Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the day.
In the mid afternoon,I got dressed and I went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have of the two.Today,I was again tempted upon arising to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have and it was very intense.I was sitting in a chair when it happened and when it came on,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I let everything go on my Heavenly Father.I threw the entire temptation on him and asked for the strength to help me fight and resist.I didn't cease praying until the temptation was reduced to zero.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I continued to stay on guard and being watchful.I have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to get me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality and I have to stay close to my Heavenly Father so that won't happen.I have to continue going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asking for strength to help me fight and resist any urges that Satan and his minions can throw at me.Nothing makes them happier than someone throwing in the towel and surrendering to anything sinful,including sexual sin,including,but not limited to,the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender and also,sexual fantasies and lusting after other people.I have to show them that I worship the true Lord and creator and that his son Jesus Christ is my Lord and savior.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please support me verbally by leaving some positive and upbuilding support in the comments section.I will also continue to work on my resolve to make prayer a daily habit.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Friday, January 23, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed at home for much of the day.
I laid down for a little while as I had a headache by midday.I took something for it and I laid down.I also listened to some soothing music while doing so.When I was feeling better,I got dressed and proceeded to go out.
I went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two.Today,I was tempted three times to act out on the unnatural desires that I have by fantasizing and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitalia to sexual images of men.The first two occurrences happened consecutively as I got up out of bed and sat down in a chair in my living room.On both of these occurrences,I reached out to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength and I kept up praying until the temptations were reduced to zero.The third occurrence happened at midday when I was laying down resting after taking something for my headache.While laying down,I prayed hard to my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I didn't cease praying until the overwhelming urges were reduced to zero.I continued laying down until the headache was gone and I had no problems.I must say that Satan and his minions are going to be giving me a hard time.Since I threw my obsession with men onto my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me break free from it,alongside helping me to overcome this terrible obsession,they have been trying to tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father by tempting me to fantasize and lust after other men.I have to show them that I am stronger than these unnatural desires that I have.I also have to show them that I worship the true God,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things and that Jesus Christ is the Lord and savior of my life and also,my strength.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.They want me to throw in the towel and live my life as an active Homosexual man.They want me to abandon all hope and live my life in sin,debauchery and enslavement to the sinful sexual activity that goes with the territory of the so called "Homosexual/Gay" lifestyle.I can't let them do that to me nor can I let them get their way.I need to draw closer and closer to my Heavenly Father and rely on him more than anything.I realized two days ago that I haven't been relying on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ in my struggles with SSA.I also realized that not relying on them in my SSA struggles is sinful in and of itself.Again,I need to make it my resolve to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and not on my own imperfect self.I need to continue drawing closer to them and keep up in prayer to them constantly.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I still need your prayerful support.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,helps keep me going.It also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed at home for much of the day.
I laid down for a little while as I had a headache by midday.I took something for it and I laid down.I also listened to some soothing music while doing so.When I was feeling better,I got dressed and proceeded to go out.
I went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two.Today,I was tempted three times to act out on the unnatural desires that I have by fantasizing and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitalia to sexual images of men.The first two occurrences happened consecutively as I got up out of bed and sat down in a chair in my living room.On both of these occurrences,I reached out to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength and I kept up praying until the temptations were reduced to zero.The third occurrence happened at midday when I was laying down resting after taking something for my headache.While laying down,I prayed hard to my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I didn't cease praying until the overwhelming urges were reduced to zero.I continued laying down until the headache was gone and I had no problems.I must say that Satan and his minions are going to be giving me a hard time.Since I threw my obsession with men onto my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me break free from it,alongside helping me to overcome this terrible obsession,they have been trying to tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father by tempting me to fantasize and lust after other men.I have to show them that I am stronger than these unnatural desires that I have.I also have to show them that I worship the true God,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things and that Jesus Christ is the Lord and savior of my life and also,my strength.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.They want me to throw in the towel and live my life as an active Homosexual man.They want me to abandon all hope and live my life in sin,debauchery and enslavement to the sinful sexual activity that goes with the territory of the so called "Homosexual/Gay" lifestyle.I can't let them do that to me nor can I let them get their way.I need to draw closer and closer to my Heavenly Father and rely on him more than anything.I realized two days ago that I haven't been relying on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ in my struggles with SSA.I also realized that not relying on them in my SSA struggles is sinful in and of itself.Again,I need to make it my resolve to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and not on my own imperfect self.I need to continue drawing closer to them and keep up in prayer to them constantly.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I still need your prayerful support.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,helps keep me going.It also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, January 22, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and later on in the early afternoon,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the local Big Lots to buy a few needed things.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses and when I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I headed over to a local church for a free dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After I had my fill,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also laid down and read for a while.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as well.Today,I went immediately to my Heavenly Father in prayer when these temptations came around.I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me fight and resist these temptations.I prayed hard and didn't cease praying until the temptations were reduced to zero.When I was finished,I felt better and also,much stronger as I knew and truly believed that I received from my Heavenly Father what I asked for.Though I escaped this with my Heavenly Father's and his son Christ Jesus' help,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.I have to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and pray for strength whenever these terrible temptations come around.I have to work on making this my daily resolve.I want to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.I have to show my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ that I truly mean that.I have to ask for this strength daily and also,I have to make daily prayer a habit even when I am not being tempted.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me that I overcome this terrible SSA.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still working on overcoming the obsession that I have with men and though I will continue to work on making prayer a daily habit of mine,I still need your prayerful support and also,your positive verbal support to help keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continue support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and later on in the early afternoon,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the local Big Lots to buy a few needed things.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses and when I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I headed over to a local church for a free dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After I had my fill,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also laid down and read for a while.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as well.Today,I went immediately to my Heavenly Father in prayer when these temptations came around.I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to help me fight and resist these temptations.I prayed hard and didn't cease praying until the temptations were reduced to zero.When I was finished,I felt better and also,much stronger as I knew and truly believed that I received from my Heavenly Father what I asked for.Though I escaped this with my Heavenly Father's and his son Christ Jesus' help,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.I have to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and pray for strength whenever these terrible temptations come around.I have to work on making this my daily resolve.I want to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.I have to show my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ that I truly mean that.I have to ask for this strength daily and also,I have to make daily prayer a habit even when I am not being tempted.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me that I overcome this terrible SSA.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still working on overcoming the obsession that I have with men and though I will continue to work on making prayer a daily habit of mine,I still need your prayerful support and also,your positive verbal support to help keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continue support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when that was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I went to a couple of local stores,one a local closeout store and the other a local supermarket.I bought a few things that I needed and I also turned in some empty bottles and cans that were in the back seat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal as it was getting near that time.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,on my road to recovery in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I fell into sin two consecutive times today and they were both for fantasizing and lusting after other men and also,for manipulating my genitals to these unhealthy and unwholesome images.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.However,I also had other things to say to my Heavenly Father aside from asking for forgiveness.I also talked to my Heavenly Father about the obsession that I have with men.This is one of the things that has been holding me back from the real healing that I so desperately need and from overcoming this terrible SSA.I prayed and I prayed to my Heavenly Father asking him to help me break free from this terrible obsession that I have and also,help in overcoming this obsession.I told him that I didn't want to be obsessed forever as I knew that obsession leads to nowhere.Plus,I even said to my Heavenly Father that obsessions can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble.I don't want to get into serious trouble.I want to be whole and also,I want to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.I asked for him to forgive me for the obsessing and to help me break free from this terrible obsession.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers,Please pray that I break from this terrible obsession that I have with men and to also help me in overcoming this obsession.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support daily and often,alongside your prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and when that was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I went to a couple of local stores,one a local closeout store and the other a local supermarket.I bought a few things that I needed and I also turned in some empty bottles and cans that were in the back seat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal as it was getting near that time.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,on my road to recovery in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I fell into sin two consecutive times today and they were both for fantasizing and lusting after other men and also,for manipulating my genitals to these unhealthy and unwholesome images.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.However,I also had other things to say to my Heavenly Father aside from asking for forgiveness.I also talked to my Heavenly Father about the obsession that I have with men.This is one of the things that has been holding me back from the real healing that I so desperately need and from overcoming this terrible SSA.I prayed and I prayed to my Heavenly Father asking him to help me break free from this terrible obsession that I have and also,help in overcoming this obsession.I told him that I didn't want to be obsessed forever as I knew that obsession leads to nowhere.Plus,I even said to my Heavenly Father that obsessions can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble.I don't want to get into serious trouble.I want to be whole and also,I want to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.I asked for him to forgive me for the obsessing and to help me break free from this terrible obsession.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers,Please pray that I break from this terrible obsession that I have with men and to also help me in overcoming this obsession.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support daily and often,alongside your prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to my appointment with the resident psychiatrist at the rehab center in another area of the county.
The session with the resident psychiatrist went well.After it was over,I left the office and I had a lunch at a nearby Chinese restaurant.After that,I headed over to Best Buy to pay a bill.After that,I did some shopping at a Dollar Tree store within that area of the county.I also did some shopping at a couple more Dollar Tree's when I arrived in my hometown.Last but not least,I did some last minute shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and though I had to reduce some of the load in my e-mail box,I did my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.At this moment,I can't really talk where I am at in regards to my struggles.I am physically okay,but I am not too okay psychologically.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Yes,I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to my appointment with the resident psychiatrist at the rehab center in another area of the county.
The session with the resident psychiatrist went well.After it was over,I left the office and I had a lunch at a nearby Chinese restaurant.After that,I headed over to Best Buy to pay a bill.After that,I did some shopping at a Dollar Tree store within that area of the county.I also did some shopping at a couple more Dollar Tree's when I arrived in my hometown.Last but not least,I did some last minute shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and though I had to reduce some of the load in my e-mail box,I did my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.At this moment,I can't really talk where I am at in regards to my struggles.I am physically okay,but I am not too okay psychologically.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Yes,I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, January 19, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital for the last time.We talked for a few minutes and after she gave me a month on my prescription,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a bill that I got in change after having a light lunch at the hospital cafeteria.After that,I headed back out to pick up my turntable where I had it fixed and after that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,when I came back into my hometown,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I dropped my prescription off at the drug store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I hooked my turntable back up to my stereo receiver and after that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.When that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work when I was finished doing that.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this and I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked fro forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed without leaving anything out.I begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy and pleaded with him to forgive me.When I was finished,I felt better and also,much relieved knowing that I was truly forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need your prayers and also,your positive verbal support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your prayers.Please pray that I break free from this obsession that I have.I also would appreciate some helpful advice on how I can break free from this obsession that I have with men.I want to break free and I want to heal and also,overcome this terrible SSA.I have to break free from this obsession that I have with men.Obsession leads to nowhere and can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble down the road.I want to break free,but I don't know how.Please pray for me and also,please leave me anything helpful in the comments section that can be a benefit to me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with the psychiatrist at the rehab center within another area of the county,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital for the last time.We talked for a few minutes and after she gave me a month on my prescription,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a bill that I got in change after having a light lunch at the hospital cafeteria.After that,I headed back out to pick up my turntable where I had it fixed and after that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,when I came back into my hometown,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I dropped my prescription off at the drug store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I hooked my turntable back up to my stereo receiver and after that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.When that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work when I was finished doing that.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this and I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked fro forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed without leaving anything out.I begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy and pleaded with him to forgive me.When I was finished,I felt better and also,much relieved knowing that I was truly forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need your prayers and also,your positive verbal support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your prayers.Please pray that I break free from this obsession that I have.I also would appreciate some helpful advice on how I can break free from this obsession that I have with men.I want to break free and I want to heal and also,overcome this terrible SSA.I have to break free from this obsession that I have with men.Obsession leads to nowhere and can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble down the road.I want to break free,but I don't know how.Please pray for me and also,please leave me anything helpful in the comments section that can be a benefit to me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with the psychiatrist at the rehab center within another area of the county,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, January 18, 2015
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day after that was done.Later on,I started to clean up around little by little and even gotten around to sorting some of my vinyl out that I have near my stereo in the living room.I also did my breakfast and lunch dishes and after that,I reheated up some leftovers and that was my evening meal.After that,I watched another classic episode of a TV series that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Still,I am struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was struggling as I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals in the mid afternoon to sexual images of men clouding my mind and that led to giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop before it went too far and feeling ashamed because I gave in.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I let everything go and I pleaded for him to be merciful and to forgive me for sinning.After I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.I want to break free from this obsession that I have and I haven't been able to break free from that.If anyone can give me some helpful advice on how I can break free,please share it.I really need your support right now.Please pray for me that I do break free from this obsession that I have and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially some helpful advice on how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have with men.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day after that was done.Later on,I started to clean up around little by little and even gotten around to sorting some of my vinyl out that I have near my stereo in the living room.I also did my breakfast and lunch dishes and after that,I reheated up some leftovers and that was my evening meal.After that,I watched another classic episode of a TV series that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Still,I am struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was struggling as I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals in the mid afternoon to sexual images of men clouding my mind and that led to giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop before it went too far and feeling ashamed because I gave in.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I let everything go and I pleaded for him to be merciful and to forgive me for sinning.After I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.I want to break free from this obsession that I have and I haven't been able to break free from that.If anyone can give me some helpful advice on how I can break free,please share it.I really need your support right now.Please pray for me that I do break free from this obsession that I have and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially some helpful advice on how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have with men.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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