Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though later than I wanted to,and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and following that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the usual spirituality group that I go to on Thursday and I had a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm going there.I always eagerly await these groups every week.I went to the meeting with all of what I was feeling.
The meeting was wonderful.I got a lot out of that and I left with a smile on my face.I headed for home.
I was hoping to have lunch at a local community kitchen,but when I checked my e-mail before the spirituality group started,I saw that at the start of 1:00pm,there was to be a winter weather advisory in effect as we were going to get a Lake Effect snow storm.I decided to head for home instead.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up several things that were needed in the home.After paying for those items,I headed straight home because I wanted to get back home before the worst of the storm would happen.It was already snowing and it was windy,but I wanted to get home before the worst would happen.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also watched A DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am still taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and month ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out early this morning.I was awoke by an erection and it was throbbing.I really had to fight hard to resist the temptation to masturbate this away as in the past,whenever I had a morning erection,I would simply masturbate it away.I really had to fight hard and I did it by simply turning onto my right side and then my left side.I kept turning until the erection died down and I slept for another couple of hours.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I really had no temptation to act out today as the day went along.While that was good,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.Why?Because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard when that happens.The temptation to act out can be strong as the desires that motivate the temptation are also strong.The only good thing is that I do have a choice.I can choose to act out or I can choose not to act out.I have chosen not to,though it isn't an easy thing to do.It's easier to give into the temptation to act out than it is to resist it.I know that I still have a lot of fighting to do and I know that I can win this battle.Thanks to all of you for your encouragement and everything else you give.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ