Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I finally got out to that Salvation Army thrift store in the next county that I have been hoping to get out to.When I got there,I looked around and found a few nice things.After paying for what I had found there,I headed for home.
On the way home,when I got back into the city,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of important things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better soon as I am still hanging onto the hope that my recovery will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours by masturbating.It really brought me down as I was doing good for a while since my last fall,but this time,I fell again.I really felt lousy afterwards as I knew that masturbation is an unclean and dirty habit that will never connect me to the lost maleness that I am hoping to connect to.I have to continually keep in mind that acting out in any way,shape or form will never get me what I want nor will it ever fulfill any of my much needed needs.I need affirmation of my gender identity and I want to have the feelings of authenticity that go along with that affirmation.Acting out in any way,shape or form will never fulfill the deep need that I really need to have fulfilled.If anyone can help,please offer what has worked for you and I will try to use it the best way that I know how.
Tomorrow,I am hoping and planning to attend the morning's church service and the morning Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before it.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some empty cans and bottles that had accumulated in my trunk from collecting them over the past few months.After that was done,I went over to the bank to cash a couple of checks.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and after that was done,I relaxed until it was time for me to leave to have a meeting with the pastor of the church this afternoon.I was having high hopes for this and I was hoping that it would go well.
The meeting went better than expected.After it was over,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really wasn't tempted much today.I had really no urges to act out on my desires today.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the urge to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to also stay strong when that temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head.I have to fight to resist the temptation to masturbate or when my mind wanders into other territories that it shouldn't be wandering into.I have to stay strong.Again,anything helpful is appreciated.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to get out to another Salvation Army thrift store in the next county and I am hoping that I find quite a few nice things.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.This is a weekly group where we we read a passage from the Holy Bible and discuss the passage.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it.After the group was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen to have lunch.After eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery improves soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night by masturbating.I really felt terrible afterwards.I really want to heal from this unwanted SSA,but masturbation won't get me anywhere near what I want to do.I want to overcome and heal from unwanted SSA and I really don't want to masturbate nor act out in other ways anymore.Masturbation will never connect me to my lost maleness nor will it ever give me what I really need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with it.I am still determined to heal from this and I will do whatever it takes to heal from this.I really need to stay on guard and be watchful.I also need to work on staying strong and try to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have another appointment with the pastor over at the church that I have been attending since September.I hope that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I was hoping to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I did have a few things planned.
I had finally gotten out to a Salvation Army thrift store in the next county that I was hoping to get out to for a long time.I finally got out there and I looked around.I did find some really good things there like a few more vinyls for my ever growing vinyl collection and a few other things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and it took me a while to finally reach home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I start improving in my recovery in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted early this morning when I awakened by an erection.I had to toss and turn to resist this temptation until the erection died down.I fell back asleep after that.Though I escaped this one,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When temptation hits,it can get quite ugly.I will just have to keep on fighting whenever it hits me.I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After that was done,I headed back home and I dropped the money off.I headed back out to run a few more errands that were personal and after those were done,I got ready to go and get the wheels on my car aligned.I needed to get this done so I could go the longer distances that I want to go when I want to check out thrift stores in other areas of the region where I live.
After about 15 minutes,the alignment was done and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out by masturbating or by any other way way,shape or form.Though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I also have to fight when it does rear it's ugly head when least expected.There is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can come when anyone least expects it to come.I am also still open to any encouragement from my regular readers.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to get out to a Salvation Army thrift store in the next county.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had mu usual breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee,but I had a third cup as the morning wound down.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to the groups that I needed to attend.After they were over,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.It is the first time in a long time that I gave into this terrible habit in quite a while.I really felt bad and miserable afterwards,but as the day progressed,I felt better.I still need to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am still open to any suggestions as to how I can stay strong to resist any temptation.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get my car aligned.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I decided to get dressed up for church and I headed over to the church for the morning study class and the worship service afterwards.I was looking forward to both with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I really did get quite a lot from both.After some wonderful fellowship,where there were a lot more people there this morning than any other,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to purchase a couple of pizza slices just to try them.After eating them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I put on my regular casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and I also got my laundry ready to take to the laundromat so I could get them done.
When I arrived at the laundromat,I immediately found a washer that wasn't being used and I put my entire laundry load in it and started to get them clean.After a little over half and hour,I put all my laundry into two separate dryers and awaited them to get dry.After that,I folded all of my laundry and bagged everything and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the laundry away and I relaxed while awaiting dinner to be ready.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my SSA desires was minimal if nil at best.I really had no temptation to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate or watch porn.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting when the temptation hits again.As usual,I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I must attend.For the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ