Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today I woke up in the late morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast early and after that,I signed onto all my e-mail boxes to check and reduce some of the stuff that I had.After that,which took nearly half an hour,I showered quickly to clean up.After my shower,I got dressed and returned the phone call that my job placement counselor/coach made earlier while I was still in bed,but I was still tired and sleepy to answer.After that,I quickly did my personal work and I headed out to do a few things that needed to be done.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I saw it was starting to rain.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems with temptations.I went through the whole day and I had no temptations to do anything wrong in a sexual way with men.I had no temptations to fantasize and lust after other men.I also had nothing of that sort to tempt me to manipulate my genitals either.Though I was home much of the day,I didn't have no temptations at all today.I simply did what I had to do at home and that kept my mind off of anything sexual in a fantasy and lustful way.These are my two main problems in my struggle and I am still working on them.I know one day that I will successfully overcome these things.I also know that I will successfully overcome the temptation to manipulate my genitals one of these days.When?I don't know.But I will one of these days.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike ant time when least expected.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to sin by acting out on the unnatural desires that I have in the ways that they try to tempt me to,such as by fantasies and lusting,as well as to manipulate my genitals to any sexual images of men they use to cloud my mind,which causes the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of your for you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ