Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and I headed out to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and I headed straight home.When I got home,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I put my clothes back on and I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I headed out again to pick up some more cold and cough medicine.I first turned in some cans and bottles at a local supermarket and when I was finished,I first headed to the local Super Wal-Mart,but couldn't find anything that I could use.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store and I picked up four bottles of mucus relief DM pills.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby supermarket and pick up a bottle of cough syrup.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cold remedy's that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.While it was cooking,I quickly did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work afterwards.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am still battling a terrible cold and I still have a cough that won't leave.However,I have chosen to share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA today.Today,with the stress of the job search and trying to get rid of this darned cold,I wound up giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind by manipulating my genitals to these images and when I reached orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable after this and when I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed to him and revealed everything that I did to him and I left nothing out.I prayed real hard pleading for his forgiveness and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.When I finished praying,I felt much better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal support right now.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue your prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I did my personal PC work after that and I also watched a little bit of TV.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.It was raining for much of the day today and I just stayed home to relax and take it easy.
After eating,I decided to head out to attend my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but ran into a major setback when my driver's side rear wheel went flat again and my former brother in-law came out to pump it again.He advised to head for home and I did.On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up some nighttime cough medicine that also helps me with my nasal passages.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will update everyone here on my struggles when I am up to it.Right now,I am still working on getting rid of these terrible cold symptoms as they keep recurring no matter what I take for them,especially the coughing.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual this coming Sunday morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I also did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I watched a little TV.I also laid down and relaxed as I am still battling cold symptoms from the weekend.I am feeling a little bit better now,but I am still fighting the symptoms as I am still coughing,though not as much as before and I still have a dry scratchy throat.I am hoping to feel a lot better when the weekend hits.I don't want to have any cold symptoms when my interview comes up on Tuesday afternoon.
Earlier this evening,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk and some frozen Chinese for dinner.I also managed to get a couple of egg rolls as well.When I got home,I heated up the frozen dinner that I bought and I ate it alongside the egg rolls.After I ate everything,I headed over to my Thursday night Holy Bible study group.
The group meeting went as wonderfully as expected,After some wonderful social time,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and I prepared my coffee for the next morning.I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Since I am still trying to get over a cold,I will share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA when I am feeling better.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing really planned as it is going to be raining very heavily tomorrow until the evening.If the weather improves by tomorrow evening,I will head to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the emergency ward at the local hospital as a result of my cold symptoms not going away despite the treatments that I was giving it.
After they checked me out,they gave me a prescription and I headed over to a nearby drug store to get it filled and after it was filled,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took a couple of pills to start with and I will take another before going to bed.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Since I am still feeling under the weather as a result of the cold symptoms that I am trying to get rid of,I will share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA when I am feeling a lot better.
As for tomorrow,with a "Severe Thunderstorm Warning" in effect for my region until tomorrow evening,I really don't know what I will do.I may simply have to stay home and catch up on some much needed work that I have been putting off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to fill out the job applications that I picked up and when we were finished,I dropped them off at the respective places that I picked them up at.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores and I also shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also laid down for a while as I am still battling cold symptoms,such as sniffles,sneezing,coughing and throat irritation.I have been taking natural herbal medications by drinking hot tea,tablets that are supposed to relieve mucus in the lungs,taking Airborne cold remedy and also sucking on throat and cough lozenges and throat spray.I am feeling a little bit better,but if the symptoms don't subside by tomorrow morning,I am going to have to go to the emergency ward to see what can be done.I can't have a cold of any sort while I am looking for work.I also can't have this when my interview comes up next week.I will continue to take the medication and hope for the best and if it doesn't get better by tomorrow,I'll go to the emergency ward at the local hospital.The stress of the job search and the ever changing weather patterns is really taking a toll on me.I have been feeling really stressed and the atmosphere can't seem to make up it's mind whether it wants to be nice and sunny or rainy and cool.I am hoping that the really nice weather starts to stay soon.I can't take any more of this constantly changing weather patterns.After laying down for a while,I went back out to get something light for dinner as I wasn't really too hungry.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will start talking about my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA the minute that I get over this terrible cold.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned due to the rainy weather tomorrow.I am just going to stay home and take it easy and continue to take care of my cold.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today I woke up in the late morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast early and after that,I signed onto all my e-mail boxes to check and reduce some of the stuff that I had.After that,which took nearly half an hour,I showered quickly to clean up.After my shower,I got dressed and returned the phone call that my job placement counselor/coach made earlier while I was still in bed,but I was still tired and sleepy to answer.After that,I quickly did my personal work and I headed out to do a few things that needed to be done.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I saw it was starting to rain.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems with temptations.I went through the whole day and I had no temptations to do anything wrong in a sexual way with men.I had no temptations to fantasize and lust after other men.I also had nothing of that sort to tempt me to manipulate my genitals either.Though I was home much of the day,I didn't have no temptations at all today.I simply did what I had to do at home and that kept my mind off of anything sexual in a fantasy and lustful way.These are my two main problems in my struggle and I am still working on them.I know one day that I will successfully overcome these things.I also know that I will successfully overcome the temptation to manipulate my genitals one of these days.When?I don't know.But I will one of these days.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike ant time when least expected.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to sin by acting out on the unnatural desires that I have in the ways that they try to tempt me to,such as by fantasies and lusting,as well as to manipulate my genitals to any sexual images of men they use to cloud my mind,which causes the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of your for you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some cough drops and some herbal cold remedy.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away,got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also got a phone call from my niece and she told me that we would be having dinner at a local Japanese restaurant and after hanging up,I concluded my personal PC work and got dressed to head for the restaurant and for dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.It was prepared right in front of us on a grill.After I was finished eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got back into my sweatpants and I watched a classic episode from a TV show that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.I stayed busy with doing what I had to do.I went to church and later on,went to have dinner with my family at a local Japanese restaurant.It was great that I had no problems with temptations today.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.When they strike,I have to remember to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to show them that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and wanting to overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of filling out a few more job applications at home,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ