Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital for the last time.We talked for a few minutes and after she gave me a month on my prescription,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a bill that I got in change after having a light lunch at the hospital cafeteria.After that,I headed back out to pick up my turntable where I had it fixed and after that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,when I came back into my hometown,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I dropped my prescription off at the drug store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I hooked my turntable back up to my stereo receiver and after that,I did some more personal PC work while listening to some music.When that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work when I was finished doing that.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this and I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked fro forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed without leaving anything out.I begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy and pleaded with him to forgive me.When I was finished,I felt better and also,much relieved knowing that I was truly forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need your prayers and also,your positive verbal support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your prayers.Please pray that I break free from this obsession that I have.I also would appreciate some helpful advice on how I can break free from this obsession that I have with men.I want to break free and I want to heal and also,overcome this terrible SSA.I have to break free from this obsession that I have with men.Obsession leads to nowhere and can only get an obsessed person into serious trouble down the road.I want to break free,but I don't know how.Please pray for me and also,please leave me anything helpful in the comments section that can be a benefit to me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with the psychiatrist at the rehab center within another area of the county,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ