Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed for myself.After that,I headed over to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I out what I had bought away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle for me.This morning,after I got out of bed and sat up for a while,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,there were sexual images of men clouding my mind while that happened.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I bared everything out as I prayed and when I was finished,I felt better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.Later on,the temptations did come back,but this time,I turned the temptation over to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I asked him to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist.I didn't want to fall again like I did earlier this morning when I first got out of bed.After praying,I felt better and stronger as I truly believed that I received what I asked my Heavenly Father for.Satan and his minions are really harping me now.They knew that I have given my SSA struggle over to my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me become the man that he intended me to be and the man that he wants me to be.The minions of Satan and Satan himself are not going to let up as they are going to continue harping me with every immoral image of men and any immoral images of anything connected with the lustful practices of the so called "Gay" Lifestyle.I now know that I must stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions will now try anything to get me to sin against my Heavenly Father and his perfect law.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please make sure that you leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately.Regarding comments,they can simply be upbuilding scriptures or phrases.They can also be words of advice to me on how I can continue in this fight and struggle against this terrible SSA condition.Don't be shy.Leave me anything positive,upbuilding and encouraging.Please continue in prayer for me also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of both my Thursday morning and evening Holy Bible study groups,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ