Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I was hoping to go to my usual Thursday morning Holy Bible study group,but due to the Winter weather conditions in my hometown,I stayed home.I also had a pounding headache and I took something for it and I laid down for a while and didn't get back up until the pain was gone.I laid down for a little over an hour and I got back up.I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some toothpaste and light bulbs,but they were out of the light bulbs,so I bought the toothpaste and headed over to a local Dollar General store to get the light bulbs.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the toothpaste and the light bulbs away away.I also did some more personal PC work.After that,the pain in my head came back and I took something again for it and laid down for a little over an hour.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,but got an e-mail stating that it was canceled.I simply stayed home and took it easy for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have by fantasies,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to these unwholesome images of men that were clouding my mind.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I prayed for that strength and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.Since I had a headache,I laid down and rested for a while.Fellow blog followers,please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since my hometown will be under a Winter Weather Advisory,I am simply going to stay home and take it easy.I will only go out if I have to.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed for myself.After that,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I out what I had bought away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle for me.This morning,after I got out of bed and sat up for a while,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,there were sexual images of men clouding my mind while that happened.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I bared everything out as I prayed and when I was finished,I felt better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.Later on,the temptations did come back,but this time,I turned the temptation over to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I asked him to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist.I didn't want to fall again like I did earlier this morning when I first got out of bed.After praying,I felt better and stronger as I truly believed that I received what I asked my Heavenly Father for.Satan and his minions are really harping me now.They knew that I have given my SSA struggle over to my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me become the man that he intended me to be and the man that he wants me to be.The minions of Satan and Satan himself are not going to let up as they are going to continue harping me with every immoral image of men and any immoral images of anything connected with the lustful practices of the so called "Gay" Lifestyle.I now know that I must stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions will now try anything to get me to sin against my Heavenly Father and his perfect law.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please make sure that you leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately.Regarding comments,they can simply be upbuilding scriptures or phrases.They can also be words of advice to me on how I can continue in this fight and struggle against this terrible SSA condition.Don't be shy.Leave me anything positive,upbuilding and encouraging.Please continue in prayer for me also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of both my Thursday morning and evening Holy Bible study groups,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
Today,it was a really COLD day here in my hometown.I only had a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the post office to mail out an important bill that needed to be paid.After that,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and managed to score a few nice things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and I relaxed for a bit.I also did a little bit of reading while doing so.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against the BPD/Schizophrenia and the terrible SSA.Today,I was tempted minimally to act out by fantasies and lusting and also,for the first time in quite a while,I was tempted to look up pornography online while I was initially on the computer.When that latter temptation came around,I decided to simply close off the internet and get away from the computer for a while.I went out and I did what I had to do today out in the community and it was good that the important things that I had to do took my mind off of the sexual stuff and that was great.I simply stayed busy and it kept my mind clean of anything immoral.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please don't hesitate to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.I need to stay alive,well and best of all,alert and positive verbal encouragement and prayers do help a lot,especially when it comes to the difficult and terrible SSA struggle,which does nothing to enhance lives,but only to lead people to live a destructive and dangerous lifestyle that can lead to AIDS later on and that is something that I don't want to live at all.I am glad that I am free from enslavement to the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to SSA and the path of destruction and danger that many who are still enslaved to that sinful sexual lifestyle that only destroys lives rather than enhances them.Please continue praying and leaving some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with a Wind Chill Advisory that will be in effect until almost noon tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had a couple cups of coffee.I was still feeling a little bit drowsy trying to be fully awake.I did lay back down for about a half hour and when I got up again,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After I was done eating breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed and was hoping to get out to Best Buy in another area within the county that I live,but the cold snowy day made me change plans.I simply went out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing that I needed.After paying for that,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to a local pizzeria to pick up a few slices of pizza to tie me over until dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and enjoyed my slices of pizza.After eating them,I did some more personal PC work and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating dinner,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then made plans for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted during the early morning hours upon getting out of bed to indulge in fantasies and lusting with various sexual images of men and to manipulate my genitals to these various sexual images.I immediately threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these urges,which were very overwhelming.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I poured out my soul and asked for that strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I felt much stronger and the temptation was reduced to nil.I went on throughout the day with no worries.I stayed out in the community for much of the day and that took my mind off of those terrible and unclean images.It was wonderful to be out and about for only a short time in the community,though it was bitterly cold and there was snow falling and blowing everywhere around.Fellow blog followers,though I am trying to get my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ more involved in my struggles by continuing to pray for strength,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me as I am still going through a rough time.I also ask that y'all to please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and continuous positive verbal support day in and day out.It helps keep me going and also,it helps strengthen my self confidence and self esteem.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading in front of the congregation and it was also Holy Communion Day.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that I needed.After paying for everything,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I got out of my suit.I changed into my sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a mild headache and I took something for it.I laid down for a while and I woke up almost two hours later.I got out of bed and prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA by fantasies and lusting and to manipulate my genitals to these.I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer when these temptations came about.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.They were very difficult and I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father for this strength and I left nothing out.I told all to him and I asked for that strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I felt much stronger as the temptation was reduced to nil and I simply dozed off in bed so that my headache could go away.I went on for the rest of the day with no problems as I kept my mind on the tasks at hand throughout the house.Though I did escape unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I am again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive verbal encouragement.I need both of these things day in and day out.It also assures me that I am not alone in the SSA struggle and the positive verbal encouragement also helps keep my self confidence and self esteem strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ