel like a man is supposed to feel.Right now,I don't feel like a man is supposed to feel.These desires that I have are unnatural and inappropriate.I also want to stop thinking about men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.I want to think of men as brothers,friends,buddies and want to bond with them in a healthy authentic way.It's the only way that men are supposed to think of other men.This has been really bringing me down.The thing is that I'm supposed to be a Christian,but I haven't been very Christian as of late.I have been acting like more of a person in the world rather than within the Lord's fold.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Why has this been happening to me?
How can I stop?
I only ask the above because I do want to stop.I want to stop thinking of men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.As I said before,but will reiterate;I feel like the worst sinner of all,which is how the Apostle Paul felt when he wrote a letter to a particular group of Christians in his day.I do feel like the Apostle Paul.
I have been struggling terribly as of late.I still need all of you to pray for me.I also need to know that none of you have given up on me,although I have given into terrible temptations as a result of this SSA struggle that I have.Please continue praying for me.I need prayers right now very much.I seriously need to be prayed for.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,such as spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave your positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ
Sunday, March 04, 2018
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service went well.After it was over,I stopped at McDonald's for a Shamrock shake and a Bacon McDouble.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out and had a few slices of pizza for lunch.I then headed for a local supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I cleaned the bathroom and showered not too long after that.I heated up my evening meal and after eating it,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.
My struggles with SSA are still overwhelming me.Please continue praying for me as I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the new work week and I hope that all goes well.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service went well.After it was over,I stopped at McDonald's for a Shamrock shake and a Bacon McDouble.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out and had a few slices of pizza for lunch.I then headed for a local supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I cleaned the bathroom and showered not too long after that.I heated up my evening meal and after eating it,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.
My struggles with SSA are still overwhelming me.Please continue praying for me as I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow is the start of the new work week and I hope that all goes well.FJ
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