Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed for work.
The work day was just as busy as it was yesterday.After the day was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly to clean up and after that,I had a light dinner and watched a classic TV episode on DVD.I also did my personal PC work and did some visiting online with a few of my online friends.A little later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems in regards to temptations.I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust after other men nor was I tempted to manipulate my genitals to any sexual images.I guess that staying busy and working hard took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I continue to ask that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need all of your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,though I haven't had any problems with temptations for the past few days.They both help keep me going and also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have church as usual in the morning and I also have to work in the afternoon.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed to work for the first day on my new job.
The first day on the job went wonderful.According to my boss and his assistant,I did a terrific job today on the first day.My job placement counselor/coach was also pleased.After the work day was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was tired.After some relaxation and watching a classic TV episode on a DVD set,I showered quickly for a quick clean up as I did sweat today.After my shower,I got dressed and did some personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I headed over to my niece's house for dinner and that was great to be there with her and her children.After some wonderful hang out time with them,I headed out to the local Big Lots to pick up some stuff that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,wonderful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that having a job and working this first day on the job helped.My tasks took my mind off of unwholesome sexual stuff.It was great to work and having that take my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Because Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father and break his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I don't want to do that,but my sinful nature,which Satan and his minions love to play with,wants me to do the opposite.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,it is another work day.I am hoping that it goes as well as today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and after picking a note up from my niece's house,I headed over to the local social services office to drop off some paperwork and after that,I headed over to a local kitchen for some lunch and after eating lunch and picking up some free food giveaways,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some bags of bottles and after doing that and getting the money from them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site that I had from the bottle returns and after that,I headed back out to do a little bit of shopping.After doing that,I headed straight home again.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and I also registered some more bills at the Where's George site from the change that I received.After that,I relaxed and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got ready to go to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully as expected and I got a lot out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to turn in early so I could get up in the morning to head over to my first day at work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations.I stayed busy throughout the day and that kept my mind off of the unwholesome stuff.It kept my mind focused and that was good.I had no sexual images of men cloud my mind nor was I tempted to fantasize and lust,which also included manipulating my genitals.Though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often,especially the positive verbal support.It reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow is a big day for me.I start my new job tomorrow and I am hoping that everything will go well.After that,I will just relax for a while before going over to my niece's house for dinner.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and for most of the day,I relaxed and took it easy for much of the day.I also had a talk with my father for a while and when that was finished,I got dressed and headed out to do a few things.Before all of that,my caseworker came over and we talked for a few minutes.
I first went over to my sister's house to pick up something.After that,I dropped my laundry off at my niece's house.When that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a few classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work while preparing my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to go out and get some gas in my tank and I also stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another classic TV show episode that I popped into the DVD player from a set that I own.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation again in the early morning.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men,but I managed to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.When I was finished praying,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,is very important to me.I need it to stay afloat and also to help me keep going in this particular struggle,as well as to both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening study group,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had nothing to do today,I decided to relax and take it easy.
I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have and I also enjoyed a beer that was in the refrigerator.I am not worried about my meds.By the time that I have to take them,the alcohol from the beer would have worn off as it takes four hours for alcohol to leave the body.I just felt that I should enjoy one as I haven't had a beer in a long time.After that,I laid down in bed and read a chapter in a book that I have been reading and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from the DVD set that I have.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.After a while,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I fell into sin by giving into temptation.I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images clouded my mind,which tempted me to manipulate my genitals,and at the moment of orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and after I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day just catching up on some things that needed to be done.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I really need all the support that I can get as I fell today and need everything that I can get in the way of support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section as I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a visit with my caseworker to discuss some personal stuff,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as I overslept from the time that I actually wanted to get up.After I washed and dried my hair,I neatly brushed it,ate my quick breakfast a little faster than usual and I got dressed up in dress clothes to head for the job placement agency so my job placement counselor/coach and I could fill out some paperwork that I had to turn in to my employer.
After the paperwork was filled out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I jumped into the shower to clean up.After I was finished,I waited for the time to come so I could turn my paperwork into my employer and when the time came,I got dressed in dress clothes again and I headed for the hotel whose kitchen I will be working in.I turned in my paperwork in to the employer and he gave me a quick tour of the place.After it was over,he made copies of my driver's license and social security card and when that was done,we shook hands and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with it,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I own.After that was done,I left the house again to do something that I had to do and when I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I own.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I must say that I had no problems with temptations of any kind.No,I didn't.I guess that staying busy and doing what I had to do to jump start my employment kept my mind off of the sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I have to keep in mind that they can try to tempt me into sinning against my Heavenly Father by trying to get me to break his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let them do that.I have to show the unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support day in and day out.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.Today,we had a visiting pastor from Indiana join us for worship and that was great.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed out to do some much needed errand running.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple cans of peas and a bottle of liquid soap.After paying for these things,I headed for a nearby Big Lots to pick up a bottle of salad dressing.After that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas and after that,I went to see a friend to share my good news,but he wasn't home.After I left there,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into my DVD player and watch it while relaxing.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind in the early afternoon,causing me to fantasize and lust after the images.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems as I worked to stay busy and to keep my mind off of anything sexual.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and very often.Please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need it as much as I need prayers.They both help in many ways,such as they keep me going and show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in paperwork that my job placement counselor/coach and I have to fill out to my new employer,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ