Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much because there was not really an awful lot to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom today.I also paid a visit with a friend for a few minutes.He and his live in girlfriend are doing okay.I only spent a few minutes with them because when I got there,they were on their way out to go somewhere.I left to finish the errand and I went home.
I have had dinner and I am now relaxing.Before I ate,I bathed and shaved because I am going out later tonight.I want to make sure that I am clean and neat.It pays to be neat anyway,especially if you're going to do what I am going to do tonight.I am going to be singing up a storm tonight and I am hoping that the night goes by well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But again,I am hoping that the night goes well for me.
As stated above,I am feeling better tonight.After that awful relapse last night,I can now put it behind me.I am still taking life one day at a time and if I can get through one day without a relapse or losing it,Great.There is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Again,I am going to take life one day at a time.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have not made plans for tomorrow.I think that I will just take it easy.I do have to prepare for the coming week ahead.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.I worked another full Friday today.I did some cleaning around the place this morning and in the afternoon,I did my normal laundry job.While the day went by smoothly,I did have to contend with the scorching heat of summer while I was driving home today.It rained for much of the morning but it was HAZY,HOT & HUMID for the rest of the day.I was glad to get home after cashing my paycheck.
After I rested for a few minutes,I ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up only a few small things at a local supermarket.When I got home,we ate a light dinner.After that,I concentrated on my personal computer work and did a virus scan.The scan came back positive.There were no viruses or spyware.I feel good now that I know my computer is clean,for now.
The only really bad thing to happen is that I relapsed for the second consecutive time this week.This time,I looked at some disgusting,degrading and disturbing pornographic written stories and I masturbated while reading them.I did feel bad for a while afterwards but after askingthe creator to forgive me for what I did,I felt better.I now have to work extra hard in resisting the temptation to look at something like that again.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I will be singing up a storm tomorrow when I go out to entertain.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty hard day today.The work shift went by smoothly but the heat and humidity on the way home made it feel harder.I drove home after picking up a couple of things at the supermarket for dinner tonight.
When I got home,I was hoping for a nice quiet afternoon.But instead,I came home to an unexpected happening.My grand nieces and grand nephew were over.I really was not in the mood for that.I was tired and a little edgy and technically,I was not in the mood.I stayed in my room upstairs at home while they were there.I tried to take a nap but the noise from them made it difficult if not impossible for me to do that.I was lucky to finish my personal computer work today despite all of that.When I finished,the noise became unbearable that I decided to get out of the house for a while to help relieve me of some of the stress of all that.It did help.I managed to buy a few more record albums at a Salvation Army thrift shopp in my area and it made me forget about what was at home.After paying for them,I headed for home.It did rain while I was driving home but it was not that bad.It was a light rain shower but again,I did forget about what was going on at home and it did make me feel a little bit better.
When I got home,I had a nice quiet dinner with no noise and I took it easy for the rest of the day after that.It was great to finally have at least a little bit of quiet.After the hard work day and coming home to the menagerie there,it was great to finally have it quiet for a little bit.
Tomorrow is my first full work day in quite a while.I will be taking over for a cleaner who will not be working tomorrow morning due to illness.I will be doing my usual laundry in the afternoon afterwards.After that,it will be back to normal for me,schedule wise.I am hoping that the day goes by well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a mixed bag of a day today.This morning,while trying to stay awake so I could do my Wednesday pick-up,I relapsed.The old sexual images of men crept back into my mind because of my emotional state at that moment,which was on the verge of anger,I masturbated.Yes I did.I gave into temptation by doing just that.I did feel miserable for a awhile afterwards even after I asked the creator in Heaven to forgive me.I was seroiusly depressed afterwards even though I truly believed that I was forgiven for falling.The only really good things to happen was that the pick up went smoothly and my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor also went great.Still,despite these good things,I still felt depressed over relapsing and it really was a crushing weight on me for most of the day.Before I left the house for my support group meeting at the church,I did take two St.John's Wort capsules to help ease my depression and they gradually worked.I drove to the meeting afterwards.
The meeting actually went great.I shared my relapse with them and they did not judge me nor labeled me with any names or negative labels.It is like that they understood what I was going through and that it was okay.Just arriving there and being there as an active participant sharing what went on today,including my relapse really made me feel better.I feel great now knowing that I am forgiven and I can simply leave that at the side of the road(so to speak)and move on.Again,I am feeling better and that is good.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty smooth work day today.The best thing about it is that I did not have to pick up after anybody.It was all bagged and ready.I simply packed them into my car and away I went to the worksite.
When I arrived there,I sorted everything out and started two loads immediately.Afterwards,I went over to the social club next door to socialize a little.They were showing a move entitled Pearl,which was based on the attack on Pearl Harbor by the Japanese in 1941 during WWII.I did not watch the whole movie but parts of it.I still had to concentrate on my job,which I did.After lunch,I went back down into the basement to finish my job.After that,I bagged some clean laundry and dropped it off at the center.I also had to do a couple of things for my mom before coming home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed a bit and I also got a couple of packages that I was expecting to come.The first was a 6 record album of Frank Sinatra songs and a book called the Big Blue Marble atlas,which was inspired by the TV show of the same name that I used to watch when I was a kid.Overall,a pretty good day.
I even had a talk with a friend of mine today and he and his wife are doing great with the exception of a tragedy that had happened in his family.He lost a close nephew of his at a very young age.He was not in an upbeat mood because of this and he really did not want to talk too much.Aside from that,they are both in good health and they are doing good.I am glad about that but at the same time,I was sad that he lost his nephew.I hate ity when people die too young.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I have my weekly support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that both go well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.After I woke up and ate,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.After the mail came,I went to the laundromat to was some T-shirts of mine that needed to be washed.These were not my undershirts but casual shirts that I wear all the time.I had a pretty good day there.The time went by fast.The only negative thing to happen was that a couple of Black ladies took over the table that I was sitting at.I simply found another table to sit at and simply let the ladies be.There was no need to argue with them.Plus,I wasn't in the mood to argue,anyway.Before arriving at the laundromat,I stopped at a thrift shop and found some more great records and tapes to add to my ever growing collection of each of these.Overall,not to eventful of a day.
The weather today was a mixed bag.It started out with some sun and then got cloudy.There was also a small dripple of rain.Fortunately,I was heading for home when that little bit of rain was falling.I only went straight home just in case that it would storm because it looked like that it might.That so-called storm did not happen but the day is not over yet.It could still happen.
I am at home at the moment.I am relaxing and I am getting ready for the work day tomorrow.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
Last night,I did stop at the place where I sing at and had a nice friendly drink with a couple of guys.I had a good time talking with them.It was also great to simply relax and just be one of the guys with them.I am looking forward to this the next time.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I have a pretty good day today.The weather was nice and sunny.The best of that is there was no humidity.It was a mild sunny day.I took a little drive to another area of New York state today and it was great.I got to talk to a few people and that was a pretty good thing.I even stopped by a park today and took a walk around the place to loosen up some energy.It was great to get out and enjoy the nice weather today.I felt pretty good and the air was right.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast.There were quite a few people there last night and I even had a couple of guys at a table singing with me the song Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis Presley.It was fun.The audience really enjoyed my selections and that was great.I had a blast entertaining them and that made me feel good.I can hardly wait to do it again next Saturday night and I am hoping that it is as super as it was last night.
I even had a talk with a friend from New Jersey and that was a great conversation.He said that he was doing good and that was great.It makes me feel good to know that a friend is doing good.I am looking forward to talking with him again.
Tomorrow is a day off.I have not made any plans for tomorrow but I do know that whatever I do.I know that it will be something good.
That was my day today and my night last night as well as my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ