Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though later than I wanted to,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I had only a few things that needed to be done.I had to go to the drug store to pick up my mother's prescription.I also had to pick up other things for her while I was there.After paying for everything,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a spell.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in a positive direction in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted to act out early this morning when another morning erection woke me up.I was tempted to masturbate it away.But again,I fought the temptation by simply tossing and turning in bed until the erection softened and when that happened,I went back to sleep and slept for another hour until the alarm rang.Though I didn't get up right away,I still slept for much of the time and really didn't hear the alarm go off initially again when it did.I simply went and took my morning bath and had my breakfast once I had finally gotten out of bed.I simply followed through my usual morning routine.For the rest of the day,my temptation,craving and urge to act out was minimal if nil at best.The temptation to act out can be strong,but I am overjoyed to know that acting out is a choice and not an inevitability.Though my temptation to act out was minimal if nil,I still have to keep on guard when temptation can rear it's ugly head.It can happen when least expected.But at least I know that I have the choice on whether I want to act out or not.Though I have chosen not to,it isn't easy.The resistance to any temptation is never easy.I know that we all do get tempted to act out from time to time as it is a part of being an imperfect human,but when temptation does come,it is difficult to fight off that temptation when it rears it's ugly head.But I still stay in the fight and I never let it get the better of me.Thanks to all who read my blog for their help,advice and suggestions.They are always appreciated.
Tomorrow,I am planning on attending the morning's church service and I am hoping that I do get a lot out of it and that it is wonderful.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though it was later that I wanted to because I didn't hear the alarm go off,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After all of that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much planned.Yesterday,as reported,we had a snow storm and we were under a Winter weather advisory for much of the day,which ended at 9:00pm last night.The weather is still cold and there is still lots of snow on the ground.But we are supposed to get warmer again starting this coming Sunday.In my area,we have been having a roller-coaster Winter season.One minute it is warm and rainy,while the next minute it is cold and snowy.According to various weather sources,we,in the area of the country where I live,are under a jet stream that was borne out of the West Coast and while we are under that jet stream,we will be having a roller-coaster Winter weather pattern until the jet stream loses it's energy.I really don't know when that will be,but I am hoping that the atmosphere starts to be with the season soon.
Okay,back to the day.I only had a couple of things that I needed to do.I also wanted to make sure that I kept it close to home due to the weather conditions.I only went to a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that were needed for the home.It wasn't easy trying to locate any of the stuff,but I managed to get it all done.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also watched a little TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and I also hope that it does improve somewhere along the line.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted again early this morning when I woke up with a morning erection that was throbbing.Whenever I get an erection in the early morning hours,I am always tempted to masturbate the erection away.In the past,whenever I did get a morning erection,that was the way that I got rid of it by simply masturbating it away.I was in yet another fight to resist that awful temptation.I also felt like that if it kept throbbing,my penis would explode by ejaculating a torrent of semen.Fortunately,that didn't happen and I simply got up to go to the bathroom and the erection started to die down and once my penis was soft,I had no temptation to act out nor any temptation to masturbate it away.I took my bath to clean up and that was that.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.But it was pretty tempting this morning and my urge to masturbate was really strong.I have to continuously keep in mind that masturbation is an unclean habit and once addicted,it can be a difficult habit to break and overcome.The reason why it is so difficult to break free from is because when someone does it,the feelings that it gives feels really good until the ejaculation of semen happens after orgasm is achieved.Plus,when someone is used to it,it is like that their sexuality owns them rather than that someone owning it.I also have to continuously keep in mind that masturbation can have a negative influence on the healing process from unwanted SSA,as that habit will only reinforce the Homosexual identity and keep them as far away from becoming the man or woman that God has intended them to be.It can also give any person in recovery from SSA that it wouldn't hurt to act out at least once,when in reality,acting out will hurt as it might lead anyone in that healing and recovery process back to their old sinful life patterns and then,they're back at Square One.This shows that I still need to be on guard and watchful whenever temptation rears it's ugly head and again,I am glad for the advice that has been given to me.Thanks to all who follow this blog of mine for all the help.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though it was later that I wanted to because I didn't hear the alarm go off,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After all of that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much planned.Yesterday,as reported,we had a snow storm and we were under a Winter weather advisory for much of the day,which ended at 9:00pm last night.The weather is still cold and there is still lots of snow on the ground.But we are supposed to get warmer again starting this coming Sunday.In my area,we have been having a roller-coaster Winter season.One minute it is warm and rainy,while the next minute it is cold and snowy.According to various weather sources,we,in the area of the country where I live,are under a jet stream that was borne out of the West Coast and while we are under that jet stream,we will be having a roller-coaster Winter weather pattern until the jet stream loses it's energy.I really don't know when that will be,but I am hoping that the atmosphere starts to be with the season soon.
Okay,back to the day.I only had a couple of things that I needed to do.I also wanted to make sure that I kept it close to home due to the weather conditions.I only went to a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that were needed for the home.It wasn't easy trying to locate any of the stuff,but I managed to get it all done.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also watched a little TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and I also hope that it does improve somewhere along the line.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted again early this morning when I woke up with a morning erection that was throbbing.Whenever I get an erection in the early morning hours,I am always tempted to masturbate the erection away.In the past,whenever I did get a morning erection,that was the way that I got rid of it by simply masturbating it away.I was in yet another fight to resist that awful temptation.I also felt like that if it kept throbbing,my penis would explode by ejaculating a torrent of semen.Fortunately,that didn't happen and I simply got up to go to the bathroom and the erection started to die down and once my penis was soft,I had no temptation to act out nor any temptation to masturbate it away.I took my bath to clean up and that was that.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.But it was pretty tempting this morning and my urge to masturbate was really strong.I have to continuously keep in mind that masturbation is an unclean habit and once addicted,it can be a difficult habit to break and overcome.The reason why it is so difficult to break free from is because when someone does it,the feelings that it gives feels really good until the ejaculation of semen happens after orgasm is achieved.Plus,when someone is used to it,it is like that their sexuality owns them rather than that someone owning it.I also have to continuously keep in mind that masturbation can have a negative influence on the healing process from unwanted SSA,as that habit will only reinforce the Homosexual identity and keep them as far away from becoming the man or woman that God has intended them to be.It can also give any person in recovery from SSA that it wouldn't hurt to act out at least once,when in reality,acting out will hurt as it might lead anyone in that healing and recovery process back to their old sinful life patterns and then,they're back at Square One.This shows that I still need to be on guard and watchful whenever temptation rears it's ugly head and again,I am glad for the advice that has been given to me.Thanks to all who follow this blog of mine for all the help.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though later than I wanted to,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and following that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the usual spirituality group that I go to on Thursday and I had a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm going there.I always eagerly await these groups every week.I went to the meeting with all of what I was feeling.
The meeting was wonderful.I got a lot out of that and I left with a smile on my face.I headed for home.
I was hoping to have lunch at a local community kitchen,but when I checked my e-mail before the spirituality group started,I saw that at the start of 1:00pm,there was to be a winter weather advisory in effect as we were going to get a Lake Effect snow storm.I decided to head for home instead.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up several things that were needed in the home.After paying for those items,I headed straight home because I wanted to get back home before the worst of the storm would happen.It was already snowing and it was windy,but I wanted to get home before the worst would happen.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also watched A DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and month ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out early this morning.I was awoke by an erection and it was throbbing.I really had to fight hard to resist the temptation to masturbate this away as in the past,whenever I had a morning erection,I would simply masturbate it away.I really had to fight hard and I did it by simply turning onto my right side and then my left side.I kept turning until the erection died down and I slept for another couple of hours.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I really had no temptation to act out today as the day went along.While that was good,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.Why?Because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard when that happens.The temptation to act out can be strong as the desires that motivate the temptation are also strong.The only good thing is that I do have a choice.I can choose to act out or I can choose not to act out.I have chosen not to,though it isn't an easy thing to do.It's easier to give into the temptation to act out than it is to resist it.I know that I still have a lot of fighting to do and I know that I can win this battle.Thanks to all of you for your encouragement and everything else you give.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though later than I wanted to,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and following that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the usual spirituality group that I go to on Thursday and I had a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm going there.I always eagerly await these groups every week.I went to the meeting with all of what I was feeling.
The meeting was wonderful.I got a lot out of that and I left with a smile on my face.I headed for home.
I was hoping to have lunch at a local community kitchen,but when I checked my e-mail before the spirituality group started,I saw that at the start of 1:00pm,there was to be a winter weather advisory in effect as we were going to get a Lake Effect snow storm.I decided to head for home instead.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up several things that were needed in the home.After paying for those items,I headed straight home because I wanted to get back home before the worst of the storm would happen.It was already snowing and it was windy,but I wanted to get home before the worst would happen.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also watched A DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and month ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out early this morning.I was awoke by an erection and it was throbbing.I really had to fight hard to resist the temptation to masturbate this away as in the past,whenever I had a morning erection,I would simply masturbate it away.I really had to fight hard and I did it by simply turning onto my right side and then my left side.I kept turning until the erection died down and I slept for another couple of hours.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I really had no temptation to act out today as the day went along.While that was good,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.Why?Because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard when that happens.The temptation to act out can be strong as the desires that motivate the temptation are also strong.The only good thing is that I do have a choice.I can choose to act out or I can choose not to act out.I have chosen not to,though it isn't an easy thing to do.It's easier to give into the temptation to act out than it is to resist it.I know that I still have a lot of fighting to do and I know that I can win this battle.Thanks to all of you for your encouragement and everything else you give.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I only had a couple of things planned,as the weather was cold and a little snowy today,after the warm relief we had the last couple of days.I first went to the post office to get a money order and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I was tempted early this morning when I had a morning erection.I really wanted to masturbate it away,but decided to tough it out.I kept tossing and turning until the erection had died down.After that,I slept peacefully for next few hours.I know that I will get erections when least expected and that it is a part of what as well as who I am gender wise.But whenever this happens,my temptation to masturbate it away intensifies.But I managed to fight it off.But I was tempted a little bit in the later morning hours.I was actually manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes.But I managed to stop myself in this and it didn't go any further.For the rest of the day,the temptation to act out in that way was minimal if nil at best.Though I did win in this particular fight to resist temptation,I still have to keep in mind that the ugly demon known as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.But I did analyze this and I found that I was still tired in those early morning hours,upon waking and getting up,and when tired,you are still somewhat weak and when temptation starts to strike,you really don't have enough strength to resist,but even in this state,temptation can be resisted.I narrowly escaped that episode,but I know that there will be more times coming when the temptation as well as the urge to give in to the desires will come back and at times,it can be stronger than the last time.Thanks to all of you who read for your support,encouragement and advice.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I only had a couple of things planned,as the weather was cold and a little snowy today,after the warm relief we had the last couple of days.I first went to the post office to get a money order and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I was tempted early this morning when I had a morning erection.I really wanted to masturbate it away,but decided to tough it out.I kept tossing and turning until the erection had died down.After that,I slept peacefully for next few hours.I know that I will get erections when least expected and that it is a part of what as well as who I am gender wise.But whenever this happens,my temptation to masturbate it away intensifies.But I managed to fight it off.But I was tempted a little bit in the later morning hours.I was actually manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes.But I managed to stop myself in this and it didn't go any further.For the rest of the day,the temptation to act out in that way was minimal if nil at best.Though I did win in this particular fight to resist temptation,I still have to keep in mind that the ugly demon known as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.But I did analyze this and I found that I was still tired in those early morning hours,upon waking and getting up,and when tired,you are still somewhat weak and when temptation starts to strike,you really don't have enough strength to resist,but even in this state,temptation can be resisted.I narrowly escaped that episode,but I know that there will be more times coming when the temptation as well as the urge to give in to the desires will come back and at times,it can be stronger than the last time.Thanks to all of you who read for your support,encouragement and advice.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had some stuff planned for the day.I first went over to the local Target to get a gift card for a friend of the family and a bottle of dish detergent.After doing that,I headed over to a Blockbuster in the next town within the county that I live.I went there to exchange a DVD that I had bought accidently as I already had the one that I bought in my DVD library.After the exchange,I headed over to the nearby library to register all the bills that I had in change and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medications as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no desire to act out in any way,shape or form.I had no urges to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation.While that was good,I know that the temptation to act out will come back when least expected.I have to be on guard when that happens and also,be watchful.Anything can happen between now and tomorrow and also,the near and distant future.While I had no urges today,the urges could also come back when least expected.The struggle that a man like me has to go through are always difficult and at times,can seem unbearable.But I have to stay strong.I have to keep saying to myself "I own my desires.My desires don't own me." I also have to keep telling myself that "I can change.I can renew myself.What I am struggling With is not an inborn thing,but an emotional thing.I can beat this and I can be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be."I have to keep telling myself those things day in and day out.I am greatful for all of what I had received from those who keep reading and following this blog of mine.I am hoping to use them the best way that I know how and I am looking forward to newer opportunities to improve myself.Thanks to all for the help given.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had some stuff planned for the day.I first went over to the local Target to get a gift card for a friend of the family and a bottle of dish detergent.After doing that,I headed over to a Blockbuster in the next town within the county that I live.I went there to exchange a DVD that I had bought accidently as I already had the one that I bought in my DVD library.After the exchange,I headed over to the nearby library to register all the bills that I had in change and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medications as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no desire to act out in any way,shape or form.I had no urges to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation.While that was good,I know that the temptation to act out will come back when least expected.I have to be on guard when that happens and also,be watchful.Anything can happen between now and tomorrow and also,the near and distant future.While I had no urges today,the urges could also come back when least expected.The struggle that a man like me has to go through are always difficult and at times,can seem unbearable.But I have to stay strong.I have to keep saying to myself "I own my desires.My desires don't own me." I also have to keep telling myself that "I can change.I can renew myself.What I am struggling With is not an inborn thing,but an emotional thing.I can beat this and I can be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be."I have to keep telling myself those things day in and day out.I am greatful for all of what I had received from those who keep reading and following this blog of mine.I am hoping to use them the best way that I know how and I am looking forward to newer opportunities to improve myself.Thanks to all for the help given.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, January 16, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good,if not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though it was later than I wanted to get up,and bathed.I just didn't hear the alarm initially when I was still sleeping.When I did finally get up,I bathed and after my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I really didn't have too much to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up something that my mom wanted me to get for the house.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but not too eventful,day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still dealing and struggling,on a daily basis,with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medications as directed.I am hoping to continue to recover and I am hoping that it will become positive in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out today was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out on my desires nor did I have any urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of achieving hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.After yesterday's sermon in church,I actually felt good after hearing what the pastor talked about.It all made sense.I simply did get a lot out of what the pastor discussed with everyone in the church about sexuality and what God had intended for it to be for us humans on Earth.I left yesterday feeling a little bit better.Yesterday,my temptation to act out on my desires was just as minimal if nil at best as they are today.I am hoping that the pastor delivers more sermons of this type in the near future.They are so desperately needed in this day and age to educate those who worship in the church on sexuality and why God had created it and what he intended for sexuality to be and what he meant for it.I am taking what the pastor said to heart and I am hoping to continue benefiting in the near and distant future.Though at the moment my cravings or temptations to act out are minimal if nil at best,I still need to be on guard as the cravings and the temptation to act out can come back when least expected.I have to be watchful as it can rear it's ugly head when not realized in time.Again,I know that I have to be on guard.But I am still thankful for all the advice that has been given.I am going to try and apply this advice in the near and distant future.Thanks again to all for their help.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though it was later than I wanted to get up,and bathed.I just didn't hear the alarm initially when I was still sleeping.When I did finally get up,I bathed and after my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I really didn't have too much to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up something that my mom wanted me to get for the house.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but not too eventful,day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still dealing and struggling,on a daily basis,with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medications as directed.I am hoping to continue to recover and I am hoping that it will become positive in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out today was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out on my desires nor did I have any urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of achieving hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.After yesterday's sermon in church,I actually felt good after hearing what the pastor talked about.It all made sense.I simply did get a lot out of what the pastor discussed with everyone in the church about sexuality and what God had intended for it to be for us humans on Earth.I left yesterday feeling a little bit better.Yesterday,my temptation to act out on my desires was just as minimal if nil at best as they are today.I am hoping that the pastor delivers more sermons of this type in the near future.They are so desperately needed in this day and age to educate those who worship in the church on sexuality and why God had created it and what he intended for sexuality to be and what he meant for it.I am taking what the pastor said to heart and I am hoping to continue benefiting in the near and distant future.Though at the moment my cravings or temptations to act out are minimal if nil at best,I still need to be on guard as the cravings and the temptation to act out can come back when least expected.I have to be watchful as it can rear it's ugly head when not realized in time.Again,I know that I have to be on guard.But I am still thankful for all the advice that has been given.I am going to try and apply this advice in the near and distant future.Thanks again to all for their help.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a very good and eventful day today.
This morning,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up as I was going to church this morning and I wanted to make sure that I made it on time for the morning Holy Bible study classes that they usually have every Sunday until Summer.In the class,we were finishing up the birth of and it's significance for all of us and how his death can benefit all of us.The class was wonderful and after that,I got ready for the service after that class was over.
The service was yet another wonderful service indeed.The sermon this morning was on Sexual Morality and the scriptures used were 1st Corinthians 6: 12-20.The sermon really made a lot of sense.The fellowship after the service was also terrific.I am going to be putting this to good use in my life.I am going to continue working on avoiding anything immoral in the sexual sense and I am going to keep working to fight temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head.It won't be easy,but I know that I can do it.I left church and on the way home,stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something.After that,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a warm sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue in my recovery and I am hoping that it does indeed get better and more positive in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,they were minimal if nil at best today.I didn't have any cravings nor any temptations to act out on my desires.I also didn't have the urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them hard or near hard for the purpose of masturbation.I guess that the sermon in church today played a role in that.I had no erotic thoughts of men cloud my mind.I also didn't have no erotic thoughts of anything period.I also didn't have the temptation to act out by watching pornography themed to the so called "Homosexual/Gay" culture.For the first time in quite a long time,I felt no temptations nor any cravings to act out in any way,shape of form.Again,I guess that they sermon that was given in church today concerning how God intended sexuality to be and why he created the two people of opposite sexes that he created for a reason.It was a terrific sermon and also,the words that were expressed by the pastor were words that I personally desperately needed.I am hoping that the pastor at the church that I worship at will have more sermons like this one.Each and every one of us as people need to have sermons of this sort to keep in mind why God created sexuality and what he intended sexuality to be,as he never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us uses and abuses it.Again,I had no temptations,cravings nor any urges to act out in any way,shape or form.But still,although today was wonderful,I still have to be on guard because it can't be predicted when the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard.The temptation to act out will come again.I will just have to be watchful when it happens.I am going to try to apply the advice that has been given to me by those who have been following my blog and I will hope for the best.Thanks again to all for their help.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
This morning,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up as I was going to church this morning and I wanted to make sure that I made it on time for the morning Holy Bible study classes that they usually have every Sunday until Summer.In the class,we were finishing up the birth of and it's significance for all of us and how his death can benefit all of us.The class was wonderful and after that,I got ready for the service after that class was over.
The service was yet another wonderful service indeed.The sermon this morning was on Sexual Morality and the scriptures used were 1st Corinthians 6: 12-20.The sermon really made a lot of sense.The fellowship after the service was also terrific.I am going to be putting this to good use in my life.I am going to continue working on avoiding anything immoral in the sexual sense and I am going to keep working to fight temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head.It won't be easy,but I know that I can do it.I left church and on the way home,stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something.After that,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a warm sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue in my recovery and I am hoping that it does indeed get better and more positive in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,they were minimal if nil at best today.I didn't have any cravings nor any temptations to act out on my desires.I also didn't have the urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them hard or near hard for the purpose of masturbation.I guess that the sermon in church today played a role in that.I had no erotic thoughts of men cloud my mind.I also didn't have no erotic thoughts of anything period.I also didn't have the temptation to act out by watching pornography themed to the so called "Homosexual/Gay" culture.For the first time in quite a long time,I felt no temptations nor any cravings to act out in any way,shape of form.Again,I guess that they sermon that was given in church today concerning how God intended sexuality to be and why he created the two people of opposite sexes that he created for a reason.It was a terrific sermon and also,the words that were expressed by the pastor were words that I personally desperately needed.I am hoping that the pastor at the church that I worship at will have more sermons like this one.Each and every one of us as people need to have sermons of this sort to keep in mind why God created sexuality and what he intended sexuality to be,as he never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us uses and abuses it.Again,I had no temptations,cravings nor any urges to act out in any way,shape or form.But still,although today was wonderful,I still have to be on guard because it can't be predicted when the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard.The temptation to act out will come again.I will just have to be watchful when it happens.I am going to try to apply the advice that has been given to me by those who have been following my blog and I will hope for the best.Thanks again to all for their help.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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